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Okay. So. This morning I had to get up extra early so I could take my pills and requisite Ginger Ale before Mom and I had to leave for Angus to pick up a new (used) aquarium. Because mine was leaking. Naturally. Again.

The best I could find was a 40 gallon for $80 which especially sucks because one of my air pumps died as well so I had to spend $35 replacing that. So $115. OUT OF JUNA'S VET MONEY. Now I have to postpone Juna's check-up by probably two months, but at least I got Pluto done this month so I got his yearly prescription repeat and everything. Juna doesn't have any meds he needs, he's just going in for shots, etc.

Anyway, so today the weather wasn't TERRIBLE so the drive to Angus was alright. The weather lately has been ATROCIOUS, it's been a bad winter, so we were lucky to get a good day for this. And despite everything going on between us right now, Mom was willing to drive me, which was nice of her.

So, we picked up the aquarium and came home, and I did a little bit of writing for Snapshot before promptly DYING because of getting up so early and missing my afternoon siesta (between 10:30am and 12pm-ish. I sleep during that time every day and it is ESSENTIAL.) I only slept for an hour, though, and then I was back up and started in on emptying the old tank and setting up the new one.

OVER THREE HOURS LATER AND I'M STILL NOT DONE. But I've done everything I can without access to Jessie's room because while I was taking everything apart one of the filters broke, but luckily I already have a spare, it's just locked in Jessie's room at the moment. I also need another aquarium thermometer out of my Pets Bin.

I had to get Mom to help me swap the tanks out because they were way too awkward for me to carry on my own, and when I voiced wanting to keep the old tank to use as a terrarium, she like FLIPPED OUT. She hates that I keep stuff, like she is a minimalist and doesn't understand my need to be surrounded by THINGS to the point that it actually pisses her off. Whereas I find comfort in clutter (not MESS but ORGANIZED CLUTTER), and I guess we really couldn't be any different if we tried. I think I take after my Dad too much and she sees it in me and it just drives her crazy. Or something like that...

So, now the new tank is like 98% set up but the axolotls are still in the bucket with an air stone while I wait for the dichlorination tablets to work their magic on the new aquarium. Like another hour and we should be good to go.

Also, I'm washing a load of towels because I have used SO MANY TOWELS the last couple days. :|

I was supposed to cook tonight but with the whole aquarium shenanigans I just didn't have time. So, Mom and Lee went out to dinner (without me, of course) and I ate a beef patty from the freezer while I worked on aquarium stuff. I'm going to cook tomorrow night instead.

OH, AND HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! <333

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The axolotl aquarium is leaking. AGAIN. This is like the FOURTH TIME (not to mention the tank that overflowed before this one) and at this point there is NOTHING in the tank that could be overflowing; everything in the tank is internal, the filters, the airstones, EVERYTHING. So, the only thing it CAN be is a leak in the tank itself. >:|

Last night I bailed out a bunch of the water and then marked a line in black marker where the waterline currently was and this morning it's below that line, so it's still leaking I just don't know where from. I have a bunch of towels on my bedroom floor to help sop up the mess, but the poor carpet and the floor underneath... and the dresser it's sitting on! Christ. I'm probably going to have to wash my entire wardrobe again once I have this all dealt with.

I found a new used tank on kijiji for $80, and the (very nice) seller says it holds water, so Mom and I are going to pick it up tomorrow. In the meantime, I guess I empty the current tank even more and see if I can get below the leakage line? Last resort I move the axolotls to one huge bucket and the fish to another huge bucket, both with airstones, and then just empty the entire tank. I know the 'lotls can survive in a bucket with an airstone for a day, but the fish might die. At least they can be easily replaced.

The OTHER big problem with this is that it's coming out of my money for taking Juna to the vet next month, so he might have to be deferred until April or May instead, which I was hoping to avoid doing. But that's why I did Pluto first, so I KNEW I had his medication refill in case I had to cancel the appointment in March for some reason. So, I mean. I guess it is what it is.

I also have to go back to Trombly's and try to get worms for the axolotls again tomorrow, which, assuming they have them, is like a $30-$40 touch.

Literally I have never had an aquarium leak or overflow like this in my LIFE until I moved back in here. This room is aquarium KRYPTONITE, I swear to God. If the tank we pick up tomorrow starts leaking I'm going to have to just rehome everybody and I really, really don't want to do that. I fucking LOVE my little 'lotls with all my wretched heart. :<

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Other than that... today was SPN fic update day over at AO3 so I uploaded the first of the post-SS one-shots, When Lightning Strikes. We'll see how it goes. Not really expecting much feedback or interest, if the rest of the series is anything to go by. *shrug* It really bothered me at first but I think the fandom just died when the show ended, which is really too bad. I know that sometimes happens with fandoms/shows but it's always disappointing when it does.

Next week was supposed to be Ghost In The Machine, but will probably end up being Snapshot instead because I'm about halfway through writing that and 0% of the way through editing Ghost In The Machine. :D;; But I'm having fun writing teenage!Dean and human!teenage!Cas again, I didn't realize how much I'd missed them until I started writing Snapshot. They have a real nostalgia and almost innocence about them, even though the fic is like 75% smut, as usual. Haha.

Also, I just remembered about Alien: Kaer Morhen and I REALLY need to get to writing that and also to writing Witcher SPN AU some more, it's been FOREVER since I wrote anything in that AU and I kind of miss Lambert and demon!Aiden. They're my babbies in that AU. <3 And the one fic in that AU that actually CROSSES OVER and has Dean, Sam and Cas in it! That one was fun, I need to write more of it! XD

On top of all that I want to get into writing some N.D. drabbles again. The first one I want to write is a kind of funny scene with pregant!Hikaru and male!Taiga. I also kind of want to write something with Josei pregnant with Miyuki and Rui positively doting on them both because he absolutely would do that. Then stuff with some of the younger generation, maybe, more more Rose Light shenanigans? There's so much I could get into lol.

Anyway. Blah blah blah writing, you know the drill.

EDIT: AAAAAAND ONE OF MY AIR PUMPS HAS DIED SO I JUST HAD TO DROP $33 ON A NEW ONE. FUCK ME SIDEWAYS.

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Today I did basically nothing for most of the day because I'm so sore from hauling boxes up and down the stairs at Dad's place yesterday. I slept until my alarm (for once) and then after I'd been up for a couple hours I was like "fuck it" and went back to sleep again for like three more hours. My legs are killing me, like going up and down the stairs is a CHORE and my back keeps seizing up at random intervals.

I downloaded last week's episode of Brilliant Minds and it was SO GOOD. I cried. And then Dr. Wolf kissed the Neurosurgeon whose name I can never remember and I was just going CALLED IT because I knew a few episodes as soon as they offhand mentioned that the Neurosurgeon was bi. The one thing that bothers me about Brilliant Minds is that every second character is gay, and normally I LOVE LGBTQA+ representation in my media, but Brilliant Minds is really going overboard with it sometimes. But I wonder if that's part of the point of the show.

I also downloaded The Crazies (2010) because I haven't watched it in FOREVER and I had the urge to. Also my copy is in storage right now, so I have no access to it. It like... borders on being a zombie movie without ACTUALLY being a zombie movie, you know? At some point I should watch the original The Crazies, actually...

Tonight I like deep-cleaned the axolotl tank to make it nice for the new additions tomorrow. Though I'm not looking forward to the drive, I'm definitely looking forward to picking up my two new 'lotls. But right now Kaida is mad at me because I took everything out of the tank to clean the hides and suction the aquarium, so he's just being a grumpy 'lotl. It's actually pretty cute.

Mostly, though, today I've just been working on writing. I'm up to 69 pages and 33,093 words on TKA, so I'm WAY ahead of the game for the 50,000 word goal of the NaNo, but we'll see how much I actually manage to get done before the end of the month. I'm writing on average approximately 3,008 words a day, which is fantastic, but I'm also working on other things at the same time. Today I wrote 2,227 words on Echoes (mostly Destiel smut), and I officially have Freefall open in Word right now, too. I wrote the ending of Freefall the other day, the first thing I wrote for it, so it's like. Sure, why not?

Also everything yells at me that "Freefall" isn't one word but FUCK YOU SPELLING PROGRAMS I'M USING IT AS ONE WORD ANYWAY. Literally it's just the title, I don't think I'll even end up using it in the novel itself, so whatever. But after I finish TKA I want to work on Freefall and My Zombie because those are the two that have the most development for them, really, so it makes sense.

I also want to work on the Storm Season fics (THERE ARE SO MANY) and Where Monsters Come From, too, of course. And more SPN Witcher AU. And I want to get back into my Valdemar stuff, finish up some of the fics that've been dormant for a while. Marionette. Brothers At Arms. Of The Deepest Dye. That kind of thing. And, naturally, I want to write a House M.D./Brilliant Minds crossover because the idea of House and Wolf in the same room just TICKLES ME. That sort of thing.

But I need to keep in mind, when I do finish and edit TKA, that if I manage to get an agent and sell the book, I could potentially be looking at writing the whole TKA series, which is 10 books long. The second one is Pelts For Pounds, and then the third is called Grimoire, etc. They all have titles, characters and plots but need more work before they're ready to be written.

Anyway.

Plotting and planning, plotting and planning.

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Alrighty, so. Basically, Nightingale has been REMOVED from the post-Storm Season one-shot roster because it really works better as a stand-along one-shot, I think, since it focuses on Sam more than Dean and Cas and all the Horror High et al stuff is very Dean and Cas centric. HOWEVER, it has been IMMEDIATELY REPLACED by ANOTHER fic, Mockingbird, which struck me this morning and DOES fit in Horror High verse quite nicely. Unrelated to Nightingale, even though they both have birds as the titles. :D;;

I'm making up my own original monster for Mockingbird, which I've never done before, I've always used SPN-verse monsters or (bastardized) monsters from folklore around the world (the jorogumo, the palraijuq), so making something up on the fly is going to be interesting. Socorros are interesting, though, they can mimic any sound or voice with near-perfect accuracy. It's how they lure in their prey. Hence "mockingbird", though they also have things in common with shrikes as well, particularly in how they feed. And of course they have a human form to blend in with society.

Anyway, yeah, so Mockingbird is a thing now and I have way more figured out for it than I do for Day Drinking, which I THINK is going to be a wraith Hunt, but then again, I've done wraith Hunts twice before already so I kind of want to do something else. Maybe ghouls? I'm still deciding.

So I finished When Lightning Strikes, Ghost In The Machine and Pinfeathers (not in that order), and now I'm working on Teeth and trying to get as much done of it as I can in the next two days before the NaNo starts and all fanfiction goes OUT THE WINDOW for an entire month. DO YOU HEAR ME, BRAIN? ALL FANFICTION GOES OUT THE FREAKING WINDOW. FOCUS ON TKA GDI. ALSO DO NOT SUDDENLY HYPERFOCUS ON FREEFALL, EVEN THOUGH I CAN TELL YOU WANT TO. BEHAVE YOURSELF FOR ONCE, OR I SWEAR TO GOD NO MORE ADHD MEDS FOR YOU. (I'm kidding pry my ADHD meds from my cold dead hands.)

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Tonight I have to give Kaida's tank a thorough cleaning, like take all the hides and stuff out and clean them off and vacuum out all the gunk because even cleaning every day I'm missing some, especially on and around the hides. And part of that is NOT dumping the water back into the tank after I'm done using the gravel vacuum, so last night I got a bucket of water out and sitting to dissipate all the chlorine so I can use it to top up the tank when I'm done. Hopefully I can do all this without traumatizing Kaida TOO much. Poor guy. But it really does need to be done. :/

I can't remember if I mentioned it or not, but I DID end up pulling Castiel out of the axolotl aquarium and repotting him in soil after all. He just really wasn't doing well (as opposed to Dean, who is THRIVING) and I didn't want him to die, so I just yoinked him. I also renamed him Gabriel, so whatever plant I end up getting to go in with Dean can be named Castiel and my little shipping heart will be happy. I'm thinking about getting a monstera on Thursday when my money comes in.

P.S. Sam is also doing really well in the tank, and Jack is growing like a bad weed so I'm hoping to be able to add him to the tank in a couple of months, too. ♥

When I put out my Pumpkin Parade this year (I put out 10 and I have another one to put out on Halloween night) I was half expecting some of them to get stolen by the redneck asshats who live next door to us, but so far it hasn't happened (a miracle??) and I am not complaining. I can't really put out any more pumpkins/jack-o-lanterns outside because I have nowhere to put them, but there are nine inside as well. I'm enthusiastic about my pumpkins. XD;;

Mom even got in the spirit this year, too, though, she bought a witch window decoration and a ghost for our front door wreath, which like, she NEVER decorates for Halloween so I must be catching. It's super nice to see her getting into it a little this year, though. Normally Christmas is her thing and she's just MEH about Halloween.

