Sena's DW :: Watermelon Life

My bedroom always has kind of an ambient sound level because of the filters, air stones and cooling fans from the axolotl tank, and while it bugged the shit out of me at first, for the most part I've gotten used to it. At night especially, I sleep with earplugs which muffles it significantly so it becomes just a sort of background humming. It can actually HELP me sleep on some nights.

And then there are nights like tonight, when the stupid aquarium noises are so goddamn loud I can hear them loudly even through the earplugs and I end up awake all freaking night because of it. Also the basically FULL-BODY restless leg I've got going on every time I try to relax and sleep right now, too. :|

Right. So. Basically, all night tonight I've just been mainlining The Walking Dead (I'm mostly through the last season now) and tidying up odds-and-ends around my room. Reorganizing my books and my beading stuff a little bit, and putting away all my candle making stuff that was taking up a corner of the dining room still. The candles were a flop anyway, I kind of wish I hadn't even bothered. I'll try listing them again next November and see if they sell then, though.

I have a box of DVD cases to take to the basement in the morning, though I'm not entirely sure where I'm going to PUT it in the basement. I just wish I didn't have to put all my movies in CD binders, I wish I could put up my DVD shelves for real and just... have my living room back. I miss my apartment and my furniture and my books and my movies and my stuff. I miss living with just me and my pets. I've long since worn out my welcome here and that's becoming more and more obvious every day. Not just with Lee, anymore, but with Mom, too.

I actually ordered a Wren!doll finally. Not the one I originally had picked out for her, because that doll isn't available anymore, but another one that I think fits her decently. I'm kind of settling a little, here, because the one I had picked out before was WREN, dude, but... it is what it is. Maybe some day that doll will come back into circulation and I can get one of them and make it into Wren and use the doll I just ordered as Suzuki or something. One can always hope, right?

I can't really afford a doll right now, but I really just wanted this one and... yeah. I'm feeling down lately so I bought myself a treat. I'm allowed sometimes, I think.

So, Family Christmas was yesterday. That's kind of a misnomer I guess because I have three Christmases this year and all of them are with family. Anyway, I went through a lot of internal debate on whether or not I was even going to go, and eventually I decided too even though my anxiety was going to be screaming at me the entire time.

But it turned out not to be so bad in the end. Grandma came, but she was having a relatively good day (she only said she wanted to be dead three times) and I was able to curb my anger toward Aunt Brenda and Uncle Alec. The only real problem was that Uncle Len brought his dogs along, and while Huxley is a DOLL (he's 12, he's SO lazy and calm), Asher is still a puppy and is ALL OVER THE PLACE. He's a sweet pup, but I just wanted him to go away. Or at least find somewhere to lay down for a bit once in a while, honestly.

In the gift exchange I got a sparkly Mickey Mouse lantern (the gift that Mom brought) and then when it was all over I traded with Mom for a set of remote-control LED candles that I really loved (and kept having stolen from me) and she gave the lantern to Uncle Len for Clare/Alex. Then she asked me to buy HER a set of the LED candles off Amazon for her birthday, so I did, for 50 freaking dollars, even though I can't afford it, really. I think Lee is going to pay me back for them and give them to her himself instead haha.

By the time we left for home I was utterly emotionally exhausted and we got home JUST in time for me to feed the cats and retreat to my room, where I watched a couple episodes of TWD and then went to bed... for like 45 minutes. And then I woke up again, and couldn't get back to sleep all night.

So, I've spent all last night binging TWD episodes and working on Wiggly Foxes. I for a lot of headway on the ones for my brother for Christmas, now I have to do the white parts and the sparkly bits, and then the last-minute touch-ups. Also, I ordered some clips to add to their key rings so they're more versatile, I think 50 of them? I'm going to start adding them to all my Foxies from now on.

Also, I photographed my Christmas candles on our Christmas tablecloth with some Christmas baubles behind them and posted the listing for them on FB, so hopefully I'll get some bites in the next few days. I would be nice to make up a little bit of money after spending so much for Christmas, you know?

Which reminds me, I need to go to the Dollarama in the next day or two and but bags and boxes for all my gifts because I am LITERALLY incapable of wrapping presents anymore because of my back. As soon as I start leaning over for ANYTHING it starts seizing up and turns into an utter SHITSHOW. It's something I need to talk to Dr. K about when I'm in to see her in the new year. But it's really too bad because I used to fucking LOVE wrapping presents. Now I do ONE and I'm FUCKED.

In finger news, the scabs are entirely gone now and all the skin around the cut area has peeled off to new skin underneath, but it's still sore in places so I know it's still healing underneath. Progress, though.

Depending on how things go with the sleeping later today, I think I'm going to try two write a couple of scenes for TKA, since I just finished another SS one-shot. Either that or I guess I can try to focus on Temper Tantrums because I REALLY need to get back to writing the earlier SS one-shots instead of all the last ones lol. But yes, TKA first if my brain is up for it on zero sleep, that's the plan!

