Inconsiderate B*stard, And Other Things

[senashenta]

Yesterday, my Stepdad did the groceries, the same as he does every Friday. And this week he was supposed to be buying the Halloween candy to hand out to the kids on the 31st. Every year they buy a huge box of like 95 chocolate bars, I buy a huge box of 90 Maynard's candies, then we get six kids, and we end up just divvying almost all of it up between the three of us at the end of the night.

So on Thursday he was going through the flyers and he was like "oh, these ones are on sale for $12, but the ones we normally get are only on for $14" THIS MAN NICKEL AND DIMES FUCKING EVERYTHING. And Mom and I were like "uh, yes, but the $12 box is all peanut butter stuff that SENA CAN'T EAT, GET THE ONE WE NORMALLY GET" and he didn't really say anything. Then he comes back from groceries with the $12 peanut butter chocolate bars box and I was SO. FUCKING. LIVID.

HONESTLY, HOW INCONSIDERATE CAN YOU GET? LITERALLY HE DID IT JUST BECAUSE OF $2 AND BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT TO SHARE WITH ME THIS YEAR. HE'S A PRICK. So I was like FINE. I'M NOT SHARING MINE WITH YOU, EITHER. And he gave me a LOOK and I didn't say anything else, and it's like... no. If you're going to be like that, then I can be like that, too. Fuck you.

I did share with MOM, though, because it's not HER fault my Stepdad is a selfish asshole. >(

ANYWAY.

I did the math and so far, in completed fics, since August I have written 219,314 words which, as I said before when I was counting PAGES, is TWO freaking novels. And that's not counting all the bits and bobs I've written but not finished yet, either.

I keep doing all this math (TRY to take my freaking calculator away lol) to try to psych myself up for the NaNo next month because I'm starting to get nervous about it, and if I'm nervous then I DEFINITELY won't do well. I just need to relax and write the same as I have been. Obviously I'm capable of it, I just have to do it, even though my brain always shuts off automatically and plays dead the instant the NaNo start bell rings. =/

I just messed around on pinterest for the first time in my life and created the beginnings of a TKA board and linked it up to TKA in my NaNo profile. Something I can look back at when I need inspiration, you know? And I just realized I didn't include any SHOWERS in the board and that is UNACCEPTABLE. XD;; I'll fix that when I'm done here.

I'm 15 pages and 9,703 words into When Lightning Strikes, so I'm about halfway there with it, and I'm going to try really hard to focus on just it until I have it done and then move on to the next one in the series, Ghost In The Machine. My ADHD has been making me jump around projects a lot lately and I have to try to focus down on one at a time despite that. Definitely talking to Dr. K about increasing my Vyvanse dosage when I go in in November because trying to write TKA with my brain doing this is going to be impossible.

Yesterday I finally got the pie made for my brother's (belated) birthday, and it turned out really good! I took a picture lol. He's coming over today to do laundry and stuff, so he'll take it with him when he goes home. I really hope it tastes as good as it looks. I hope he likes it. I always worry about that with pies for some reason, even though they pretty much always turn out fine...

TWO MORE DAYS 'TIL THE AQUARIUM. OwO

Oh, and Poe's parcel was picked up a couple days ago and I emailed them asking them to please message me or something when it arrived so I knew it got there in one piece, but the tracking says it arrived yesterday and... no message. No email. They have well and truly washed their hands of me. Which is GOOD, in a way, but also... it wasn't my intention when I sent that initial email. I said we shouldn't be in CONSTANT communication, not that we shouldn't communicate AT ALL. And it's really... it's rude. For them to not even drop me an email saying "yo it arrived fine." That's all I was asking for. So I dunno, just. I dunno.