SPEAKING OF CATCHING. Mom and I both seem to have miraculously NOT caught Covid from our trip to Toronto/the aquarium, which is like. Yeah. Wow. I figured FOR SURE we'd both end up sick from that and I'd end up with pneumonia again at the very least. NOT COMPLAINING.

Also my jaw is hurting right now. The one that got shattered by the dentist back in the summer. It doesn't hurt much anymore, but sometimes it still aches so I guess it's still healing. Probably just the last of it, but I'm reluctant to get dentures until I know for sure my jaw has settled down, you know? If I get them and then my jaw shifts a bunch more they won't fit right and I'll be SOL because ODSP won't pay for a second pair that quickly. The dentist told me to call in early November to book an appointment with the denturist but idk. Then again, with my new diet and all the vegetables and fruit and CHEWING I'm going to have to do, I NEED the dentures, so like... idk, man, idk.

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YESTERDAY WAS AQUARIUM DAY!! ...and today I am so, so tired. So tired. Just. My alarm went off at 8:30am to take my pills and feed the cats and I was like "nooooooooooooo UGH FINE." I feel better now that I've been up a while but I'm still going to lay down for a nap after I'm finished writing this entry haha.

SO. We left the house around 11:30am because it takes a couple hours to drive to Toronto from here and our tickets were for a 2pm entry. We stopped for gas before we left town, and then on the highway we stopped at a convenience store/Tim Hortons for drinks and snacks along the way. Then there was the LONGEST DRIVE in the SHITTIEST CAR because Mom's started leaking some kind of fluid the day before so we had to take Lee's truck, which has muffler problems (that he refuses to fix) and electrical problems (that he refuses to fix) AND no working air/fan (which he refuses to fix), so we had to drive the whole way down the highway with the windows open which was freaking TORTURE for me. But I was like AQUARIUM. DO IT FOR THE AQUARIUM.

Anyway, when he got down to the area we needed to be in in Toronto we got somewhat stymied by the fact that a bunch of blocks were blocked off by the police and we really... needed to go... down some of those blocks. So it's a good thing we left early, because we drove around for like half an hour before we found a round-about way to the parking so we could walk to the aquarium a couple blocks away.

When we got to the aquarium there was a beaver tails truck outside and we were both like HMM but we ended up skipping it and just went in instead. We were basically right at exactly 2pm so we went right in, and the first thing we did was take one of those green screen tourist photos together that we would pick up on our way out.

The aquarium itself was actually bigger than I thought it would be, which is cool, and had some really nice displays. There was one HUGE tank that was basically three levels floor-to-ceiling with kelp and all kinds of fish that Mom said she wanted for a wall in her living room lol. I really loved the seahorses and sea dragons; even the Baltimore aquarium didn't have sea dragons, so that was cool. They had goliath and colossal groupers that were FREAKING HUGE, and they had a GIGANGIC shark/ray/sea turtle/etc. tank that took up most of one level, and part of the walk-through was going through a tunnel under it and seeing the sharks and rays and stuff swimming all around you. THAT was REALLY cool.

I took like a hundred photos (and three videos), and along the way we stumbled upon a little like, arcade machine that dispensed souvenir coins, so I put my money in ($20/4 coins) so get one of each coin... only to discover that the shark and axolotl ones were fucking SOLD OUT, and the machine wouldn't give my money back. >( So I had to take two of the sea nettle coins and two of the sea turtle coins, but I was really annoyed. I mean if they're sold out there should be a notice or something because that's a lot of money I didn't have to spend. Boo.

BUT I think I'm going to try punching a hole in one of the duplicate coins to make it into a pendant, and I'm going to send the other one to Poe at Birthmas time, assuming they ever get around to giving me their new address. :|

Anyway, at the end of it all was the gift shop, which I didn't have as much money to spend in as I'd originally intended because of having to buy the fluconazole and the cream the day before, but I still had $60 so I was like LET'S DO THIS. I ended up getting a plush axolotl that miraculously ISN'T PINK, I can't tell if it's supposed to be a wild type or a melanistic one but I'LL TAKE IT, an axolotl fridge magnet because I always buy a fridge magnet, and a little shark bag clip for Lee since he didn't come along (THANK GOD.) Mom apparently found something for me for Christmas, but she was very stealthy about buying it and getting them to staple the bag shut so I couldn't peek inside. :P lol.

Then AFTER the end of it all we finally found the axolotl tank and I was able to show Mom what Kaida will grow into when she's not a lil baby anymore! Mom thought they were cool, so I guess that's a plus.

Speaking of axolotls, the woman I got Kaida from messaged me yesterday to ask how things are going and I messaged back saying Kaida is kind of shy but a goofy girl when she IS out and about, and we got talking and there's a chance I might be getting another little 'lotl from her at the beginning of next month. IF I can talk Mom into making the drive out to Elmvale again. I guess we'll see!

RIGHT SO BASICALLY, we did the aquarium thing for a couple of hours, then we left, and in trying to leave Toronto got slightly lost for a brief amount of time, but righted ourselves pretty quickly. While we were lost we ended up stopping at a convenience store for drinks though haha. And then we were off! On the way home we stopped for dinner at a place along the highway and I got a burger and Mom got a sub

And today I am uploading all my photos and videos (theoretically; Insta doesn't want to upload my vids for some reason) and just generally being exhausted. But that comes with the territory, I guess. Mom is probably feeling it today, too. Both of us were SO tired on the way home yesterday we were yawning like CRAZY. XD;;

And now... it's time for my nap! Adios!

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I got more fluconazole yesterday, as well as more cream, so yay for that, though it took $50 out of my Aquarium Money, which I am not pleased about. I really wish ODSP gave people like an actual, living wage instead of an amount that's literally below the poverty line. Doesn't seem right to me, but then again, I'm biased.

But yes, aquarium today!! STILL EXCITED!! I had to get up early to get my pills into me so I'll be over the nausea hump and ready to go by 11:30am when we're leaving, but it's worth it. I'm soooooo looking forward to taking tons of pictures and showing Mom what an aquarium is like. AND THE AXOLOTLS, I want her to see what Kaida will grow into!!

I'm packing 2 power bars and 2 granola bars just in case because of blood sugar issues for both me AND Mom, as well as my 4pm pills so I can take them while we're there. Now I just have to talk Lee through feeding the cats at 4:30pm, which is SUPER simple but he'll get confused by anyway. =/

Speaking of Kaida, though, she was actually out today when I turned on the aquarium lights (VERY low lighting, just enough to keep the plants alive) and fed her her pellets, and she is HUGE. I mean, comparatively. She's still actually tiny. XD;; But compared to when I brought her home she's grown SO MUCH and she's CHUBBY now so I miiiiiight be over-feeding her? I need to monitor the situation and see how it goes. I'm looking forward to when she's bigger and I can see her more. Right now she's so small she vanishes into all the little nooks and crannies too easily haha.

I've been working on Ghost In The Machine, and I'm 17 pages and 7,769 words into it, so about halfway. Still a lot to go, but good progress. I was originally going to write Ghost In The Machine as totally SWF, no smut in sight, but... the boys had other ideas. Oops. The same thing happened with Teeth. Double oops. But I still have hope for Temper Tantrums! I will prevail in writing at least ONE SFW fic in the Horror High et al series! >:O

Anyway, I think I'm going to spend the rest of the morning editing When Lightning Strikes before I go back to Ghost In The Machine tomorrow. That sounds like a solid plan. Although it's not like I don't have plenty of time to write these one-shots; I have TEN WEEKS starting December 5th when I post the first chapter of Storm Season, so. There's no rush, really, except that I might still be working on TKA at that point QUESTION MARK?? I guess we'll see. *shrug*

Also yesterday Poe FINALLY emailed me back and was like "what parcel? What address did you send it to? I live in _____ now." And I was like fffffffffucking!! I messaged and emailed you COUNTLESS times over the course of the FIVE WEEKS before I actually MAILED THE PARCEL asking you to confirm your address and saying if you didn't I was just going to send it to the one I already had and you NEVER REPLIED, SO I DID JUST THAT JESUS CHRIST WHAT THE FUCK.

I emailed back asking if their FAMILY still lived there, at least? Because then it's salvageable. But if they've moved, too, then I'm boned and I spent $125 and sent some special stuff off for some random strangers to have instead of Poe and now I just want to cry. Fuck fuck fuck!!

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BUT YES ANYWAY AQUARIUM TODAY YAAAAAAAY!! <333 (More on this later.)

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I finished When Lightning Strikes last night; it came in at 32 pages and 14,721 words, which is about average for a one-shot in the Horror High et al series. The word count may increase or decrease incrementally when I sit down to edit it later, but for now I'm leaving it and moving on to the next one, Ghost In The Machine, which co-stars Charlie Bradbury. <3

Also even though I scrapped Stalagmites, I added in a new one-shot between Temper Tantrums and Halcyon Days. It's called Hunting Souls and is another one where Cas is reunited with one of his old school friends, this time Jo. Though I am wavering a little on it because the other three with that theme are for his core group of three friends, and I'm not doing one for Kevin, so like?? But it's a really good idea, story-wise, and also Dean and Cas fucking in the back of the Impala. :3

Yesterday my brother came over to do laundry and stuff and he got his birthday pie and didn't even say thank you. He's always rude as fuck when it comes to that, he never says "thank you" for ANYTHING, not even birthday and Christmas presents. He's actually completely alienated Grandma because of it. And I don't know where it comes from because Mom really instilled in us to be polite in that regard the whole time we were growing up. It's like he moved out on his own and decided fuck polite society or something.

Anyway, after he left Lee went to run a load of laundry and halfway through the washing machine broke SO THERE'S THAT. I had laundry to do as well, but I guess not so much anymore. I'm not DESPERATE, though, like I still have some clean underwear and everything to get me through a few days, but still. So Mom and Lee are going out today to see if they can find another washing machine, even though it's Sunday. Most places are open Sundays now, anyway.

I think I need a second dose of fluconazole, I took it on Friday morning and it knocked my YI down a peg but it hasn't cleared it up entirely, which isn't a surprise given how FREAKING BAD it was. But the pharmacy won't refill my prescription for like a month, I don't think, which will just give the YI time to build up again, I think I'm going to have to go to Walmart and buy some fluconazole instead, which is like $20 I don't have. I'll TRY the pharmacy and my 'script again first but I mean... yeah. I think I'm about to be out a bunch of money, here, because I need more cream, too. Sucks.

Sometimes I worry about my liver because of the amount of pain meds I have to take to make it through each day. It's probably just in there screaming for mercy at this point. And I read earlier that a toxic liver can cause bad acne, which I've been experiencing the last few months, so that's got me wondering. I know I shouldn't just jump on stuff I read online but I really DO take a LOT of pain meds, especially acetaminophen, which is particularly hard on your liver. idk. Just. Worrying.

Yesterday I fed Kaida some bloodworms and she deemed them worthy of coming out of hiding for and she is getting SO BIG!! I'M SO PROUD OF HER!! I mean she is still tiny, but she's probably half again the size she was when I brought her home, she's growing so fast!! AHH I'M A PROUD 'LOTL MAMA!! (I would still die for her.)

In related news, I think I am going to just have to pull Castiel out of the tank entirely and re-pot him in dirt, he's really not doing well and I don't want him to die. =/ So later today I think I'm going to go to the Dollarama at the corner and pick up some potting soil and a pot for him. This means separating him from Dean, who is THRIVING in the aquarium, but I guess it is what it is. Maybe I'll just rename him something else and get a new plant for the tank to name "Castiel" instead. NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW.

Mom and I are going to the aquarium TOMORROW and I'm SO EXCITED. I haven't been to an aquarium since... 2006? 2007?? Something like that. And Mom has NEVER been to one, so I'm excited for HER, too. Just. Excitement in general. I'm going to make sure my phone is fully charged and take SO MANY PICTURES. And then buy something nifty at the gift shop, of course!

I'm liiiiiiike 95% done my current batch of Wiggly Foxes, I just have to go over the white with a second coat, paint their little, super tiny eyes and noses black and use a cue tip and some acetone to touch up their tails a little. And I'm considering painting the green one with a glow-in-the-dark coating?? But I haven't decided for sure on that one yet. Still thinking it over because that means doing a coat over all the green parts again and having to do touch-ups and stuff and idk if I feel up to that with this particular batch of foxies.