A couple of days ago I somehow ROYALLY buggered up my knee, and basically my whole left leg from the knee down hurt like FUCK, but especially the top of my foot for some reason? And only when I walked, when I STEPPED DOWN and put pressure on my leg. It wasn't sensitive to the touch or anything, it just hurt like fuck to WALK. And I was like, cool, you know, sounds like a plan, body, what else have you got for me? Luckily it only lasted a couple days, and this morning it's (mostly) back to normal with just some minor pain when I walk, which I hope will be completely gone in another day or two.

Next week Mom and I have to go back to the house in Baysville to haul furniture and boxes some more, and I think Mom plans to go twice in the week so that's going to suck but I guess it needs done so LET'S DO IT. It's just hard because of my back/hips/knees/wrists/hands/lungs BASICALLY MY WHOLE BODY, hauling heavy stuff up flights of stairs is like torture. But we have to get as much of it out to the garage as possible so that I know what's left to go to Dad's for storage there, since storage units are like $500/month now and I CANNOT afford that. :|

Last week when we were there we discovered that the mice that Grandma allowed to run rampant in the house for years had gotten into my couch and love seat so I had to throw those away. I have a chair down there still that I have to inspect but my hopes are not high for it, which SUCKS because it's the best chair EVER.

I have a lot of regrets in my life, but moving out of my last apartment and in with Grandma is one of the biggest ones. I was having mental health crises in that apartment, but if I had just stuck it out and gotten on the right meds it would have worked out and I could have stayed there. Then my stuff wouldn't be destroyed and I would have my own apartment, still. But I guess there's nothing I can do about it now, except wait for the subsidized housing people to get to me on the list, preferably some time this DECADE.

It's been twenty days since Poe last emailed me, other than to tell me that they couldn't email me for a while because of the whole mentioning TW thing. Sometimes I feel like our crazies match up, and other times I feel like they just look for excuses not to talk to me. I'm starting to wonder if we just weren't meant to be friends after all, considering all that's happened, even though we're basically the same person. I want to send them some Juna pics to cheer them up, but I don't know if that's allowed. I just don't know anymore. I just want them to be happy.

I still haven't gotten the wiggly foxes up on Etsy even though I said I was going to. I looked at the pictures I had taken and decided that I needed more of them, but then I've been procrastinating over actually DOING to pics, because I always do that, so they're just sitting here, staring at me.

I think I'm depressed right now and my motivation is just... not there for most things. I should be making candles, too, but I just... meh. I dunno, maybe I'll get out my candle stuff so I can make a couple later in the day when Jessie's room is closed up (that's where all my candle supplies are stored.) I really want to check the Dollarama for more of the super pretty Thanksgiving mugs to make into candles but I had to buy printer ink with my Trillium Benefit so I'm broke now until the end of the month unless I take money out of my jar again, which I shouldn't. Sucks.

I started writing three more Hijack one-shots last night, Switch, Paris and Violets Are Blue, all of which are Chemistry side-stories. I'm really enjoying writing Hijack in-and-around my SPN stuff lately, it's nice to get my head out of the Destiel for a while on occasion. I mean, I'm still working on Storm Season and When Lightning Strikes at the same time, and I also write a couple of blurbs for The House this morning, but, you know, variety is the spice of life and all that.

I really do want to write something for Valdemar soon, too. Maybe I'll finish Not Horses or Wander, or possibly Knowing? I don't know, I always have SO MANY Valdemar one-shot ideas it's hard to narrow it down to just one to work on. I'll figure it out, though.

Writing seems to be one thing I can still focus on despite the depression creeping back in, and I'm sure that's because of the ADHD meds. I think without them everything would just be me laying around thinking about the sweet embrace of death (again) and just generally being horrible. At least with the writing it gives me something to focus on and keep my mind of the CRUSHING DESPAIR, for part of the day, at least.

My Amazon cart currently has $145.09 worth of stuff in it, but to be fair there are 4 DVDs (Abigail, The Mitchell's VS The Machines, Sting & Kung Fu Panda 4) and two things of Halloween candy for next month, so it makes sense that it's that expensive. I can't pay for it until the 30th, and even then I might have to defer some of the stuff until my other government payments come in around the 15th of October. I also need to mail Poe's parcel when those come in, and the TINY PACKAGE is going to cost me like $118CAD WHAT THE EVER-LOVING FUCK.

Literally I remember mailing SUBSTANTIAL parcels to the UK back in the day and it costing me like $38CAD to do it, I have no freaking idea why everything is so much more expensive nowadays. INFLATION, MAN.

