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Just Another Frustration
Feb. 27th, 2025 03:15 pmI rehomed Delta and Lute today. I just realized, recently, that I hadn't bonded with Delta properly (not like I bonded with Jaskier) and I was neglecting him because I just didn't care all that much. It wasn't fair to him, or to Lute, so I posted a Free To Good Home ad on Kijiji and someone snapped them up the same day, and came to pick them up this afternoon. I sent them along with their tank, filter, air pump, extra filter cartridges and aaaaaaall the food I had amassed for the two of them. And they were off! I wish them bon voyage and a happy home on the other end!
The worms that I ordered a couple weeks ago finally arrived today and... yeah. 1/4 pound of worms is not a lot of worms, really, so I spent a TON of money on relatively little food for my 'lotls and I'm severely disappointed, mostly in myself. I wish I could just get freaking worms around town, but right now they're in short supply. And by "short" I mean "none to be had ANYWHERE." I'm hoping I can get a few to bolster my mail-order worms tomorrow when Mom and I go out shopping, since we've had a thaw the last few days. Good weather for shipments to come through.
But speaking of my 'lotls... their tank has a bacterial infection, and Kaida has caught it in one eye. After the debacle with switching their tanks out a little while back, I'm not entirely surprised, but it does suck that my little 'lotls have to go through this, now, too. Tomorrow I have to order the medication for the tank first thing so it'll be delivered on Saturday and I can start treatment. Mom has banned fridge baths for Kaida, but I could try a salt bath, maybe, to try to help his eye out? I dunno.
Anyway. Last night I had like a EUREKA!! moment in Photoshop when I fucking FINALLY figure out how to do the layer to add a white outline to text. I've been trying to figure that out for MONTHS. I am... not good with tah Photoshop. And Poe was supposed to be teaching me stuff on it, but obviously that isn't happening anymore, so I'm on my own to just fumble my way through with the occasional breakthrough along the way.
Completely off-topic, but I just made a coffee and I think I added too much of the flavored creamer to it. So much cinnamon roll omg. :|
Yesterday I gave the Currently Untitled post-Horror High one-shot a title, Afterglow, and made a cover for it, added it to my NaNo Projects page. And in the process I also conceptualized ANOTHER post-Horror High one-shot, Lifeline, that takes place over Christmas the one year that the two of them are doing the long-distance thing. I also scrapped Day Drinking and Sudden Cardiac Arrest from the post-Storm Season one-shots, though I might go back to them later on, idk. Same with some of the others that I scrapped earlier. *shrug*
I've been mostly writing Afterglow the last couple of days, even though I should be finishing up Hunting Souls. Today I posted Ghost In The Machine, though I completely forgot about posting it until this afternoon--normally I post my fics in the morning on Thursdays, but I forgot it was even Thursday today. Bah. I guess it doesn't matter, I got it posted on Thursday and that's the important thing. I'm trying to maintain a schedule for the first time in my life.
This morning the pharmacist called to let me know that Dr. K had increased my ADHD meds from 20mg a day to 30mg a day, but I have to wait until next Saturday for the increased dosage because that's when my next pill packs are being delivered. So, good news that my meds have been increased, but bad news that I still have to wait over a week to get them. But because they're not a life-and-death medication I guess it's fine.
Yesterday I went to the hospital for a lung test where they basically give you a medication to induce an asthma attack and then get you to do sharp breaths into the mouthpiece and monitor had fast and far you crash; then they give you a reversal (Ventolin) and do the same thing, charting how fast and far you come back up. It's really unpleasant, but the guy said that I was doing well... and that's the problem. I always do well in the tests and then everyone is like "your lungs are FINE!" when actually I've had severe asthma my whole life and have had Covid 5 times (each time it went to my lungs and I ended up with SEVERE pneumonia that damaged my lungs), I can barely breathe on the best of days, but... I'm fine. I'm fine.
Whatever. Just another frustration in my life.
Next week I have an appointment with the Denturist to (hopefully) get some dentures to replace ALL OF MY UPPER MOLARS, WHICH HAVE BEEN PULLED OVER THE COURSE OF A COUPLE OF YEARS. Last time ODSP declined my claim because at the time I wasn't missing enough teeth. I don't know how many teeth I need to BE missing to have dentures covered, and they wouldn't tell me when I specifically asked, but do you think EVERY SINGLE UPPER MOLAR would make me qualify? I guess we'll find out.
Speaking of ODSP, every time we talk about it, Mom tries to insist that I get as much every month as she does, which is around $1,800/month, and EVERY TIME I have to be like "NO, I get $1,200/month, Mom, YOU KNOW THIS." And it's like... if I was getting $1,800/month, I WOULDN'T BE LIVING HERE. I would be living in my own place, and yeah, maybe on a shoestring budget, but that would be FINE. But I'm a second-class citizen, in the grans scheme of things I don't matter, no one on disability matters, and no one in the government GIVES A SHIT that we are living SO far below the poverty line.