Then it's on to the next batch of Wiggly Foxes and deciding what I want to do with them! :D

EDIT: I'm trying to write Charlie for Ghost In The Machine and I am STRUGGLING. She feels really OOC to me, and I don't have anyone I can get to read what I've written so far and tell me if I'm being paranoid or not. Boo to not having any SPN friends. BOO I SAY. Anyway my head hurts so I'm just going to take a nap and then get back to it later today, hopefully. :|

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Yesterday, my Stepdad did the groceries, the same as he does every Friday. And this week he was supposed to be buying the Halloween candy to hand out to the kids on the 31st. Every year they buy a huge box of like 95 chocolate bars, I buy a huge box of 90 Maynard's candies, then we get six kids, and we end up just divvying almost all of it up between the three of us at the end of the night.

So on Thursday he was going through the flyers and he was like "oh, these ones are on sale for $12, but the ones we normally get are only on for $14" THIS MAN NICKEL AND DIMES FUCKING EVERYTHING. And Mom and I were like "uh, yes, but the $12 box is all peanut butter stuff that SENA CAN'T EAT, GET THE ONE WE NORMALLY GET" and he didn't really say anything. Then he comes back from groceries with the $12 peanut butter chocolate bars box and I was SO. FUCKING. LIVID.

HONESTLY, HOW INCONSIDERATE CAN YOU GET? LITERALLY HE DID IT JUST BECAUSE OF $2 AND BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT TO SHARE WITH ME THIS YEAR. HE'S A PRICK. So I was like FINE. I'M NOT SHARING MINE WITH YOU, EITHER. And he gave me a LOOK and I didn't say anything else, and it's like... no. If you're going to be like that, then I can be like that, too. Fuck you.

I did share with MOM, though, because it's not HER fault my Stepdad is a selfish asshole. >(

ANYWAY.

I did the math and so far, in completed fics, since August I have written 219,314 words which, as I said before when I was counting PAGES, is TWO freaking novels. And that's not counting all the bits and bobs I've written but not finished yet, either.

I keep doing all this math (TRY to take my freaking calculator away lol) to try to psych myself up for the NaNo next month because I'm starting to get nervous about it, and if I'm nervous then I DEFINITELY won't do well. I just need to relax and write the same as I have been. Obviously I'm capable of it, I just have to do it, even though my brain always shuts off automatically and plays dead the instant the NaNo start bell rings. =/

I just messed around on pinterest for the first time in my life and created the beginnings of a TKA board and linked it up to TKA in my NaNo profile. Something I can look back at when I need inspiration, you know? And I just realized I didn't include any SHOWERS in the board and that is UNACCEPTABLE. XD;; I'll fix that when I'm done here.

I'm 15 pages and 9,703 words into When Lightning Strikes, so I'm about halfway there with it, and I'm going to try really hard to focus on just it until I have it done and then move on to the next one in the series, Ghost In The Machine. My ADHD has been making me jump around projects a lot lately and I have to try to focus down on one at a time despite that. Definitely talking to Dr. K about increasing my Vyvanse dosage when I go in in November because trying to write TKA with my brain doing this is going to be impossible.

Yesterday I finally got the pie made for my brother's (belated) birthday, and it turned out really good! I took a picture lol. He's coming over today to do laundry and stuff, so he'll take it with him when he goes home. I really hope it tastes as good as it looks. I hope he likes it. I always worry about that with pies for some reason, even though they pretty much always turn out fine...

TWO MORE DAYS 'TIL THE AQUARIUM. OwO

Oh, and Poe's parcel was picked up a couple days ago and I emailed them asking them to please message me or something when it arrived so I knew it got there in one piece, but the tracking says it arrived yesterday and... no message. No email. They have well and truly washed their hands of me. Which is GOOD, in a way, but also... it wasn't my intention when I sent that initial email. I said we shouldn't be in CONSTANT communication, not that we shouldn't communicate AT ALL. And it's really... it's rude. For them to not even drop me an email saying "yo it arrived fine." That's all I was asking for. So I dunno, just. I dunno.

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I finished my first edit of Storm Season last night; it went faster than I thought it would, there weren't as many errors in it as there were in Horror High, THOUGH partway through one chapter I found a scene that I had STARTED to write and then never... finished. *FACEPALM* So, I had to finish that up. Now Storm Season's word count is 77,005 and it's page count is 168, which is actually mildly disappointing. I was so tickled when it came in at 167, the exact same as Horror High. But oh well. XD;;

Anyway, I'm going to leave it sit for a while and then do another once-over before I start posting it, just in case, but as of right now Storm Season is ready to go and I am working on When Lightning Strikes, Ghost In The Machine and Teeth today, because for some reason this morning I can't just focus on one. Seriously, I need an up in my ADHD meds. :|

I haven't seen Kaida in a couple days. I startled her two days ago when I was cleaning out her tank and she disappeared. I just hope she's okay, I would be devastated if she died. :( ...and literally JUST as I was typing this I looked over and she was out wandering around SO I GUESS SHE'S FINE. Also she's bigger already and I've only had her a week. Apparently axolotls grow FAST. In other news, she JUST came back out and today I have to clean her tank again like. I'M SORRY KAIDA. ;~;

I think I might need to take Castiel out of the aquarium and plant him in dirt again, he's not doing as well in the water as Dean and Sam are, although he's doing better-ish now that he's away from the cooling fan. I'm gonna give it a few more days and see how he continues to fair and then decide. If I do have to plant him in a pot, I'm going to have to go to the Dollarama and buy some potting soil and also... a pot to plant him in. I have run out of pots lol. But Dean is still THRIVING in the tank and even though Sam hasn't been in there nearly as long he seems to be doing pretty well too, so those two are okay at the very least. I'm still growing Jack into a proper-sized plant before I can add him, but he's a spider plant so he should do fine. I dunno, just... learning as I go. *shrug*

Only three more days until Mom and I go to the aquarium in Toronto and I am SO EXCITED. I freaking LOVE aquariums, the one in Baltimore was my JAM, and Mom has never BEEN to one before so I'm looking forward to seeing her reaction, too. I'm gonna take TONS of pics and buy one or two things at the gift shop because aquarium gift shops are always awesome. <3

My Medic Alert bracelet broke the other day, which is a pain but not the end of the world because I have all the tools to fix chains and stuff, and I fixed it last night but now I need someone to help me put it back on because it's a two-hand job and obviously I can't do it on my own lol, so I'm gonna ask Mom today if she can just clip it back on for me. Then I'll be all safe and sound again.

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Last night I reached my 70,000 word goal for Storm Season!! I set the goal at 70,000 words because Horror High ended up at 70,659 and I wanted them to be roughly the same length but now I have SURPASSED THAT GOAL and I am at 72,380 words, which means Storm Season is officially longer than Horror High!! ...in WORDS. It's still only 159 pages (HH was 167) but that's because SS is much denser, word-wise, which isn't a bad thing.

Anyway, I still have two or three more scenes to write. Two of them are (HUNT) scenes SIGH, which I just... fuckin'... UGH. FUCKIN' UGH. But they need to be written. And I know exactly how I want the second one to go, I just have to actually WRITE IT. The first one is still a little vague in my head but I had an idea for it last night that might work so I just need to build around that and hopefully I can get that done as well. I'm hoping to be finished Storm Season completely today or tomorrow.

Then that gives me until the 31st to EDIT IT, which is a job in itself, but should be doable. The first thing I have to do is divide it up until proper chapters and separate them out into different Word documents to make things easier on myself (and Riptide) and then just... editing. So much editing. Mostly to make sure my timeline makes sense, tbh, because I have this nagging feeling it doesn't entirely. :P

Then it's NANO 2024!! ...and after the NaNo I can start posting the chapters of Storm Season and working on getting the post-SS one-shots finished up so they're ready to go when I'm done posting Storm Season itself (it'll be at least 10 chapters, maaaaaybe 11?) Plotting and planning, plotting and planning. (I should have just adjusted things a little bit and saved Horror High and Storm Season to be original works but TOO LATE NOW OH WELL!!)

What else...

Oh, FedEX is supposed to be picking up my Poe Parcel today between 8:30am and 12:30pm and it is now 10am and they haven't arrived yet. Booking through Interparcel is a SHITSHOW every single time, and literally every time I've booked through them I've had problems, either they don't show up to pick up the parcel on the correct date or the parcel gets damaged or something, but they also save me SO MUCH MONEY on overseas shipping?? SO LIKE?? WHAT DO I DO HERE?? I think in December when I send the book and card to Poe I'm going to just go to the post office, since it's just going to be an envelope. It'll still cost me a SHITTON of money, but at least I know it'll go out on time and be handled correctly. =/

I have two things coming in today from Amazon. One is literally just a giant tub of 60 lollipops BECAUSE LOLLIPOPS and the other is a new filter for Kaida's aquarium. The two underwater sponge filters work really well as CHEMICAL filters, but they don't do JACK for filtering actual particulates, so I picked up an in-tank filter that's low flow and meant for turtle tanks because her water is getting cloudy even with me cleaning the tank every day. I know axolotls don't like too much water flow so I took out one of the air stones to make up for the new filter, and she'll be fine with just the two bubble filters and the one air stone. Just... trying to keep a happy middle ground between ideal axolotl conditions (a stagnant pond) and ACTUAL ideal axolotl conditions (a clean tank.) Hopefully this new filter will do the job.

And tonight some time after 5pm I have a girl coming to look at Flora and Fauna to potentially buy then. I'm like FINGERS CROSSED that she does because I could really use the $150. Either way, Mom and I made boxes for them yesterday (since they didn't COME with boxes) for her to transport them or for them to go into storage, depending. But like I said, I'm really hoping she decides to take them. :|

EDIT: FEDEX JUST CAME AND THERE WAS NO MUSS OR FUSS IT WAS SO EASY I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW AHHH.

EDIT #2: I just finished writing the second (HUNT) scene (palraijuq) and it turned out good (I will probably offend the Inuit though!) Now I just have the poltergeist/zombie one to do, plus maybe one more scene, and I'm officially done writing Storm Season! Then it's on to the editing phase!

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I had a Dentist appointment today and they filled four cavities in various spots in my mouth and ALSO clipped off a BONE SPUR from when my jaw got broken a while back, and all of this required FIVE shots of freezing and I'm just like... frozen from my chin to my eyeballs right now. I can barely talk and I have no idea how I'm going to eat dinner. My TONGUE is numb. :|

Oh, but in a month I can finally go in and get an appraisal for dentures, so THAT'S good at least!

Anyway, while I was out an Amazon parcel arrived for me with my Jamieson probiotics, my aquarium thermometers and my turkey baster, so while I'm waiting for the freezing to fuck right off, I got a thermometer onto the axolotl aquarium and... it's too warm. Not by MUCH, it's at 22C and needs to be at 20C but still that's a couple of degrees that I have to figure out. I'm going to turn on the fans I have for the tank and see if that helps. Might have to buy another set of fans for the other side, too. idk we'll see.

Still need to unpot Sam and get him into the aquarium, but I'll do that after dinner, and I need to add a couple of chemicals to the tank for the monthly maintenance so I'll maybe do that now? Anyway, I basically have to go and make dinner in ten minutes so that's all I have time for anyway right now. :P

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Today I woke up at 5:30am and couldn't get back to sleep so now I'm just... puttering around. I posted Cerulean Blue to AO3, Tumblr and Vanimadin, so we'll see what kind of reception that gets, and I posted my photo for the day for my photoblogging already, and I also did some image editing for covers for some of my writing because I'm super into doing that right now.

I have three things arriving from Amazon today; my Jamieson probiotic gummies, my aquarium thermometers, and my turkey baster. Unfortunately my super long tweezers won't be here until the end of the month so I'm going to have to jury-rig something else for feeding worms to my axolotl when I get it next week. Maybe chopsticks?? idk I'll figure something out.

I keep looking at my huge aquarium and wishing I could get some little fish to go in the tank with my future axolotl, just for visual interest, but sadly... they could potentially pick at the axolotl's gills, which is no good, or, when the axolotl got big enough, it would just EAT THEM, which is also not good, so like. No fishies. Or anything else. Just the 'lotl. But I'm fine with that! I'll just fill it up with plants (inside and out) and make it pretty that way.

(I'm so excited for next week like ahhhh!! X3)

I decided that today I'm going to just... bite the bullet and get down to unpotting Sam to put him in the aquarium. It's such a Job with a capital "J" to unpot plants, I hate it. I learned that doing Cas and Dean. But like... I need to do it eventually and I want to get it done BEFORE the axolotl is actually IN THE TANK so. TODAY IT IS. (My spider-plant, Jack, is going to have to go in after the 'lotl is already in the tank but there's just no getting around that. He's still too little to go in yet.)

I need to get another air pump for the aquarium, this last one that I bought is UNACCEPTABLY LOUD. The PREVIOUS one I got is basically WHISPER QUIET but when I needed a second one I cheaped out and bought a less expensive one and now I regret my life choices. So I have to go back and buy another one of the good ones because the noise is driving me BONKERS. Did I mention I HATE air pumps??