P.S. I did manage to get about 3 hours of sleep last night after all. I am freaking exhausted, obviously. Going to go get candle stuff and then have a nap, I think. Hopefully I can sleep for real this time. *fingers crossed*

EDIT: Also, Mercedes Lackey is running another kickstarter type thing for a deluxe leather-bound book of like 30 of her short stories and I want it SO BAD but it's $100USD and it ends in like 15 days so WAY before I'll have the money to pay for it. I hate when people run kickstarters (etc.) for really short periods of time, it means people like me who have to scrape together the money get left in the lurch. :(

9:28am and I'm still awake. When I call them I call them. Though I DID get like an hour and a half nap earlier before I woke up again, so that's something.

At least something good is coming out of the insomnia; I'm actually working on TKA! I know, miracle of miracles! I don't know why, I just clicked on it and read through the beginning that I'd already written and I was like "huh" and just started typing. A couple of pages so far, but it's progress! I'm aiming for 250ish pages for TKA so I have a long way to go. I'll probably finish it at 150 pages and then be like FUCK and have to go back and pad it out more haha. Right now it's a whopping 9 pages long, but that'll change fast if I can get my ADHD to fixate on it like it has been on the Horror High AU stuff. I need to find my printed notes and go over everything that I have on my Murder Boards because I'm sure I forgot some stuff when I was doing the notes on the computer, like Aidan's jell-o fixation, and Phoenix as Aidan's unintentional Emotional Support Dog...

Wren's birthday is coming up in October, I should do something to celebrate. Maybe make a spooky candle lol.

I did work more on Tying Knots before I switched to TKA, though, and it's 9 pages so far. I don't think it's going to end up at 30+ pages like the last few one-shots that I wrote for the Horror High et al universe, but it'll be a respectable length anyway. I haven't written the smut yet. Because I'm procrastinating over it. Because it's top!Cas and bottom!Dean and I just... don't even know. :| I'm sure once I get started it'll come along fine, I'm just very hesitant because all I've ever written is top!Dean and bottom!Cas... except for that one scene in Everything I Do. Also it's been FOREVER since I wrote anything Omegaverse and I'm like. Welp.

So yesterday Charlie came in the mail and I went up to the Dollarama and bought more potting soil (just a small bag for like 75 cents) and a pot for her, and got her repotted so she has the good soil and room to grow. I also put her in a spot with as much sunlight as possible (for now; when my new macrame hanger comes in she's going in my bedroom window with Peter.) I have like... 7 baby plants propagating right now? And I basically took over the shelves by the back door with them, and yesterday Mom and I talked and I was like "other than Charlie and Miles, you can have any of the others" so she very carefully moved three of them from the shelves over to the windowsill as if they have to be separate or I'll steal them back or something. XD <3

Last night I got the second filter up and running in the future!axolotl tank. I still have to do the air stones, but those can wait until basically right before I actually get the axolotl. Dean and Castiel have been planted in the aquarium for a few days now and seem to be doing fine, but we'll see how they're still doing in a month or so and judge from there. I still have to prep Sam for the other end of the tank, and grow Miles to a big enough size that he can go in the aquarium, too. Right now he's too teeny (the TEENIEST.)

I really do think I'm going to get a second fan for the axolotl aquarium, too. I'm very concerned about keeping the water temp down for my future!axolotl, and I can't afford an actual aquarium chiller, so the fans will have to do. Also bottles of ice, which Poe recommended to me a while back, if it gets insanely hot and my air conditioner dies or something outrageous like that. I also still need to get the aquatic plants for the tank but that has to wait until midway through October when my government payments come in. That's when I have to mail Poe's parcel, too. Hopefully by then they're able to email me again.

Speaking of plants though, every year I plant tomatoes, and this year was no different, and because of the weather they grew like CRAZY and I had SO MANY tomatoes on the vines, and the beginning of the harvest was GREAT. BUT THEN. About halfway through, the tomatoes started showing up with like brown discoloration on the tops of them? And those ones were no good for eating. At first it was just a few, but then it was most of them. I had some sort of tomato blight this year, which sucks. But I did get a lot of good tomatoes before the blight took over, so I guess I should count myself lucky. It's not like the whole crop was a bust. At this point it's late enough in the year that I need to just take the plants out entirely, but probably not today. Today I'm hoping to sleep for the afternoon. Fingers crossed.

I read a couple chapters of Wilder Girls the day it came in and haven't picked it up since. I'm still having a hard time focusing on reading, even with the ADHD meds, plus my new glasses, which I definitely need for reading, hurt my eyes if I wear them for too long. I just need to get used to them, which basically means I need to read more, except the ADHD, etc. It's a vicious cycle. From what I've read so far, though Wilder Girls is GREAT and is going to be a FANTASTIC READ.

