senashenta: (Medical Cross)
I had Covid for the first time in December 2019, before it was even officially announced as being in Canada. But Mom worked at the Casino at the time, and they got a LOT of traffic from patrons from China, and she brought it home. We didn't even know what it was at that point, it was just a REALLY bad cold/flu that we both came down with, but... after that my lungs were never the same.

I've been short of breath ever since, like my asthma is flaring up constantly, and I've had Covid FOUR MORE TIMES (so far) since then, and every time it goes STRAIGHT for my lungs and I end up with pneumonia from it, and every time I come out the other end with my lungs just a LITTLE bit worse off. At this point I'm going through a ventolin rescue inhaler every two weeks, which is INSANE considering before Covid I was going through ONE A YEAR, MAYBE.

Dr. K keeps sending me for tests and scans to try to figure out what's wrong with my lungs, and trying me on different inhalers, trying to find one that works and clears everything up, but nothing helps. I'm pretty sure I just have LongCovid and I'm stuck like this until they come up with a treatment for it, which sucks, but I guess that's reality. I have to talk to Dr. K about that when I'm in to see her in a couple of weeks and see what she thinks.

Because it's either LongCovid or it's fucking LUNG CANCER, and the scans have already ruled out the cancer option. All I know is I'm constantly short of breath and my lungs (particularly my right one) feel congested and even HURT sometimes, and I'm SO tired of it. I just want to breathe normally again, I don't feel like that's too much to ask, considering all my other health problems.

Because it's impossible to do ANYTHING when you can't breathe. I'm supposed to be exercising to help me lose weight because of my fucked-up LIVER, but I can barely walk two flights of stairs without needing my rescue inhaler right now, and that's ridiculous. I have to swap the axolotl tanks over in a couple of days and it's going to absolutely KILL ME, hauling all the buckets of water (it almost killed me LAST TIME I had to do it, too.) But it has to be done, the current tank is leaking, so like, what can I do?

I've been trying my best to live with this since freaking 2019, but every time I have Covid it just gets worse. At some point I'm going to just end up on oxygen and at my age? That's HORRIBLE. Just... sometimes it feels unfair, all the health things that get piled up on me. And I can't bitch about it around here because Mom is sick of hearing about it, so...

Journal bitching, it is!

EDIT: I saw on the news a couple days ago that LongCovid is becoming such a problem that the governments around the world, including Canada, are actually devoting money, resources and manpower to getting to the bottom of it. It could still take a DECADE, but here’s hoping!
senashenta: (Jack Frost)
I've been working on another RPNAU Hijack one-shot that's a Biology side-story, Coffee Break, last night and this morning so far. I really enjoyed writing Snowflakes And Dragons, it was a nice break from the ALL DESTIEL ALL THE TIME that's been going on in my brain lately. I mean, I'm going back to Storm Season et al as soon as I'm done Coffee Break, but still. *shrug*

I spent most of yesterday editing and collating Biology and then printing it and all it's side-fics out and putting them neatly in a binder for safekeeping. I've done the same thing with Horror High and all it's one-shots, and I need another binder to do the same for Storm Season and all IT'S one-shots. I also want to print hard copies of my Valdemar stuff at some point but literally I am going through SO MUCH paper and ink, I can't even explain. :|

.....

It's been two weeks now since I talked to Poe, with the exception of the email they sent me that said they couldn't talk to me right now because I stupidly mentioned Teen Wolf to them. I understand the trauma from that con, but I don't quite understand how that translates to me? Why can't they talk to ME just because I mentioned it? I guess because now they associate me with said trauma? idk, it's hard to understand unless you've been there, I suppose. I'm trying to be understanding and give them space, in any case, I just don't know how long it's going to be before we're talking again and that's frustrating. At the same time, it's probably no good on their end right now, either, so. Yeah.

Last night I woke up at 3am gasping for air, like wheezing and unable to breathe, and I have NO IDEA what is wrong with my lungs right now but they OBVIOUSLY aren't getting better. I need to talk to Dr. K about it, but my next appointment isn't until November because she said "two months" and the receptionist heard "almost four months" and I'm like. Something is really fucked up and I don't know what but we need to figure it out because I CANNOT BREATHE.

Now my lungs hurt and my back hurts and my diaphragm hurts from coughing overnight and I don't even know what to do anymore.

.....

I was looking at Castiel and Dean in the aquarium planters today and Cas is doing really well but Dean had a couple of dying leaves, and when I went to pluck them out I found out there were a couple of his vines that weren't even IN the water. *facepalm* So I tucked him in properly and we'll see how it goes.

I still need to unpot Sam and get all the dirt off his roots so I can put him in the aquarium, and I'm still growing Miles to a suitable Aquarium Size, because he is still itty-bitty. (Also considering re-naming him "Jack" since Mom stole my Jack vine and I like the idea of having all SPN plants in the aquarium.) But I think in the end Cas, Dean, Sam and Miles/Jack are going to be the only plants in the top of my planted aquarium, since I want to add a second fan on the right side of the tank and that will take up the space for the other two planters.

The seller on kijiji that I messaged about an axolotl never bothered to message me back, so I guess that's not happening. It's fine I'm still working on the tank anyway. :|

So far so good with Charlie, she seems to be liking her new digs. Not dying yet, so that's a plus because she was EXPENSIVE. The second pink princess philodendron leaf that I've been trying to propagate still hasn't died but also isn't... doing... anything?? So I dunno with that one. I've got it in soil now, we're gonna give that a try rather than the water propagation, so we'll see. If it does eventually take Mom is going to adopt it since I've got Charlie now, assuming Charlie survives.

I went to the Dollarama the other day because the last time I was in they had these really cute Thanksgiving mugs that said "Blessed" and "Thankful" etc. and I wanted to get some to make into candles to sell on FB Marketplace. But when I went in they had ONE mug left and I'm like OF COURSE. So I grabbed it and I'll go back later with the hope that they've restocked.

I plan to make a bunch of really cute Christmas mug candles, too, when Halloween is over and the Christmas stuff starts hitting the stores. Christmas mugs are always super adorable and cheap no matter what store you go to. I'm gonna run out of wax, though, since it takes so much to make a mug candle. :P But the thing is, a bag of wax is $35 and a mug candle goes for $25, so if I sell two or three I've made up for the wax, I just need to, yanno, SELL those two or three.

I really wish I could put them on Etsy, but the shipping would be ATROCIOUS and no one would want to pay it (and I don't blame them.) So FB Marketplace it is!

Oh, and I'm gearing up to post the first few of my Wiggly Foxes on Etsy, since the boxes for them came in the other day. I have all the pics and videos, I just need to do the actual, yanno, UPLOADING. :D;;

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