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Yesterday I made the rice pudding I've been meaning to make for like a month now and it turned out great as always, and now I have a little bit of 2% milk for two or three teas as a treat since it only takes 3/4 of a carton to make the pudding. I LOVE 2% milk in my tea and cooking/baking but Mom and Lee keep stupid 1% in the house instead and I'm like... blegh. At least it's not skim. For a while they kept THAT in the house and it was just COLORED WATER GDI.

Some time in the next couple of days I need to go at and make the sweet potato pie that I've been procrastinating over, too. I think one of the sweet potatoes is starting to grow mould. They probably should have been kept in the fridge?? But Lee has been really bitchy lately about me having too much stuff in the fridge, so I just left them out to avoid the inevitable conflict. Like, I understand that the fridge is getting full, but I fucking live here too, you know?

Anyway, I'm making a practice sweet potato pie to see if it turns out before Thanksgiving weekend, when my sister is having everyone over for Thanksgiving dinner. If it DOES turn out then I'm going to be making another one for that, though I may just be sending it along with Mom and Lee because idk if I'm going to feel up to going to a huge family get together like last year. Especially if Sarah and Heather are going to be there. I can't handle their stupidity. I mean. It's... nice. Seeing everyone. But my anxiety and depression really don't like it AT ALL, and with how I'm feeling lately I just... I don't want to be there for 30 minutes and then have to beg Mom to drive me home because I'm about to have a breakdown. I dunno. I guess we'll see how I feel on the day. =/

I've been working on a set of Wiggly Foxes the last few days, they're all base orange but I'm painting their socks/paws/ears/parts of their tails different colors. One is Cayman Blue, one is Thistle Blossom Pink, one is Spring Green and the fourth is half Violet Pansy Purple and half Bright Gold. They're coming along really nicely.

I really enjoy doing my foxes, but they cost like $14.99USD each because of the sheer amount of time and effort that goes into each one. It takes me DAYS to paint a fox, so they're pretty expensive. I have a few up in my Etsy store right now but no one's biting. Then again no one bites at anything in my store, so what else is new? I think the foxies would go over better at cons or markets (especially cons) but I don't currently have access to anything like that, so I mean. Etsy it is, I guess.

I really have to get my current buttons up on my Etsy, too. The Pontypool and Evil Dead Rise ones. Buttons are a big commodity and they seem to go over well, and I have all the photos taken I just have to upload them and list them I just fffffffffffucking hate doing Etsy listings. *HEADDESK* But again, I've got to just... buckle down and do it. I also have some new ones that I want to make with Abigail quotes, and I want to do some Captain America and Deadpool ones we well. I wish I could figure out how to insert images as background for buttons, though, I've been trying for months and still can't get it. Frustrating.

A little while back, Poe offered to let me sell their button designs in my shop and I went through and picked the ones I liked and they sent me the files so I could have them made, but then I ended up ending our friendship, essentially, so part of my goodbye letter was to say thank you so much for the offer, but that I wouldn't be using their buttons after all. It's too bad, there were some good ones. But I guess I'll just keep doing my own thing, making buttons my own (shitty) way, and hopefully things on Etsy will pick up, especially since I can't work anymore...

I've managed to get back into working on Storm Season again, I think, not that you could tell it from this morning so far. I'm hoping after I feed the cats I can sit down and bang out a few pages. I'm up to 101 pages and 45,111 words, so I'm getting there. According to the NaNo word tracking bar graph it looks like I'm about 2/3 there. Seriously, though, using the word trackers at the NaNo website have been SO helpful in visualizing my progress and where I am in any given project. I have a really hard time doing that on my own, so. Yeah.

It's only the 3rd of October so I have pretty high hopes that I'll get Storm Season finished by the time the NaNo rolls around in November and I throw my hat in the ring with TKA. Not 100% sure about all the one-shots, but hoping to have at least the first three of those finished as well to give me some padding to finish the other four after I finish posting Storm Season.

I'm PRETTY sure I'm going to start posting Storm Season after the NaNo is over, in the beginning of December, but I might start posting it sooner than that, depending on when I get it finished and how much editing I can get done/how quickly I can get it done. I would love to start posting Storm Season chapters the week after I post Falling Stars, but that's only a couple weeks away now and I doubt I'll have it finished and edited in time for that. Maybe for the beginning of November, if I really push myself, though, then I could post updates throughout November while I was working on the NaNo.

But yeah, I dunno, I guess we'll see.

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I HAVE A DATE AND TIME TO PICK UP AN AXOLOTL NEXT WEEK!! <333

It's in Elmvale, which is like a half an hour-ish drive away, but Mom is fine with it so on Tuesday I'm going to pick it up! It's a wild type and I don't know the gender (won't until it's older/bigger) but I'm going to name it Kaida, which is a Japanese name that means "little dragon." :3

The tank is 99% ready to go and has been cycling for a month now so basically I just need to add the second air stone (I'll do that today or tomorrow), GET A NEW AIR PUMP THAT IS QUIETER JFC THAT'S WHAT I GET FOR GOING CHEAPER, and obtain some more plants. But adding a few more plants to the tank shouldn't bother the 'lotl much at all so I'm not worried about that. I'm hoping to get some from the awesome aquarium store in Barrie when we go around the 15th or so.

I also still need to... SIGH. Unpot Sam and clean off his roots to plant him in the aquarium. Boo. It's such a chore. But I should do it BEFORE introducing the axolotl so some time in the next couple of days. Also Sam is so big he is 100% not going to fit in the aquarium planters, so I'm going to have to split him and then what to do with the other half of Sam?? I HAVE NO IDEA. *FACEPALM*

On a related note, Cas and Dean are doing well in the aquarium still, particularly Dean, who is growing vines over toward Cas. Getting grabby. Sounds about right. XD

The actual AQUATIC plants are a whole new ballywhack to me, though, so idk if I'm even going to be able to keep them ALIVE. I've never tried underwater plants before, so I'm just kind of like. Sticking them in the tank with all my hopes and prayers. I should probably name them, too, actually, but then again apparently axolotls are known to tear plants apart when they get bigger so maybe best not to get too attached to them yet. lol.

Also I still want some duckweed but I also still have NO IDEA where to get it. :| I'm going to ask at the aquarium store in Barrie but I feel like it's more of a pond supply store thing and I have no clue where one of those might be since Critter Cove stopped selling pond stuff?? So yeah.

EDIT: Yesterday on our way to dinner, Mom and I stopped at Tremblay's out the other side of town so I could buy some wormies for my new axolotl! A dozen worms cost me $4.95 which isn't bad. (The last time I bought worms from the pet store they cost me TWENTY DOLLARS for a dozen worms so like I AM NOT COMPLAINING.)

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Yesterday was Shopping Day for the month, so there was lots of running around. The two days before that (Saturday and Sunday) I had a migraine that would NOT go away, so I was really happy to wake up yesterday and have it gone. I was actually feeling pretty decent when we headed out, though by the time we got back home I was SO overheated and exhausted it was terrible.

Anyway, so we went to the Dollar Tree first so I could buy earplugs since they're the only place that sells the earplugs I can use at a decent price, and while I was there I got a bunch of snacks and stuff as well. Oh! And tiny little black and orange Halloween ornaments that I can't really do much with now BUT I plan to use the SHIT out of when I have my own apartment again. :D

Then the bank, where I pulled rent and the money I owed Mom, plus $35 for myself for (hopefully) getting the rest of Dad's Christmas gifts this coming Saturday from the Farmer's Market at ODAS Park (little Star Wars crochet dolls!)

After the bank was Costco where I spent like $100 on muffins and medication, but it was less than I normally would have spent, so that was good. It was around 1pm then so I also got a piece of pizza from the "food court" there for lunch. Then it was off to Walmart!

Walmart was... God, idk. Some groceries, some meds, some cat stuff, some stationary stuff, and I went to the essential oils section and found like five bottles of oil for candle making that SOMEHOW ended up in my cart; Watermelon Rosemary, Cinnamon Sticky Roll, Buttered Pancakes, Strawberries And Cream and Honeysuckle Pineapple. ALL FOR THE LOW LOW COST OF $10/EACH. *FACEPALM* (There are other scents I want for seasonal candle making that I'm getting off Amazon later, too.)

Oh, and I also found two Christmas mugs because FREAKING CHRISTMAS STUFF IS OUT ALREADY WHAT THE FUCK.

Yeah. So next we went to Petsmart where I got crickees for Itsy, a new betta fish (he's purple and yellow and his name is Jaune) and three potted aquatic plants for the axolotl aquarium, though one of them refuses to sink so I have to shove some stones in it's pot to weigh it down. :P I want more plants than these three, but that was all Petsmart had. Mom and I are supposed to be going to Barrie later this month so hopefully I can get some more at the awesome aquarium store there. (Also I can ask about duckweed. :|)

Then the last stop was Shoppers where I got my Coke and ginger ale for the month, and mailed my postcards. I was supposed to buy more books of stamps, but the Post Office was closed for National Day of Truth and Reconciliation. Oh well. I'll buy them next month.

Then when I came home (after I had a rest and put everything away), I bought some citrine chip beads off ebay, a copy of Burn Our Bodies Down by Rory Powers off thriftbooks (I also want In A Garden Burning Gold and In An Orchard Grown From Ash by the same author but they have to wait), and a few things off Amazon: probiotic gummies, aquarium thermometers, a turkey baster and loooooong tweezers. The tweezers won't get here until the end of the month because FUCK paying $40 for expedited shipping for fucking TWEEZERS but the rest of it should get here around the 9th? For some reason something in the order is holding it up. Boo. (I have a bunch more stuff off Amazon to buy that has to wait until my GST/CCP comes in.)

Umm... that axolotl guy that never emailed me back finally emailed me back and so I messaged him again to ask if he had any 'lotl's left and... nothing. Seems like he's an "emails every couple days" kind of guy, which is annoying. But I'm tentatively hopeful? If I get a 'lotl, I'm going to name it Kaida, which means "little dragon" in Japanese. <3

MOM AND I HAVE BOOKED TICKETS TO THE AQUARIUM IN TORONTO!! FINALLY!! We're going on the 21st and I need to make sure I have money for food and souvenirs for then because I NEED to buy at least one souvenir from the gift shop. 83 Mom was looking at the website to book the tickets (and also just to look at the website) and they had axolotl pics and she was like "LOOK AXOLOTLS" and I was like "YES I SEE!" :D

I've actually been tinkering with Where Monsters Come From yesterday (and today since I woke up at 4am and couldn't get back to sleep) and I've written a couple pages, which is... I mean. Progress, I guess.

Also, I know I said I wasn't going to do posts for all my short stories and stuff in the NaNo Project Tracker BUT. I might have. Done. Exactly that. :| So now I have 13 projects listed, but most of them are 15,000 word short stories so do they even COUNT? AHAHA. I also added Chemistry and Marked to my NaNo projects because maybe if they're up there I'll actually... fuckin'. Work on them. YEAH.

I have almost everyone figured out for Christmas this year and by "everyone" I mean "no one." I know what I'm getting for Mom, my brother, Lee, Dad and Lois, but basically everyone else is a GIANT QUESTION MARK HANGING OVER MY HEAD. I'm considering socks again this year. Just random weird socks the same as last year. But if I'm going to do that I need to order them like ASAP so they arrive in time. So. But yeah socks is pretty much all I can afford anyway, since I'm not working anymore. :P

EDIT: I changed my mind, my new betta fish is now named "Delta." :D

EDIT #2: I need another 3" binder for TKA and I really should have bought it while I was at Walmart yesterday. =/

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I'm craving watermelon like CRAZY right now and there is literally nothing I can do about it until at least Friday, probably more like Monday. UNACCEPTABLE.

I'm up super early today because today is the day that Mom and I are helping get Grandma moved into the new care home here in Orillia, so I needed to be up early to take my pills so (hopefully) be over the HORRENDOUS NAUSEA they cause before 9:45 when it's time to leave. I'm... not looking forward to this. Any interaction with Grandma nowadays, especially when she's stressed, is just... it's terrible. And I'm a horrible person for thinking that. But my mental illness doesn't like HER mental illness and it's just like. I can't. But I also can't avoid her forever, so...

I reformatted part of my journal on my HD in Word today, since I figured out how to get text to wrap around images. That will make things look much nicer in the future and also save space, but it meant I had to re-print like 25 pages. It seems all I'm doing lately is re-printing stuff. I'm using up so much ink and paper. =/

I repurposed my My Zombie binder, which has been sitting empty, into a Storm Season et al binder. Originally the plan had been to have Horror High, Storm Season and all the one shots (at the time just Cheap Motel and Counting Scars) housed in the same binder but now Horror High and all it's one-shots take up an entire three-inch binder of their own and Storm Season has even more one-shots than HH, so like. Yeah.