After Wilder Girls I'm going to read The Trees Grew Because I Bled There by Eric LaRocca, it's a short horror story anthology that Poe recommended to me. I have another book by the same author, Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke, in my Amazon cart right now to pick up if I like The Trees Grew Because I Bled There. It's probably hit-or-miss. Some books that Poe recommends are GREAT and others are just... not to my taste. But I'm always up for trying something new, and especially a horror anthology!

EDIT: Just messaged someone on kijiji about a 'lotl. o_o

EDIT #2: I just went to feed Jaskier and he had passed away. He WAS very old, but still, it's sad. I had him for a long time. I guess I'll get another betta fish to keep Lute company next month. Goodnight, Jask. <3

So guess who woke up at four o'clock this morning and couldn't get back to sleep? THIS GAL. Yeah idk I've just been up and tinkering on my computer for like four hours already and now I'm JUST starting to get tired again but I can't go back to sleep because today is shopping day and I need to deal with my pills and my cats and showering and stuff so Mom and I can leave at eleven. BOO.

Oh the plus side, I got a BUNCH written for Storm Season, I'm up to 50 pages on it, so now just... another... 100 to go! :D;; I don't know, though, Storm Season might end up shorter than Horror High in the long run? I'm not entirely sure, I guess I'll just see where it ends up when I'm finished. I still need to watch the first couple episodes of SPN S4 to write the very beginning because I feel like what I've written so far is very inaccurate. Which. I mean. This IS an AU so it's probably FINE? But I know people will bitch, so. Yeah. Up to a certain point I want it to be as accurate as possible.

Also waking up so early this morning meant I got my POSTCARDS ACTUALLY WRITTEN because I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT THEM THIS MONTH. August went by SO fast. :|

Probably another entry later today after shopping. :D

EDIT: Just put in my Amazon order (printer paper, binder dividers, air pump tubing, air pump, aquarium filter because I decided to get another one after all and a copy of The Trees Grew Because I Bled Here by Eric LaRocca) and went on Uline and ordered my first batch of wiggly fox boxes. I only ordered 25 (the minimum you can order) because I don't know if they're going to go over or not and I don't want to be stuck with a million freaking 8x3x3 boxes if they don't. :P

Still probably another entry after I get back from shopping with Mom in the afternoon.

So today was mall day. Yay! lol I haven't been actually shopping-shopping at the mall here in a long time. Mostly because we only have about ten stores that are worthwhile anymore. XD I much prefer just going to Walmart if I need something, or shopping along the main street downtown. We have a lot of cute stores down there. :)

Anyway, I didn't sleep worth beans last night. Originally I had planned to get up at 11:30am at the latest so I could head out around noon, but I ended up laying around in bed, tossing and turning and attempting to get even a little bit of sleep until around 2:30pm before I finally gave up and just got up for the day. ~_~;; Le sigh.

But whatever, I'm used to running on next to no sleep, so I got ready and walked up to the mall. It was super nice and sunny out... except for the wind. HOLY FUCK THE WIND. It was blowing so hard that when I got home I found out I have windburn across my face and neck. O__o; NOT FUN, and really too bad since it would have been warm out too if it wasn't for the wind.

My first stop at the mall was Zellers, where I poked around somewhat aimlessly for a while, just looking at stuff. In the end I got a new pack of LPS (a pony and a deer; the pony comes with a detachable horn! So cute!) and a copy of Megamind, since they had it on special for $18.99 (regular $24.99.) I also got a spool of 100 writeable DVD-Rs since they were on sale for half price and I have a FUCKTON of video files I need to get off of Z and Squall. >>;

After that I went to Ardene for jewelry components. I will post a pic of what I got tomorrow. They have CRYSTALS. CRYYYYYYYSTALS!! ...but when I got home later I remembered I need more bead boxes, so I have nowhere to put said crystals for the moment. xD; *fails*

Then I looked through the itty bitty bookstore we have at the mall, but even though I found a bunch of books and manga I was interested in, I didn't actually buy any. I'm going to be in Barrie next week, so Imma go to Chapters while I'm there instead. Yepyep.

That done, I went and got something to eat at the food court (which has three whole restaurants in it! *facepalm*) After eating, I realized I needed some actual cash so I walked all the way back down to the other end of the mall to pull $20 from the ATM there... at which point my hip went out. DAMMIT.

My hips have been giving me problems lately (particularly the left one, it keeps going out on me the last couple of weeks), so I wasn't surprised, but my shopping bag was relatively heavy and I still had to go to the grocery store and then WALK HOME. =__=;; URGH. SCREW YOU, BODY.

I managed to hobble to the grocery store at the other end of the mall and picked up the odds and ends I needed for cooking dinner tomorrow (chicken curry), then decided I couldn't walk the whole way home and limped my way over to the bus stop.