Right. So, I'm going to go do some writing because I'm feeling really down now and some Destiel fluff will hopefully bring me back up.
The worms that I ordered a couple weeks ago finally arrived today and... yeah. 1/4 pound of worms is not a lot of worms, really, so I spent a TON of money on relatively little food for my 'lotls and I'm severely disappointed, mostly in myself. I wish I could just get freaking worms around town, but right now they're in short supply. And by "short" I mean "none to be had ANYWHERE." I'm hoping I can get a few to bolster my mail-order worms tomorrow when Mom and I go out shopping, since we've had a thaw the last few days. Good weather for shipments to come through.
But speaking of my 'lotls... their tank has a bacterial infection, and Kaida has caught it in one eye. After the debacle with switching their tanks out a little while back, I'm not entirely surprised, but it does suck that my little 'lotls have to go through this, now, too. Tomorrow I have to order the medication for the tank first thing so it'll be delivered on Saturday and I can start treatment. Mom has banned fridge baths for Kaida, but I could try a salt bath, maybe, to try to help his eye out? I dunno.
Anyway. Last night I had like a EUREKA!! moment in Photoshop when I fucking FINALLY figure out how to do the layer to add a white outline to text. I've been trying to figure that out for MONTHS. I am... not good with tah Photoshop. And Poe was supposed to be teaching me stuff on it, but obviously that isn't happening anymore, so I'm on my own to just fumble my way through with the occasional breakthrough along the way.
Completely off-topic, but I just made a coffee and I think I added too much of the flavored creamer to it. So much cinnamon roll omg. :|
Yesterday I gave the Currently Untitled post-Horror High one-shot a title, Afterglow, and made a cover for it, added it to my NaNo Projects page. And in the process I also conceptualized ANOTHER post-Horror High one-shot, Lifeline, that takes place over Christmas the one year that the two of them are doing the long-distance thing. I also scrapped Day Drinking and Sudden Cardiac Arrest from the post-Storm Season one-shots, though I might go back to them later on, idk. Same with some of the others that I scrapped earlier. *shrug*
I've been mostly writing Afterglow the last couple of days, even though I should be finishing up Hunting Souls. Today I posted Ghost In The Machine, though I completely forgot about posting it until this afternoon--normally I post my fics in the morning on Thursdays, but I forgot it was even Thursday today. Bah. I guess it doesn't matter, I got it posted on Thursday and that's the important thing. I'm trying to maintain a schedule for the first time in my life.
This morning the pharmacist called to let me know that Dr. K had increased my ADHD meds from 20mg a day to 30mg a day, but I have to wait until next Saturday for the increased dosage because that's when my next pill packs are being delivered. So, good news that my meds have been increased, but bad news that I still have to wait over a week to get them. But because they're not a life-and-death medication I guess it's fine.
Yesterday I went to the hospital for a lung test where they basically give you a medication to induce an asthma attack and then get you to do sharp breaths into the mouthpiece and monitor had fast and far you crash; then they give you a reversal (Ventolin) and do the same thing, charting how fast and far you come back up. It's really unpleasant, but the guy said that I was doing well... and that's the problem. I always do well in the tests and then everyone is like "your lungs are FINE!" when actually I've had severe asthma my whole life and have had Covid 5 times (each time it went to my lungs and I ended up with SEVERE pneumonia that damaged my lungs), I can barely breathe on the best of days, but... I'm fine. I'm fine.
Whatever. Just another frustration in my life.
Next week I have an appointment with the Denturist to (hopefully) get some dentures to replace ALL OF MY UPPER MOLARS, WHICH HAVE BEEN PULLED OVER THE COURSE OF A COUPLE OF YEARS. Last time ODSP declined my claim because at the time I wasn't missing enough teeth. I don't know how many teeth I need to BE missing to have dentures covered, and they wouldn't tell me when I specifically asked, but do you think EVERY SINGLE UPPER MOLAR would make me qualify? I guess we'll find out.
Speaking of ODSP, every time we talk about it, Mom tries to insist that I get as much every month as she does, which is around $1,800/month, and EVERY TIME I have to be like "NO, I get $1,200/month, Mom, YOU KNOW THIS." And it's like... if I was getting $1,800/month, I WOULDN'T BE LIVING HERE. I would be living in my own place, and yeah, maybe on a shoestring budget, but that would be FINE. But I'm a second-class citizen, in the grans scheme of things I don't matter, no one on disability matters, and no one in the government GIVES A SHIT that we are living SO far below the poverty line.
Right. So, I'm going to go do some writing because I'm feeling really down now and some Destiel fluff will hopefully bring me back up.
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