Tomorrow is Thursday so that means posting the next Horror High one-shot, Counting Scars. Cheap Motel got a mediocre response, but I've come to expect that from this series so it wasn't disappointing or anything. And posting Cheap Motel got me a bunch more clicks and stuff on Horror High, so maybe the same will hold true for Counting Scars? We'll have to see.

After Counting Scars I have three more one-shots to post over the next three weeks, and I'm HOPING to get Storm Season finished and edited in that time, but I think SS will end up butting right up against the NaNo for this year so I'm going to take a month's break and then start posting it in the beginning of December. That gives me more time to work on the Storm Season one-shots, too.

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I started notes on yet ANOTHER new original writing project last night. It's called Serial Souls, and it's a supernatural/horror/crime... ish? Deal. It has a lot of characters in it so I'm still figuring that out. I usually try to keep my Main Casts to a handful of people but in Serial Souls I'm basically populating a small town, so it's like. Yeah. A lot of people. Living and dead and in-between. :D

Anyway.

I'm HOPING I can get Mom to help me hang my new macrame plant hanger in my room today when we get back from helping move Grandma, but I guess that'll depend on how it goes. I really want to get Bella and Charlie hanging properly and off Mom's shelves in the living room. I still have three other plantlings on the shelves (my spider-baby, Jack, the clipping I took off Bucky, and the clipping off of Dean, both of whom need names still; I'm thinking I might name the Bucky clipping "Alpine") but I really don't have anywhere else to put them. Except for Jack, when he's bigger he's going in the aquarium. But he's still too tiny right now.

Speaking of spider plants, Peter is so happy right now he is growing FOUR vines of spider-babies and I'm like. Peter. That's too many babies, Peter. We do not need that many babies. (But at least he's happy, I guess?)

Also Dean and Cas are doing well in the aquarium so far, except they continue to drop dirt into the bottom of the aquarium and it's SOIL so it's TINY and I'm not 100% sure how to CLEAN IT UP. Eventually they'll get rid of the last of it, but I'm just going to leave it until they do and then try using my aquarium vacuum... suction... thingy. If I can figure out how to use it.

I also still need to unpot Sam and get him into the aquarium but I'm procrastinating over it because it's SO much work and also because he looks rather nice the way he is?? Maybe I should just put Bella in the aquarium after all? But then again I rather like the idea of having Sam, Dean, Cas and Jack all in the aquarium as a lil family, so like... I dunno. I'll probably unpot Sam after all. But he's so big probably only half of him will FIT and then what will I do with the other half of him? The other half of Sam?? HMM?? No clue.

It's still going to be a while before this tank is ready for an axolotl. :|

Last night I put all my candle making stuff away again. I had gotten it all out intending to make some Halloween mug candles but then it just sat around my room being in the way while I was like MEH over making candles in general, so away it went. I tried to tidy up my room a little yesterday. Was moderately successful. Anyway, I can get the candle stuff back out again easily enough if I change my mind, and I still have some time to make Halloween candles for FB Marketplace. *shrug*

Right, just. Ramblings while I try to focus on stuff that isn't CRUSHING DESPAIR. MOVING ON!!

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I've been working on another RPNAU Hijack one-shot that's a Biology side-story, Coffee Break, last night and this morning so far. I really enjoyed writing Snowflakes And Dragons, it was a nice break from the ALL DESTIEL ALL THE TIME that's been going on in my brain lately. I mean, I'm going back to Storm Season et al as soon as I'm done Coffee Break, but still. *shrug*

I spent most of yesterday editing and collating Biology and then printing it and all it's side-fics out and putting them neatly in a binder for safekeeping. I've done the same thing with Horror High and all it's one-shots, and I need another binder to do the same for Storm Season and all IT'S one-shots. I also want to print hard copies of my Valdemar stuff at some point but literally I am going through SO MUCH paper and ink, I can't even explain. :|

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It's been two weeks now since I talked to Poe, with the exception of the email they sent me that said they couldn't talk to me right now because I stupidly mentioned Teen Wolf to them. I understand the trauma from that con, but I don't quite understand how that translates to me? Why can't they talk to ME just because I mentioned it? I guess because now they associate me with said trauma? idk, it's hard to understand unless you've been there, I suppose. I'm trying to be understanding and give them space, in any case, I just don't know how long it's going to be before we're talking again and that's frustrating. At the same time, it's probably no good on their end right now, either, so. Yeah.

Last night I woke up at 3am gasping for air, like wheezing and unable to breathe, and I have NO IDEA what is wrong with my lungs right now but they OBVIOUSLY aren't getting better. I need to talk to Dr. K about it, but my next appointment isn't until November because she said "two months" and the receptionist heard "almost four months" and I'm like. Something is really fucked up and I don't know what but we need to figure it out because I CANNOT BREATHE.

Now my lungs hurt and my back hurts and my diaphragm hurts from coughing overnight and I don't even know what to do anymore.

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I was looking at Castiel and Dean in the aquarium planters today and Cas is doing really well but Dean had a couple of dying leaves, and when I went to pluck them out I found out there were a couple of his vines that weren't even IN the water. *facepalm* So I tucked him in properly and we'll see how it goes.

I still need to unpot Sam and get all the dirt off his roots so I can put him in the aquarium, and I'm still growing Miles to a suitable Aquarium Size, because he is still itty-bitty. (Also considering re-naming him "Jack" since Mom stole my Jack vine and I like the idea of having all SPN plants in the aquarium.) But I think in the end Cas, Dean, Sam and Miles/Jack are going to be the only plants in the top of my planted aquarium, since I want to add a second fan on the right side of the tank and that will take up the space for the other two planters.

The seller on kijiji that I messaged about an axolotl never bothered to message me back, so I guess that's not happening. It's fine I'm still working on the tank anyway. :|

So far so good with Charlie, she seems to be liking her new digs. Not dying yet, so that's a plus because she was EXPENSIVE. The second pink princess philodendron leaf that I've been trying to propagate still hasn't died but also isn't... doing... anything?? So I dunno with that one. I've got it in soil now, we're gonna give that a try rather than the water propagation, so we'll see. If it does eventually take Mom is going to adopt it since I've got Charlie now, assuming Charlie survives.

I went to the Dollarama the other day because the last time I was in they had these really cute Thanksgiving mugs that said "Blessed" and "Thankful" etc. and I wanted to get some to make into candles to sell on FB Marketplace. But when I went in they had ONE mug left and I'm like OF COURSE. So I grabbed it and I'll go back later with the hope that they've restocked.

I plan to make a bunch of really cute Christmas mug candles, too, when Halloween is over and the Christmas stuff starts hitting the stores. Christmas mugs are always super adorable and cheap no matter what store you go to. I'm gonna run out of wax, though, since it takes so much to make a mug candle. :P But the thing is, a bag of wax is $35 and a mug candle goes for $25, so if I sell two or three I've made up for the wax, I just need to, yanno, SELL those two or three.

I really wish I could put them on Etsy, but the shipping would be ATROCIOUS and no one would want to pay it (and I don't blame them.) So FB Marketplace it is!

Oh, and I'm gearing up to post the first few of my Wiggly Foxes on Etsy, since the boxes for them came in the other day. I have all the pics and videos, I just need to do the actual, yanno, UPLOADING. :D;;

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9:28am and I'm still awake. When I call them I call them. Though I DID get like an hour and a half nap earlier before I woke up again, so that's something.

At least something good is coming out of the insomnia; I'm actually working on TKA! I know, miracle of miracles! I don't know why, I just clicked on it and read through the beginning that I'd already written and I was like "huh" and just started typing. A couple of pages so far, but it's progress! I'm aiming for 250ish pages for TKA so I have a long way to go. I'll probably finish it at 150 pages and then be like FUCK and have to go back and pad it out more haha. Right now it's a whopping 9 pages long, but that'll change fast if I can get my ADHD to fixate on it like it has been on the Horror High AU stuff. I need to find my printed notes and go over everything that I have on my Murder Boards because I'm sure I forgot some stuff when I was doing the notes on the computer, like Aidan's jell-o fixation, and Phoenix as Aidan's unintentional Emotional Support Dog...

Wren's birthday is coming up in October, I should do something to celebrate. Maybe make a spooky candle lol.

I did work more on Tying Knots before I switched to TKA, though, and it's 9 pages so far. I don't think it's going to end up at 30+ pages like the last few one-shots that I wrote for the Horror High et al universe, but it'll be a respectable length anyway. I haven't written the smut yet. Because I'm procrastinating over it. Because it's top!Cas and bottom!Dean and I just... don't even know. :| I'm sure once I get started it'll come along fine, I'm just very hesitant because all I've ever written is top!Dean and bottom!Cas... except for that one scene in Everything I Do. Also it's been FOREVER since I wrote anything Omegaverse and I'm like. Welp.

So yesterday Charlie came in the mail and I went up to the Dollarama and bought more potting soil (just a small bag for like 75 cents) and a pot for her, and got her repotted so she has the good soil and room to grow. I also put her in a spot with as much sunlight as possible (for now; when my new macrame hanger comes in she's going in my bedroom window with Peter.) I have like... 7 baby plants propagating right now? And I basically took over the shelves by the back door with them, and yesterday Mom and I talked and I was like "other than Charlie and Miles, you can have any of the others" so she very carefully moved three of them from the shelves over to the windowsill as if they have to be separate or I'll steal them back or something. XD <3

Last night I got the second filter up and running in the future!axolotl tank. I still have to do the air stones, but those can wait until basically right before I actually get the axolotl. Dean and Castiel have been planted in the aquarium for a few days now and seem to be doing fine, but we'll see how they're still doing in a month or so and judge from there. I still have to prep Sam for the other end of the tank, and grow Miles to a big enough size that he can go in the aquarium, too. Right now he's too teeny (the TEENIEST.)

I really do think I'm going to get a second fan for the axolotl aquarium, too. I'm very concerned about keeping the water temp down for my future!axolotl, and I can't afford an actual aquarium chiller, so the fans will have to do. Also bottles of ice, which Poe recommended to me a while back, if it gets insanely hot and my air conditioner dies or something outrageous like that. I also still need to get the aquatic plants for the tank but that has to wait until midway through October when my government payments come in. That's when I have to mail Poe's parcel, too. Hopefully by then they're able to email me again.

Speaking of plants though, every year I plant tomatoes, and this year was no different, and because of the weather they grew like CRAZY and I had SO MANY tomatoes on the vines, and the beginning of the harvest was GREAT. BUT THEN. About halfway through, the tomatoes started showing up with like brown discoloration on the tops of them? And those ones were no good for eating. At first it was just a few, but then it was most of them. I had some sort of tomato blight this year, which sucks. But I did get a lot of good tomatoes before the blight took over, so I guess I should count myself lucky. It's not like the whole crop was a bust. At this point it's late enough in the year that I need to just take the plants out entirely, but probably not today. Today I'm hoping to sleep for the afternoon. Fingers crossed.

I read a couple chapters of Wilder Girls the day it came in and haven't picked it up since. I'm still having a hard time focusing on reading, even with the ADHD meds, plus my new glasses, which I definitely need for reading, hurt my eyes if I wear them for too long. I just need to get used to them, which basically means I need to read more, except the ADHD, etc. It's a vicious cycle. From what I've read so far, though Wilder Girls is GREAT and is going to be a FANTASTIC READ.

After Wilder Girls I'm going to read The Trees Grew Because I Bled There by Eric LaRocca, it's a short horror story anthology that Poe recommended to me. I have another book by the same author, Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke, in my Amazon cart right now to pick up if I like The Trees Grew Because I Bled There. It's probably hit-or-miss. Some books that Poe recommends are GREAT and others are just... not to my taste. But I'm always up for trying something new, and especially a horror anthology!

EDIT: Just messaged someone on kijiji about a 'lotl. o_o

EDIT #2: I just went to feed Jaskier and he had passed away. He WAS very old, but still, it's sad. I had him for a long time. I guess I'll get another betta fish to keep Lute company next month. Goodnight, Jask. <3

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I got a great idea for Pinfeathers last night and started writing a bit of it, now I've got about four?? pages written, but I'm jumping around between fics right now so they're all getting written in bits-and-pieces. Basically what I need to do is close down most of my Word documents and just focus on writing Storm Season until it's done. (Right now I only have 11 Word documents open, which is a minor miracle, it's usually more like 30.)