The problem is that the bus stop closest to here is still about ten blocks away. I got off at that stop, and managed to make my way to the Dollarama. I went in and took a cart for my bags and picked up a couple of things, because sometimes if I put down what I'm carrying and walk slowly for a while my hips/legs start to behave again.

This time? Not so much.

But at least while I was there I got some potting soil (I need to re-pot one of my plants to a bigger pot and need more soil for it) as well as photo frames for the Ghostbusters photo series from Otakon last summer. And some jujubes. Just because JUJUBES.

When I got outside again my hip was still out though, so I ended up having to call Mom and get her to come up and pick me up in the car. I haven't been limping this badly in forever, idk how I used to deal with it every day for so long... anyway, Mom picked me up and brought me home, and I took muscle relaxants and laid down for a couple hours.

When I got up again my hip was a bit better, but not great, so Mom also helped me clean the bunny cages tonight, since it requires a lot of bending and lifting. :P

I do have to go downtown tomorrow... I think even if my leg is better in the morning I'm going to bring my cane with me anyway, though.

My sleeping schedule is all messed up. ~_~;; As usual. /whatever.

So I guess the big news the last couple of days is that Tia is in heat.

Yes, IN HEAT.

Even though I GOT HER SPAYED all the way back in NOVEMBER. >__O;;

IDK, I looked it up online and I guess if the vet missed a bit of one of her ovaries during the surgery that would explain it.

But still, it's frustrating and annoying and she is LOUD right now. Plus 'Dion is humping her every time we turn around (he's due to be neutered next month, but I guess he's old enough to have figured it out. :P) I'm going to call the vet on Monday and go "ummm... I paid you to spay her to avoid this very thing. FIX IT PLZ." and hopefully they'll do it without complaining too much.

Other than that, I'm pretty much done unpacking now. Just four more boxes to go. Between one thing and another it's taken longer than I intended, but at least now Lee won't be on my case about boxes being all over the house anymore. XD;;

I can't find the box with my framed photos though, and that's kind of upsetting. I guess I'll have to print new copies of the ones I really want and buy new frames. HEY MADDIE/CHLOE/PRONNIE! SCAN OUR GROUP PIC FROM THE AQUARIUM LAST SUMMER AND MAIL IT TO ME? It's one of the ones that I really want in a frame... the rest of them I think I have on either Z or Squall, I just have to locate them.

Oh, and I'm setting up a musebox for listing all my rp journals and stuff finally. vilyaore, which used to be my NaNo journal so right now it's still filled with Wednesday's Child stuff, which I need to copy + paste to my HD before I delete it from the journal itself...

EDIT: OH ALSO. RAINBOW BOA!! This is the next snake I am aiming for. They're not gigantic, are mid-range difficulty to take care of (they need very specific heat/humidity) but they are GORGEOUS. Their scales have an iridescent sheen to them, which makes them kind of glow in various colours depending on the light. LOOK AT HOW PRETTY THEY ARE!! ♥♥♥

And I've decided I also want an Iriyan Jaya Carpet Python. On doing more research, the Blood Python is much too large. The Hog Island Boa is still a contender though...

I finally got around to dying and styling Nazoko's wig. Her hair is actually supposed to be cherry red, but at least it's not blonde anymore. It's kind of coppery. Anyway, it'll do until I can get her the wig I actually want for her. Her eyes are also supposed to be orange, but... I can't find orange eyes. .__.;; So she's borrowing Tet-chan's red ones.

Yeah, I was supposed to go to bed an hour ago, but my allergies are trying to murder me, so instead I'm sitting up being miserable and watching The Daily Show. I love this show, but Lewis Black is on tonight and he srsly grates on my nerves. >>; Ah well.

Well, rizumikaru_yomi is back from the two week hiatus. :) No thanks to me since I missed the mod meeting yesterday. Ugh brain wtf, it was not Sunday yesterday it was Monday. >__O;; Anyway, yay! I've been bored without RY lol. Also, some of the things that were upsetting me have been worked out so I'm good now. At least RP-wise.

I need to get Dean and House into stuff at TV too. For some reason I'm having trouble thinking of ways for them to get into things. Grr. *pokes teh muses*

And now for some thoughts on movies that I've watched the last couple days, courtesy of graboid.

--> The Day The Earth Stood Still (remake; Keanu Reeves) Was alright, as disaster movies go. Not the best one I've ever watched, but certainly not the worst. It had it's moments. Plus, the special effects were awesome. Made me think of Armageddon and War of the Worlds a lot.

--> Seven Pounds (Will Smith) Not the kind of movie that I normally watch, but as I'm a HUGE Will Smith fan, I made an exception. It was an amazing movie, and I cried really hard at the end. I never figured out how the title figures into the movie, though. xD; *fail*

--> The Unborn (Odette Yustman, Gary Oldman) ...kekekeke. >3 MY KIND OF MOVIE. Creepy, freaky, night-mare inducing. I loved it. Similar to Mirrors in the kind of scares they produce. ♥

--> Yes Man (Jim Carrey) LAWL I still ♥ Jim Carrey. srsly. This was a hilarious movie. DDR on redbull awesome. And there was some serious stuff in it. I suppose you could consider it a movie where the character grows as a person throughout, despite the slapstick and and around that.