So just... close down everything but Storm Season and my Journal and maybe one other? Yeah that's probably what I should do. Sometimes even WITH the ADHD meds my brain grabs at too many things at once and I have a hard time reining it in. I have to kind of force the issue, you know? I think this is one of those times. :|

Yesterday my boxes for shipping wiggly foxes came in and they SHIPPED MY BUNDLE OF CARDBOARD BOXES INSIDE ANOTHER CARDBOARD BOX, SURROUNDED BY PACKING MATERIAL because of how breakable cardboard boxes are, naturally. It made me laugh. I only ordered 25 boxes because I don't even know if the wiggly foxes are going to SELL and I didn't want to be stuck with like a thousand 8x3x3 boxes if they don't. I can always order more if I need to. *shrug*

The other day I took Dean and Castiel out back and knocked out as much of the dirt from their roots as I could, then rinsed them in a big bowl of water, then under running water until they were ready to put in the aquarium. It turned out both of them were too big for my aquarium planters, though, so I have two small pots with mini!Castiel (his name is Jack) and mini!Dean (currently unnamed) in them, which Mom will probably adopt. At the same time as I did that I finally potted Bella in actual dirt, so that's done as well.

I still have one pink princess philodendron clipping that hasn't died (yet) but isn't doing anything, and I'm to the point that I really doubt it ever will. So I'm just going to buy a fully rooted pink princess PLANT, which is what I should have done to begin with. It cost me $30 for the two clippings, and it'll cost me $30 for a full-on plant. I don't know what I was thinking, really.

Next month I have like three government payments coming in (two of them are large), so I have to ship Poe's parcel and hopefully go to Barrie and find some aquarium plants. A month ago the Petsmart here in town got some really nice ones in, but I had no money, and by the time I had money they were sold out. Our Petsmart isn't really reliable for keeping things in stock, so I'll check there at the end of the month but I'm not holding my breath.

Also I need to figure out where to buy duckweed. .__.;;

I am possibly going to order another aquarium fan for the other side of the tank, since the one I have is only two fans and probably won't do all that much good. But it's cooler here most of the year and then during the summer I have the A/C unit so hopefully that'll keep the axolotl tank at a decent temperature for the critter when I eventually get it.

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I need more wax. I think I have like three?? bags of it in Jessie's room but the mug candles use a LOT of it per candle and I want to make some Thanksgiving ones to sell on FB Marketplace, and some Christmas ones when it gets closer to time. Bags of wax are like $35/each, but one mug candle goes for $30 so it'll add up pretty fast assuming they sell.

I'm selling them on FB Marketplace because they're HEAVY and shipping them would cost A TON, so it's not a great option for Etsy, even though I think they'd go over really well on Etsy, actually.

I really need to start looking into Vendors and Crafters Markets, really. Poe found me a really good FB link for a group for Ontario markets and vendors, I need to check it out more. The problem is that I would have to rely on Mom to drive me to the markets and help me set up/take down and I don't know if she'll go for that. I feel like she already does so much for me, I feel bad asking her to do even more.

EDIT: Just ordered my pink princess philodendron! <3

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Okay. Yesterday I unpotted Dean and Castiel, shook off as much of the dirt from their roots as possible (Castiel was SUPER root-bound, it was difficult with him) and then washed the rest of the dirt off in a big bowl of water before, finally, using running water to get as much of the last of it as I could! Then I took them upstairs to put them in the aquarium planters!

...except they were both too big. Dean just by a little, but Castiel by a LOT. So I had to split them and put like 2/3 of each plant in the aquarium planters, and then take the other 1/3 of each plant back downstairs to repot them in dirt again. *facepalm* So, I named mini-Castiel "Jack" for obvious SPN reasons, but I don't have a name for mini-Dean yet. I'll think on it.

My pothos clipping from Sam (Bella) also got properly potted finally, since she's got decent root structures now. Hoping she takes to the soil well. Unfortunately I was working with POPCORN DRY POTTING SOIL and when I added water to it to reconstitute it, I added too much, so Bella, Jack and mini-Dean are all basically potted in MUD right now until some of the water either evaporates or gets sucked up by the plants. I'm hoping they don't just die because of my fuck up. =/

I didn't get Sam unpotted and into the aquarium yesterday because he's going in the right side of the tank and I still have work to do on the right side of the tank later today, so he would have been in the way. I'll probably deal with him tomorrow. He's going to WAY too big for my little aquarium planters, though, so I'll definitely have to split him. Then I'll just have to find somewhere else to keep yet ANOTHER vine. There are so many vines in this house, I mean seriously. XD

Yesterday most of my big Amazon order came in, and today the last part (the air pump) is going to come in, and then I can add the second filter and the air stones to the axolotl aquarium. I wasn't able to afford any aquatic plants this month, but that turned out to be fine because when I went to Petsmart for crickets for Itsy they only had like two little scraggly ones left anyway. I think next month I'm going to have to get Mom to take me to the aquarium store in Barrie. I'll have more money in October because I have three government payments coming in that month, so I should be able to afford it, and also to afford to ship Poe's TINY LITTLE PARCEL that is going to cost me 118 FREAKING DOLLARS.

Shipping stuff just isn't affordable anymore, GDI. I remember shipping large, heavy parcels to the UK for like $40 back in the day. It's ridiculous.

I'm currently alternating between working on writing Storm Season (53 pages and counting) and two post-Storm Season one-shots, The Smitten and Teeth. The Smitten (title change probably pending) takes place six months after the end of Storm Season and is kind of a reunion fic, the same as Cheap Motel is for Horror High, and Teeth is a fic featuring Garth, and Cas seeing him for the first time since making his reappearance on Earth. Teeth is already fun to write. I love Garth so much. <3

For Teeth I'm making up all kinds of lore shit on tooth fairies, which is hilarious, because though it's SPN canon that the tooth fairy is real (Garth ganked it, or at least one of them), they didn't go into detail on anything so it's left open to interpretation. Anyway, basically they use teeth as currency (human teeth, animal teeth, monster teeth) and normally just take the ones that come out naturally or are pulled by dentists, but sometimes one goes off the rails and starts attacking people and ripping the teeth out of their heads. It's an agonizing, bloody business. So that's what Sam and Dean are up against, and they go to Garth for advice since he's come up against one before. Cas somewhat reluctantly comes along and has a long-overdue reunion with his friend.

I'm also planning to write a post-Storm Season one-shot with Charlie (By Any Other Name), and I'll probably write one with Jody as well, since the three of them were the closest to Cas during the events of Horror High, but I'm not sure what Jody's will be about or what the title will be yet. I'm leaning toward "Hair Trigger" or something like that. There's also Like Feathers Softly, which is absolutely 100% just Destiel fluff and smut and Sam getting kicked to another motel room for a couple of days, literally no plot at all besides that. :D;;

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I'm getting progressively more worried about Poe as the days go by. They haven't emailed me in like four or five days now and I'm worried something is really wrong, since they're in such a dark place right now. That they've done something to hurt themself or even that their Mum has taken their computer way or something like that. I email every couple of days just so they know I'm still here, but if this goes down like last time...

That's why I tried so hard to keep a bit of distance between us this time, to set boundaries for myself and keep them, but I'm afraid I crossed those boundaries and let them too far in again and I'm about to have the rug pulled out from under me again, so to speak.

But really it's the not knowing that's the hardest part. The wondering if they're okay, or if they're just sick in bed, or if they're having the migraine to end all migraines, or if they're dead on the bathroom floor. Or, like I said, if their Mum just took their computer away, as if taking their pets away earlier wasn't cruel enough.

I just... don't know what to do. There's nothing I really CAN do, except sit and wait and worry.

EDIT: Poe hasn't shut their Etsy shop down, and I feel like they would do that if they were planning on doing something drastic. So there's that, at least?

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So I'm out of money. I can't mail Poe's parcel this month, it's going to have to wait until October (I have like 3 different government payments coming in in October) which sucks, I really wanted to mail it ASAP. But shopping yesterday cost more than I thought it would, plus the extra money I owed mom (I owe her an extra $90 next month, too) and I'm just... broke. Which is nothing new, really, but still blows.

I can't buy plants for in the aquarium this month, either, which sucks. But I've at least got it up and cycling now, if nothing else, with the terracotta hides in it and the one filter. Today I'm adding the second filter and the two air stones.

Today I'm also going to de-pot my pothos (Sam) and my two new vines (Dean and Castiel, both philodendron variants) to "plant" in the top of it and we'll see how that goes. My baby spider plant (Miles) is growing roots now so I should be able to plant him any day and grow him up to a suitable size for the aquarium, too (since right now he is itty-bitty.)

My huge spider plant (Peter) just started growing a stem to grow spider babies of his own, so he must be happy. I just moved him to the window in my bedroom a couple months ago and he's doing really well there, so that's good.

I just realized most of my plants are "boys" and I don't really know why. Maybe because they're named after my favorite characters in movies/TV/etc. and most of THEM are boys? I guess that tracks. I do have Isley (philodendron, named after Pamela Isley/Poison Ivy from Batman) and Alice (umbrella tree, named after Alice from the Resident Evil movies), though, so it's not ENTIRELY a boys' club.

Speaking of Isley, her pot fell from where it was hanging about a week and a half ago, which I'm pretty sure I talked about before but whatever. Turns out the ceiling hook wasn't actually in wood, just the drywall and it just gave out. When she fell, though, her pot broke and we had to repot her, but her vines were SO long and twisted up... by the time we got finished untangling her to actually repot her, half her vines had snapped off. Now she's scraggly and scruffy looking. It's sad because she was so full and beautiful before. But I know she'll grow back, it'll just take time.

I'm going to plant my pothos clipping, the one I took off Sam last month, in an actual pot with dirt today. So far it's been just chillin' in its glass of water, growing roots. It doesn't have a name yet, I need to decide on a good one for it. Maybe a girl's name this time. I'm thinking maybe Bella or Charlie. Leaning more toward Charlie.

I think neither of my pink princess philodendron clippings are going to work out. One of them already died and the other one is just.... sitting there. Doing nothing. idk how long it's supposed to take for them to grow roots, but I feel like it's probably been too long at this point? I'm going to have to break down and just try to order a full plant from somewhere. Actually, on second thought, I'm going to call my (eventual) pink princess "Charlie" and call my new pothos "Bella." *bangs gavel* IT IS LAW.

I still have clippings off of Isley and a clipping off of Bucky that I'm trying to propagate, too, but so far nada. I think I might just give up on them soon. But since I've got Dean and Castiel now they're slightly less important anyway. :P

I ordered a macrame plant hanger off aliexpress, it's like a double hanger for smaller plants, to go in the other side of my window, opposite of Peter. I was originally going to put my pink princess philodendrons in it once they rooted EXCEPT. So I guess Bella can go in one section and... something else can go in the other. Maybe Miles, once he's big enough to go in an actual pot with dirt. At least until he moves to the aquarium, anyway.

Until recently I had kind of forgotten how much I enjoy plant husbandry. I had a veritable GREENHOUSE in my old apartment because it had so many huge windows and it was so warm in there all the time, the plants LOVED it and I had DOZENS of them, all different varieties. I got really into houseplants at that point and then when I moved in with Grandma, it just... well. My mental health got WAY worse and it took literally EVERYTHING to keep up with just the CATS, never mind the PLANTS. Besides which I'd had to give away like 28 of my plants when I moved in there because there was nowhere to put them all, and it turned out that house how WAY too little light for plants anyway. When I moved out and in here with Mom and Lee, I brought a couple of my plants with me from Grandma's but she didn't take care of the ones I had to leave behind and they all died. I have regrets, there.

But now, even though this place only gets ambient light (mostly), I've got it pretty much filled to capacity with plants. Lots of vines, a money tree, an umbrella tree, spider-plants, an aloe vera, that kind of thing. I think I'm pretty much done for now though, with the exception of getting my hands on a pink princess philodendron and the aquatic plants for the axolotl tank, just because we're running out of room.

Mom keeps rolling her eyes at me and my plants but they're important to me, I get a lot of peace out of them, and honestly I think she likes them too, because she used to try to keep plants when I was a kid and always failed at it, so now it must be nice to have the greenery in the house. Only a couple of the plants here right now are actually HERS, so when I move out most of them are going with me, but at least now she knows it's possible, right? Just with the right kind of plants.

Anyway. That's my plant rambles for today. Signing off (for now.)

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Just got finished posting Chapter Eight of Horror High to AO3, Tumblr and Vanimadin. I never get anything off Vanimadin, but then again I don't expect to, and I usually get 5 or less likes for each chapter on Tumblr, but at least I can count the hits on AO3. The last couple of chapters I've gotten a few more reviews and they all basically amount to "this is a great fic, don't get discouraged by the lack of reviews, please keep it up!" Which is nice to hear. Maybe I'll get a couple more messages with Chapter Eight?