--> Bedtime Stories (Adam Sandler) Okay, so it's no real secret that I'm not a huge Adam Sandler fan. Most of his movies I find really terrible and crude; there's only been a few that I've liked. This one was made my Disney though, so I figured it'd be alright. It was cute. I don't know if I'd run out to buy it ASAP when it comes out on DVD, but it was worth watching.

...so basically, Sena will watch anything. XD;

And now a random note for Kiin: Your original slash is going to involve a vampire. With multiple personalities. 8D And a human that I haven't thought about yet. I'm having so much fun with the clinically D.I.D. vampire that I haven't gotten around to his love interest yet. xD; I still need to name him, too. .__.; Hmm. God, the first name that leaps to mind is Christian, but it's so cliche I can't bring myself to use it. >__>;

Right, and now I should try again to fall asleep. Stupid insomnia.

xtheleadingmanx (9:16:52 PM): Then I just need a nice comfy hoodie and a haircut and I'll be stylin'.
SenashentaChan (9:17:02 PM): lol yeah
xtheleadingmanx (9:17:14 PM): I'll be HIP.
xtheleadingmanx (9:17:17 PM): It'll rock.
SenashentaChan (9:17:25 PM): XD;;;
SenashentaChan (9:17:43 PM): I can't be hip because all my stuff is packed away.
xtheleadingmanx (9:17:50 PM): Aww.
SenashentaChan (9:18:04 PM): Plus, when I try I just end up falling on my face, and that somewhat cancels it out. 8D
xtheleadingmanx (9:18:29 PM): Ahaha!
xtheleadingmanx (9:18:37 PM): XD Yeah, I guess that's true.
xtheleadingmanx (9:18:49 PM): But it's not like you spend all day falling off buses, right?
SenashentaChan (9:19:01 PM): No, generally not.
SenashentaChan (9:19:14 PM): But like, down the stairs or out of the shower, yeah. XD;
xtheleadingmanx (9:19:23 PM): Ouch! Down the stairs?!
SenashentaChan (9:19:38 PM): Yeah, I do that on a regular basis.
SenashentaChan (9:19:44 PM): Or UP the stairs, which is even more epic. SenashentaChan (9:20:10 PM): I win at stairs faceplants. XD;
xtheleadingmanx (9:20:40 PM): It's like you have a degree in falling. *giggle* It's kind of charming.
SenashentaChan (9:21:06 PM): Charming is not a word I've heard used to describe it before. XD;;
xtheleadingmanx (9:21:59 PM): Well, it's like "Oh, she has an interesting quirk."
xtheleadingmanx (9:22:07 PM): I know nobody else that does this.
SenashentaChan (9:23:24 PM): I'm somewhat... flighty. Like, I don't pay attention to what I'm doing. Which I'm told really contradicts my intelligence. xD;
SenashentaChan (9:23:31 PM): Plus sometimes I just get too excited.
SenashentaChan (9:23:48 PM): Like a puppy that runs into a glass door on the way outside. >>;;

Oh AIMchats ILU. What is with all the awesome conversations lately? Or maybe I just find them more amusing than they actually are because I'm so burnt out and stressed. xD;

Hmm. Been up for almost three hours now. Yeah, woke up at 6 and couldn't get back to sleep. So I watched some of Happy Feet (which, contrary to the impression I got from the ads, is actually a really good movie. I want the soundtrack to it.), and then did a bunch of dishes. And I mean a TON of them; I haven't done dishes in like two weeks because of being so busy with other stuff. -__-; Ew. So those are all washed, and ready to be packed away. I'll just leave like one plate/fork/spoon/knife/bowl/cup for the next couple days.

Later today I have to pack all that up, then start going through my cupboards and boxing all the food that I won't need in the next three days so it can go over to Mom's. I also need to empty out my little fridge up here and unplug it to defrost so it'll be done and dry by the time the movers come on Tuesday.

Now I'm downloading the Vampire Knight OST and watching The Lost Boys.

Note to self: Things to squee over/squee over more when you have time:

1) Tales of the Abyss anime.
2) Junjou Romantica 2.
3) Vampire Knight ~Guilty~

Okay, so I seriously should be sleeping. I've tried to go to bed a couple times and always just ended up back up again and working on something. Well, first I was up until almost four rping with Kiin. xD; Then I shut off my movie and tried to go to sleep, and couldn't, so I got back up and finished watching it. Then I tried again. Then I got back up and put on another movie, and worked on my alien queen model some. Then when that movie was over I tried to sleep again.