Either way I've fully committed myself to writing Storm Season now, after all my waffling before. I've already written like 167 pages of Horror High, plus 5 one-shots that average around 32-ish pages each that go BETWEEN Horror High and Storm Season, AND started a one-shot that goes AFTER Storm Season, so I figure... FUCK IT. STORM SEASON IT IS. I'm currently 39 pages in and going strong! lol. (I'm aiming for around 150 but I learned not to estimate when I was writing Horror High.)

Anyway.

Today my goal is to overhaul my Writing Master Post over on tumblr. It hasn't been updated in YEARS and I need to add a Supernatural section and reorganize the The Witcher section so it makes more sense. I'm HOPING to locate all my old graphics that I was using, but I get the feeling those are lost to the void, so I'm going to have to just make all new ones. It's kind of a pain but I guess it is what it is.

I also need to figure out what I'm going to do for my photoblogging for today because I am currently coming up blank. :|

Did I mention that I freaking hate air pumps. They're loud and buzzy and just really annoying, and now I have TWO of them running, one for my betta fish tank and one for the filter/air stone in the axolotl aquarium, and there's a good chance I'm going to need a THIRD because I'm seriously considering adding a second filter/air stone to the axolotl tank just to be sure. I mean I had 3 running in my room at one point for all the betta tanks, back when I still had Geralt and Yennifer, but I LOATHED THEM. L-O-A-T-H-E-D.

...I just took my morning pills and I can already tell this is going to be a bad day with the lithium. It makes me SO SICK for SO LONG after I take it, EXCEPT since I started taking the Vyvanse at the same time it's been a lot better?? Dr. K was baffled when I told her that at my last appointment, like why would the ADHD meds be affecting the lithium that way?? NO CLUE BUT I'M NOT COMPLAINING. I do still have some bad days when I end up really like, violently nauseous, though, and I think today might be one of those days. Boo.

I dug out one of my spare Cabbage Dogs last night, the ones I bought specifically to paint, since I finished Nonbinary Cabbage Dog the other day. I think this one is going to be a Pansexual Cabbage Dog? idk he's just staring at me from my work table right now seeming very pansexual to me. I'm going to try selling him on Etsy once I've finished him.

Still working on my Rainbow Dash wiggly fox; painting the entire tails of the wiggly foxes, and especially painting them rainbow, is a PROCESS. I learned that last time I painted a rainbow-tailed fox. It takes forever. But that reminds me, I do have five or six foxes already painted and ready to go that I could list on Etsy already. The problem is I have no boxes to ship them in? So I can't list them until I have the packaging material just in case. Not that I expect them to go fast or anything, my Etsy isn't exactly making bank. :|

I'm also partway through a Starry Void wiggly fox, I just have to actually paint his stars and touch up his ears a little bit. Poe requested him so I might send him to them when I'm done him rather than posting him for sale, but I haven't decided yet. I don't know if we're to the point of sending random gifts to one another yet or not, the copy of Tao Undead they sent me notwithstanding.

Speaking of Etsy and Poe, they had me go through all their button designs and pick out the ones I liked and then sent me the Photoshop files so I can order them to stock them in my shop as well. Then we're going to work out a percentage deal where they get, say, 10% of each button of theirs that I sell. I think it's a good plan and I like to collaborate with my friends, so I'm going to give it a go. I think they're still just... trying to make up for everything that happened back in the winter.

I think I've decided I'm going to download all my VLOGS from YouTube and then just delete them. Most of them, when I made them, were made strictly out of abject despair, and they're very raw and painful. I cry watching them even now. I don't regret MAKING them, at the time it was very cathartic to actually SAY THE WORDS OUT LOUD, even if it was just to myself, but I DO regret uploading them. It's a time in my life and a part of myself that I don't think I want out in my public YouTube anymore.

I'm considering selling Ishana. She's the doll that was originally supposed to be Katie, but when she came in I took one look at her and went "you're not Katie!" and immediately rebranded her. I like her well enough, but I haven't got the emotional connection with her that I have with (most of) my other dolls, I haven't bonded with her. Right now she's just kind of sitting around taking up space. I keep saying I'm going to do her faceup and then never getting around to it, and I doubt I ever will. So. Kijiji time? I think maybe. I can probably get $100 for her with her eyes, wig, clothes and shoes.

Poe never got back to me about the Finch Swap idea so I dunno if that's going to happen or not.

Also yes I am DEFINITELY having a bad, bad lithium day. I keep having to take breaks to go puke in the bathroom. There isn't even anything in my stomach so it's just horrible retching and dry heaving. :<

I need to take some aspirin because I'm having INTENSE gut pain atm but I don't know if I can keep it down. I think I'm just going to go lay down for a while. At least I got Horror High updated before everything went to pot. :|

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So Sparrow is currently sitting in Tyler's lap because I literally have nowhere else to put them until I finish getting the axolotl tank taken care of. That's fine, though, they're safe there even if my poor printer is under way too much weight now (Tyler, Aidan, Katie AND Sparrow are sitting on it now) so it won't print anything unless I take everybody off first. It's a pain but I won't die from it.

Poe has another Finch model doll only in pink resin color and they absolutely can't seem to bond with her, so they've said they're just going to send her to me, too. I think if they do I will keep that one's name as "Finch" instead of changing it like I did with Sparrow. "Finch" is the doll model name, not a name Poe gave them, but I like it anyway. I just renamed Sparrow so they wouldn't both have the same name.

Sparrow is definitely going to be a brown tabby at some point in the future (not sure when), and if Poe sends me their Finch I think I'm going to paint her in calico markings but in like greens and purples because her skin tone is pink. She'll be very pretty. But I'm not counting on anything yet. *shrug*

Last night and this morning I worked some more on the fic formerly known as Counting Scars, now called Falling Stars. Like I said, it just randomly went in a radically different direction than I had originally intended. It was supposed to just be smut for the sake of smut, same as Cheap Motel, but Falling Stars just DEVELOPED a plotline and now I'm like OKAY I GUESS. THIS IS FINE. Not sure how long it'll end up being but I'm hoping around the same length as Cheap Motel, which clocked in at 34 pages. So far Falling Stars is at 18 pages, but it's nowhere NEAR done (I haven't even written any of the smut yet.) It might end up longer than Cheap Motel after all.

Last night I put the plastic drawers I got at the garage sale yesterday into place in Jessie's room and immediately filled them up with all the mugs and glasses that I bought to make into candles. That garage sale was convenient because literally I had this huge bag of mugs and glasses that were just taking up space in my room because I had nowhere to put them. I wasn't thinking about that when I bought them. But now they're all stored away, so that's good.

I might make some candles soon, though, and try selling them on FB Marketplace. Poe pointed out that candles are HEAVY and shipping them would be EXORBITANTLY EXPENSIVE so they might not be the best thing to list on Etsy, much as I'd like to. They're better suited to local sales and markets. I see their point, so FB Marketplace it is! (I think if I list them around Christmas time they might sell well then.)

I still need to finish cleaning out the future-axolotl tank and get Mom to help me dump the last of the water out of it, because I'm gotten all I can with the scooping jug. I have a TON of plants that I'm trying to propagate for the top of the tank right now, and at the end of the month I'm hoping to be to the point that I can start cycling it and get some aquatic plants for IN the water. Also Poe suggested using terracotta pots for hides, which is a fabulous (and cheap!) idea. Otherwise I'm going to use PVC piping, I think, though I so want the tank to have as "natural" a look as possible when I'm done with it, and I'm pretty sure I can get terracotta pots from the dollar store this time of year.

I ordered the plant holders for the top of the tank last night. Eight of them cost me almost $50, but that should do me for the size of tank I have, unless they're really tiny? I probably should have read the dimensions before I clicked "buy" but it's too late now. They're being delivered today.

Yesterday I also ordered a macrame plant hanger for my room off aliexpress, so that should come in in like... two weeks, I want to say? AE has really increased their shipping speed lately. (I still can't login to my account via my computer, I can only use the app, which. Boo.)

And I ordered two more books from thriftbooks, even though I said I was done buying books for a while: "Wilder Girls" by Rory Power and "Camp Damascus" by Chuck Tingle, because Poe highly recommended Chuck Tingle to me and Camp Damascus sounded really interesting.

Last night I swapped some of my binders around, used acetone to erase the labels and wrote new ones, then sealed them with Mr. Super Clear. It's the best way I've found to label the binders with the plastic covers. Anyway, Horror High (et al) got moved to one of my biggest binders, and all my TKA notes got moved to a smaller one for now. They'll get moved back to a bigger one again once I start printing out TKA proper. I also found some dividers and used them to divide up the fics in the Witcher SPN AU binder to make for easier reading. Just. Organizing.

I have so many binders and literally nowhere to put them, a bunch are just stuck on the floor between my computer table and my work table for lack of anywhere else. I desperately need more shelves but there's no more ROOM for shelves. What I REALLY need is my own apartment, but try telling the subsidized housing people that.

Last night I made roast rabbit for dinner. I bought it from the Muskoka Meats store last week and it cost me FORTY DOLLARS. YOU CAN BUY rabbits from the PET STORE for less than that. Anyway, cost aside, it was easy to prepare and cook. I just had to pull all the organs out (I cooked them and chopped them up for the cats) and stuff it, then rub it all over with butter and stick it in a roasting pan with water in the bottom. Then into a 325 degree oven for two hours and presto! Roast rabbit! We also had carrots (haha) and mashed potatoes. I know it's cliche, but it really did taste like chicken. I probably won't spend that kind of money on another rabbit, but it was neat for a change. I WILL, however, be hitting that store up for PARTRIDGE at some point in the future.

I just downloaded Alien: Romulus, so now it's a giant question as to whether I want to watch it IMMEDIATELY or do some more writing and then have a nap and watch it later today or tonight. I'm leaning toward the later.

And yeah. I think that's enough rambling for now.

EDIT: Oh ALSO, the pain I've been feeling since having that tooth extracted three weeks ago? Turns out it wasn't all because I had another tooth that also needed to be yoinked. THREE WEEKS AGO when I had THAT tooth pulled, the Dentist actually BROKE MY FUCKING JAW in the process of twisting and wrenching the tooth out. It's cracked and I have like, bone shards protruding through my gums from it. They had to shave them off when I was in this week. But since it's just cracked there's nothing that can be done except just let it heal and since I signed a waiver before having the tooth pulled I can't SUE THEM. So here I am. Broken jaw. Fun times.

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I've decided I'm going to do an aquatic garden around the edges of the axolotl aquarium, using hanging baskets on the sides to hold the plants. Sam is the first plant that's going in, and he's going on the left hand side (if you're facing the front of the aquarium), and will probably take up that entire side, especially as I assume he's going to keep growing. I also have the cutting I took from him to propagate that I'm hoping will take and I can use that as well (it can take up to 10 days for roots to start to grow, though, so I have to be patient.)

I just ordered some pink princess philodendron cuttings that I'm hoping to get started properly to go in it as well, and I might propagate a couple of vines off of Isley to go in as well. I also need (want) another spider plant and I want a couple of different varieties of monstera to plant as well (not the giant kind, obviously.) I can probably get the spider plant in town somewhere (maybe metro?) but I might have to order the monstera. And I need some others to fill out the gaps, too. Still looking into houseplants that can be grown in an aquarium like this!

But that aside, I'll still need some actual aquatic plants for INSIDE the aquarium, which I will (probably) have to get from an actual aquarium STORE, which means they'll cost my first-born child. I guess I'll just have to suck it up and pay for them. I wish I could just use fake plants like I do with fish, but apparently Axolotls can injure themselves on fake plants (which I can see, since they wouldn't be "planted" in anything, just floating around a bare glass aquarium floor) and I don't want THAT, so aquatic plants it is!

Plotting and planning, plotting and planning! <3

EDIT: Okay, I am getting consistently inconsistent reports on what plants are and aren't safe to put in with axolotls. For example, Poe swears pothos are safe but monstera are toxic (okay?) but this really comprehensive website about the topic says it's the other way around (okay??), except that pothos, while toxic, are only dangerous before they're fully rooted. So I mean. idek. More research is obviously necessary. :|

EDIT #2: SAM IS SO IN THE WAY RIGHT NOW. The aquarium isn't ready for him yet so he's just kind of... sitting. On my work table, next to my computer table, but he's so BIG I have to like... edge and ease my way around him every time I want to go past in any direction. WHY YOU GOTTA BE THIS WAY, SAM? WHY. YOU ARE ALREADY LOVED, DON'T BE A
JERK.

EDIT #3: FORGET MY LAST EDIT! Mom just provided me a place for Sam to live in her room where he isn't in anyone's way and can live until the aquarium is ready for him! :D

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I made a spur-of-the-moment decision to rehome my fish today. I'm really not enjoying them anymore, and they should be in a home where they'll be appreciated. So I put up a kijiji ad and it got JUMPED ON pretty much instantly. I have to start getting them ready to go in about half an hour or so.