...and I've just spent the last 45 minutes laying in bed, thinking about Otakon, and having random gigglefits over some of the larping we did there. XD;; In particular, when Michelle made a Luke!comment about how he could definitively say Kadaj was a girl and why, and made Maddie and I go "... .__." because it was like the last thing we expected her to say. ♥

Also, when Kadaj and Kurai had that random slapping fight in the dark after we'd gone to bed. And then got yelled at by Reno and Albel. Because seriously that killed me in the best possible way.

THINKING ABOUT THAT MAKES ME MISS YOU GUYS. ;3; OTAKON '09 IS TOO FAR AWAY!

...And now I'm considering posting the Marluxia/Kadaj AIM-logs that Kiin and I have done the last couple days here, just for the sake of posting them. Because there is a lot of cute stuff, which we are squeeing over. However, the logs are also mostly smut, with the cute interspersed in there, and I don't know if I have the guts to put them up. XD;;

For those of you not familiar with RY-verse, YES SHUT UP I SAID MARLUXIA/KADAJ. X3 ~♥ RY has spawned some of the best crack pairings for me, I swear.

EDIT:: Okay, fuck it. Have some Marly/Kadaj. Yaoi smut ahoy. Probably not good for Sephiroth's health to read this. No really.

There are two others, but I can't post them here because of LJ's text limit. >>; Maybe I'll post them later on in different entries.

...I SHIP THEM SO HARD. *w*

EDIT #2: Maddie, I muddled out basic screencapping and got a cap of cheerleader!Jenova for you, so you don't have to worry about it. ♥

I slept for like an hour and a half last night, and woke up, and can't get back to sleep. And I'm bored out of my skull. =.=;

Later on, if I still can't sleep, I'm considering going downtown and getting my ears pierced (again >>;) and looking around the farmer's market. But if I do, I'll want to go early to avoid the heat in the afternoon. Hmm.

ASDGH apparently both lipstickcat and etcetera_cat are going to be in Toronto that weekend in August after I get back from Otakon. >3< I need to flail at them. SRSLY. So... >> << I'm wondering if there might be a chance I could crash with one of them the Saturday night? Then I could bother you more. But if I don't have a place to stay I'll have to take the bus to TO in the morning Saturday and then leave again that night, so I'll only be around for a couple hours.

AND NOW RANDOM RP-UPDATE:

Hikaru; Michelle and I actually have a semi-plan for the twins! Finally! 8D; They're going to open their own boutique downtown, and sell their own designs. We haven't gotten started on that yet, but they're also going to have to get Kyouya to help with the business end of it (which is part of why it hasn't started yet, as Cassandra-san is unavailable for a few days. <3) Other than that, Tono is apparently flinging a huge beach-party, and Hikaru is OMGEXCITED about that, and plotting many, many evil things to do to him while they're there. >D

Demyx; A few days ago he went out drinking with Axel, and somehow wound up soaking wet at the park. There is some speculation that they attempted skinnydipping but forgot that entails taking their clothes off. Demyx can't remember most of that night. XD;; There was some almost-angsty stuff with him and Zexion a short time later, but it's all been resolved (I think.) Also, Yaten is going out of town, so he's looking after Mint for her until she gets back. Demy is happy (KITTIES!) Nocturne is happy. Zexy is not. Mint keeps getting white hair on his black clothes. >>;

Kyo; Is having some problems dealing with slackers at work, and has asked Sephiroth to look into it. I'm not sure if anything is going to change in that regard. *shrug* That aside, he's working rediculous hours after the bombing a while back, as he doesn't trust the other guy (NPC) they hired to keep an eye on the vid room when he's not there, because the guy keeps falling asleep. Other than that, the other day he went in to work early and asked Zelos to feed the stray kitties that come around to beg for food... and Zelos did so, and then promptly let them inside to cuddle. Now they have pets. Like, a lot of pets.

Mahiru; AHAHA. Riku finally managed to organise a practice for the band (at Saber's dojo), so that's happening. I think Mahiru will be shocked, as she's never actually met him, Asch or Axel in person before. It will be epic. I feel sorry for her already. Also, she's considering sneaking a keyboard into her apartment and picking that up for the band, but has yet to actually do so, since she doesn't really know how to go about it.

Kadaj; Oh God, where to start... first off, he's had to stop seeing Marluxia for the time being because of the trial. Which apparently is semi-close to a resolution. He hopes not to have to actually testify. Anyway, he's a little whiny about not being able to see Mar, but not terribly so. He's been spending a lot of time with Luke and Asch, and recently with Axel because Axel got sick and Kadaj deemed him unable to take care of himself in that situation. XD; So he was over taking care of Axel, and Asch came by to check up on him too, and so the three of them hung out and flirted and whatever, and somehow Asch ended up in a nurse outfit and Kadaj ended up in a maid outfit. So basically, Michi, Pronnie and I should never be allowed in the same place at the same time. ♥♥♥ lol.

Ed; I picked up Ed from FMA over at discordia_rp! :3 Because I thought he'd be someone I could play, and because Lome wanted more FMA characters to play with Roy. lawl, it started in my intro post. XD And now Ed is stowed away on Roy's ship, and has just been found by Hawkeye, and will shortly be dragged by the collar to see the captain, where I imagine many explatives will take place. IN CAPSLOCK.

Roxas & Youji; I'm planning to pick these two up at Discordia too. *is working on apps*

EDIT: Got my ears pierced again! Okay technically, I just got my left ear pierced again. Twice. 8D Now I have four in my left ear and three in my right~ I used Demyx!cosplay as an excuse for more piercings, but really I just wanted them. xD; My left ear hurts now. ;3;

Also went to the farmer's market on my way home. Got REAL Canadian maple syrup to send to Steph. Also got some dumplings. AND BUFFALO BURGERS ZOMG BWAHAHA. They're supposed to be good, so I thought I'd try them. Yum. Buffalo.

...I was so tired earlier and went to bed at 10:30-ish because I was falling asleep at the computer I had to ditch the RY Rally early! D: Then I woke up about 1:30 SICK AS A FUCKING DOG. UGH. I guess that explains why I was so exhausted. Now I can't get back to sleep because I feel so crappy. I'm so tired. I think I'm going to medicate myself with gravol and aspirin and muscle relaxants and see if that helps. Gingerale and jello tomorrow. -___-;;

Um. Other than that, yesterday I went to the optometrist for the first time in like... 9 years. I fail. He checked me out and gave me a clean bill of eye-health (though he says I do have a slight astygmatism in my left eye that wasn't there before) and was perfectly happy to write me a script so I can get colour contacts for cosplay at Otakon.

Part of the exam was those stupid eye drops that dilate your pupils hugely, though, so after that I had to wear my sunglasses. The people at the book store were like "...wtf." It was somewhat funny. At least I remembered the glasses this time, last time I didn't and had to stumble home on an uber!sunny summer day with my eyes squinted 99% closed because the light HURT. I was stumbling around so much I probably looked drunk or high or something. >>;

Anyway, the book store yielded a huge-ass book called Personology, which is a really detailed look into numerology/astrology/etc. and how to organise your own personal charts. It's a $60 book on sale for $12. >3< I love it. Also, KH2 volume 2 omgyey. X3

EDIT: Whoever gave me the stomach flu can go to hell. D:

1) Pagan still seems fine. I'm hoping no more seizures, but I'm still nervous about it. -.-;

2) Nijuuni got the third part of her ARR comic out... and now I want gyouza. D: Maybe I can get Mom to take me to Yamato while we're out tomorrow. >.>

3) Also tomorrow, I need to remember to go to Walmart for ribbon. I'm doing a handful of kimono-styled ponies (similar to Ritsu) and need thicker ribbons in different colours for the bows. :3

4) Yeah, I woke up half an hour ago and had to get up to get a drink and stuff... and somehow ended up on the PC. xD; wtf? I fail. Oh well. Going back to bed now.

Mmm... I seem to be going into an up-swing again, thanks muchly BPD. So I haven't been sleeping much the last week or so. Still, last night I managed to get a couple hours in the afternoon... and of course I had bizarre dreams. WTF? I sleep for the first time in days and I have wierd ass dreams. Go figure.

In the first one all I remember is that I had this gross sillicone stuff in my mouth. It had something to do with movie special effects. And when I tried to get it out, all my teeth came out with it. O_____o I dunno, and then I was like "Oops." and that was it. xD;

The second one was much less wtf-inspiring, and actually kind of awesome, as it was about a group of settlers in the pioneer days; they got lost, and ended up settling down in this valley to build a town, but the valley was right in the middle of a Werewolf pack's territory. The Wolves lived in caves outside the valley. The rest of the dream was basically about them terrorizing the poor pioneers. I don't remember many details, which kind of sucks because it was pretty entertaining. Would've made a good writing project. =D;

Other than that, a couple days ago I downloaded a batch torrent of Zombie Loan, and then yesterday I sat to watch the first episode... only to find out that the video quality sucked. It was all pixelized and shit, and I know it wasn't my computer because the actual subtitles in the video came in clear as day. Whoever did the vid capture for them did a pretty crappy job.

Bah. So now I'm downloading it again, one ep at a time, from a different subber. It's taking forever, but the quality is muuuuch better. Though when I tried to watch it earlier it was seriously lagging, and it turned out to be my PC. I went to do a defragmenting analysis, and my hard drive was rediculously fragmented. So I defraged it and now we're running smoothly again. ^_^