Afterward I can get the tank ready for a couple axolotls, and hopefully actually buy them in September. We'll see.

EDIT: THE FISH ARE OFF TO THEIR NEW HOME! BON VOYAGE FISH!! <33

EDIT #2: I JUST GLANCED OVER AT THE AQUARIUM AND THERE IS STILL A FREAKING CATFISH IN IT I MISSED ONE. Like, when I was counting them in the bucket I was going "I thought I had one more than that?" but then I figured one just died or something but NO. IT HID FROM ME AND NOW I HAVE A SINGLE, SOLITARY CATFISH LEFT. (I'm gonna catch it and put it in Jaskier's aquarium lmao.)

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: N/A: "Canadian True Crime" Podcast on Spotify

So I think I have officially decided that I'm going to segue out of fish and into axolotls. The only problem is that if I just wait it out for my fish to die off naturally, it could take a while. Some of them have like a 12-year lifespan. And I'm not going to KILL THEM just because I've outgrown tropical fish. I'm not a monster. So I'm going to have to rehome them on kijiji or something idk.

Like I said before, I will kind of miss Ciel, my rainbow shark, because he's fun to watch, he's got spunk, and I am growing rather fond of Tabby, my angelfish who keeps laying eggs like once a week and then going "fuck it" and eating them all herself. :| But I'm not really emotionally attached to them? I just kind of find them entertaining. And with the exception of Argent, my silver dollar, and Bissell, my pleco, the rest of them don't even have names. (I always named my goldfish, I got way more attached to them than I ever did/do to tropical fish.)

So I guess I need to take a head count of the cory catfish (I think there are six or seven?) and make up an ad, but I have to be very specific that I'm offering up JUST THE FISH and not the rest of the tank/set-up, because I NEED the tank and some of the set-up for converting into an axolotl aquarium.

I poked about kijiji and I MIGHT be able to get my axolotls there but there's no guarantee I could get a melanistic one and a leucistic one like I want. I guess I don't ACTUALLY mind what color morphs they are, really, I just like the idea of having a melanistic one and calling it Toothless and a leucistic one and calling it Sisu. *shrug* But the other color morphs are cute, too, and it's much cheaper to get them rehomed from kijiji than it is to buy them from a store.

I did send a message to A Lot'l Axolotls, which is a huge 'lotl breeder and seller here in Canada. They also sell all the supplies for 'lotls, and they'll ship everything, but I don't know how much their axolotls COST because there are no PRICES on their SITE, so I'm waiting for them to get back to me with quotes. Either way I'll probably be buying my hides and plants from them at the very least. Shipping will probably be a BITCH, though.

When I've rehomed the fish I need to completely empty and clean out the aquarium, scrub it and everything. And I won't be using any substrate for my axolotls, just bare glass, which they seem to do best on, from what I can tell? Either that or fine, fine sand, which can be a pain in the ass to clean. I can use plastic plants like I always do with fish, but I might try my hand at living ones for once? I haven't entirely decided yet. The problem is that I'm not sure they would get enough light where the tank sits in my room, but I guess if I try living plants and they don't survive I can always just go back to fake plants after all.

But other than that... I just need the proper filters and an aquarium fan (both of which I can get off Amazon), some hides and the right chemicals to treat the water. It doesn't sound too hard. And I HAVE wanted a 'lotl basically ever since I found out they existed. So. *shrug*

Maybe my project for September?

EDIT: Like, ideally I would be leaving the fish alone and just setting up a second tank for the axolotls BUT. *gestures wildly to lack of space* I mean. :|

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I'm growing tired/bored of my tropical fish. I should have known better than to get into tropicals when my goldfish died. I love goldfish SO much more, they're so much prettier and more entertaining to watch, they have so much more personality, but after the whole worm infestation thing I guess I got cold feet even though the chances of another worm infestation are slim, so when they all died I SANITIZED EVERYTHING and started over with tropical fish instead. And I was good for a while, but now I'm kind of... over it.

I miss my goldfish.

I'm not going to flush all the tropicals or give them away or anything, I think I'm just not going to replace them as they die off anymore and then when they're all gone I'll clean the tank out and get some goldfish again, Fancy goldfish. Black moores and calico fantails and that kind of thing. Not just feeder goldfish. (I buy those for turtle tanks.) The only tropical fish I'm going to keep stocked are my pleco (Bissell) and the catfish, because goldfish ARE messy and DO need a bit of a cleanup crew.

*shrug*

EDIT: I admit I will miss my rainbow shark (Ciel), I am rather fond of him. He's got SPUNK. :D

EDIT #2: OKAY IDEALLY I would LOVE to try my hand at a saltwater reef aquarium but like. THE COST, MAN, THE COST.

EDIT #3: ALTERNATIVELY... I COULD repurpose the tank and get an axolotl. .__. I have wanted one for YEARS and never got around to getting one. (Actually I want two, a black one to name Toothless and a pink one to name Sisu, but I'm pretty sure you're only supposed to keep one to a tank.) And once the fish are gone (probably a year or more from now) I could easily convert the tank, clean it out and get myself a 'lotl. I would just need to purchase a chiller for the aquarium, because they need cooler water, and some live plants instead of the fake ones I use for the fish. Hmmmmmm.

EDIT #4: So the Interwebs tells me that you CAN, in fact, keep more than one axolotl in the same tank, just... all the same gender because if you mix genders you obviously will get eggs and they lay THOUSANDS of eggs, which you do not want unless you are a breeder. GOOD TO KNOW.

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So a couple weeks ago I picked up a pair of Dwarf Gouramis for my aquarium and they started out fine the first few days but then they started getting snippy with each other and picking at each other even though the tank is MORE than big enough for the two of them. So today I looked them up, and it turns out that they can be aggressive in small numbers, but do better in groups of four or more. .__.;; So. I guess. I'm getting a couple more Dwarf Gouramis.

But it does make sense, I mean Tiger Barbs are the same, they pick at EVERYTHING IN THE TANK unless they're in a proper school. (I also need to buy a few more Tiger Barbs, I lost a bunch over the last few months and now I'm down to three, not counting Oliver, who's got a gimpy tail fin and probably won't survive much longer. Anyway, I need at least six to eight.)

I'm also hoping for a few more Neon Tetras, since I only have three left. A school of Neons looks really nice in an aquarium.

But this is all dependant on what PetSmart has in stock on Friday. So.

FUCKING AQUARIUM UPDATE: MY ANGELFISH, TABBY, HAS STARTED LAYING EGGS AND AGGRESSIVELY PROTECTING THEM. THIS WOULD BE PERFECTLY NORMAL, EXCEPT TABS IS THE ONLY ANGELFISH IN THE TANK AND HAS BEEN EVER SINCE I BOUGHT HER MONTHS AGO. I HAVE LITERALLY NEVER HAD ANOTHER
ANGELFISH IN THIS AQUARIUM. xD;;

Tabby eyeballing me for getting too close to her eggs. :P

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The filter in the aquarium is making an ungodly racket of a noise and I don't know why. It was brand new when I put the tank back together after swapping out the stands and everything, and it hasn't been THAT long, but something is clearly going on with it so I guess at some point today I have to unplug it and take it apart and see if I can fix it? I might have to go back to the old filters and if I do that means emptying the tank halfway so I can shift it on the stand and pulling it forward because they hang outside the tank instead of being submerged inside like the current one is. Boo. I hate fish tank maintenance, even if I love having aquariums. =/

The noise the current filter is making is driving me BONKERS though, so something MUST be done about it. :P

EDIT: AFTER FOUR DAYS OF MAKING THE MOST ANNOYING NOISE ON THE PLANET IT JUST SUDDENLY STOPPED DOING IT WITHOUT ME SO MUCH AS TOUCHING IT I AM SO CONFUSED LIKE GRATEFUL BUT CONFUSED.

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Current Location: Orillia, Ontario
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Okay. BASICALLY, I have a 40 gallon aquarium, which between the water and the rocks and the aquarium ITSELF, weighs roughly 350 pounds. And I had it sitting on like THE ricketiest dresser in existence. Compound that by the fact my filters had leaked a couple of times and caused WATER DAMAGE to the dresser and it was seriously on it's last legs. Like every time I opened or closed a drawer I was afraid it was going to COLLAPSE. :|

Anyway, so Mom and I procured a MUCH sturdier dresser (you could hit it with a SLEDGEHAMMER and it wouldn't go down, I swear lol), however it was on tall spindly legs that needed to be cut off and we didn't have the tools to do it. THUS. Mom called a former co-worker/still-friend of hers, Tom, and asked if he could help us with both cutting the legs off the new dresser and hauling it up the stairs to get it into place. And because Tom is the best person on the PLANET, he said "sure no problem lemme grab my saw I'll see you Friday after work!" In the meantime Mom, my Stepdad and I also secured a piece of like... plastic-y fibreglass-y stuff (it''s basically a ceiling tile?) to the top of New Dresser to protect against potential future water leaks.

So Thursday and Friday were all moving shit out of my room to make way for moving the dressers out and in, and then emptying the aquarium and getting IT out into the hallway.

Then Tom came after he got off work yesterday and like lifted all the furniture with one arm and did 90% of the hauling all by himself and in half an hour everything was done that man is AMAZING. (Also he has BADASS tattoos that were all done at Georgian Pines Studios by the same woman who did the cover-up of my velociraptor tattoo! I'm hoping to get back in there in the fall myself to get my therizinosaurus tattoo done but that's another discussion entirely.)

After Tom left, I, arthritis and scoliosis and bad joints already HATING ME, still had to put the aquarium back together again and get everything back in my room and organized again, which sucked, but not enough for capital letters. But it turned out GREAT! The new dresser has more surface area, and holds more clothes, and in the process of disassembling the aquarium I had a chance to really CLEAN IT PROPERLY so it looks FANTASTIC:

I've lost quite a few fish over the last couple of months but I figured there was no point in replacing them because if I was going to be tearing the aquarium apart and doing a 90% water change most of them would just die anyway. But so far my fish are doing really well, so I am making tentative plans to get some more neon tetras and albino rosy barbs and pooooooossibly tiger barbs?? in the future. <3

EDIT: YES I put fake flowers in my aquarium WHAT OF IT. XD

EDIT #2: Oh, I also want a couple of gouramis, since both of mine died a while back. =/

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Current Location: Orillia, Ontario
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Yesterday was the first day of the month and therefore the day I go out to do my huge monthly shop.

Started out going to the pharmacy to settle my account there because I owed them $37 for my stupid Dayvigo from like two months ago and they were getting impatient. Then we drove to Barrie so I could get my specialty tea from the European Deli there... only for them to be like "we only have three in and all of them are lemon" which. Is the worst flavor. Boo. (I know, First World Problems.)

After that we drove all the way back to Orillia and first went to the bank (to withdraw my rent, more boo but also Roof Above My Head yay!), then to Costco where I SPENT ALMOST $200 ON MEDICATIONS BECAUSE THEY ALL RAN OUT AT
THE SAME TIME. *facepalm* I did also get bagels, though, and some cashews, and some pasta salad. It just really added up fast I was like "$173 HOLY SHIT LEMME TAKE A MINUTE."

Walmart was next for cat supplies and more meds that I couldn't get at Costco, and I also bought the ingredients for making my own trail mix, since 99.99% of all commercial trail mixes are LOADED with peanuts. :| Oh, and a couple of small binders for organizing papers. Then after Walmart we stopped at Petsmart long enough for me to get some crickees for Itsy (it's been a MONTH since they last had crickets, poor Itsy was SO hungry!)

Theeeeeen Shoppers to mail a birthday parcel for my Dad and my monthly postcards and buy coke before we popped in to Dr. K's office to nab some Trelegy inhalers they had been holding for me. AND WHICH I APPRECIATE BREATHING
IS SO VERY IMPORTANT. <3

I guess part of my shopping that was more self-indulgent was to go on ebay and order the first six seasons of American Horror Story on DVD. Because like. They are DIRT cheap. .__.;; I paid about $10 CAD per season. But that's my splurging for the month, I can't afford anymore. Now I'm just antsy for them to get here, lol, which they won't for at least 2-4 weeks yet. XD

Today I'm packing up half my room because tomorrow I have to empty and dismantle the (40 gallon) aquarium, since I have a new stand for it now. One of Mom's former co-workers is coming over to help us with getting it up the stairs and installing it but before that everything had to GET OUT THE WAY. And then after it's in I have to rush to put the aquarium back together again and fingers crossed that every single one of my fish doesn't die from shock.

THEN I can put my room back together again. FUN TIMES.

Current Mood: busy
Current Location: Orillia, Ontario
Current Music: N/A: "Horror Stories" on Tubi

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