Just A Bunch Of Nothing, Really
May. 24th, 2025 02:46 pmI finished Breathe a couple days ago and I've got it edited already as well, ready to go for next Thursday. It came in at 39 pages and 18,641 words, so on par for where most of the Horror High et al fics are coming in these days.
I posted Cornfields two days ago and so far it's not getting a great reception. But I'm used to that; very few of my HHEA fics get more than a passing glance from the fandom. It sucks, but it is what it is. I guess I should have started writing SPN back before the series ended and the fandom effectively died, that's all. (But I wasn't on my ADHD meds back then so I couldn't have even if I'd wanted to. :P)
Right now I'm working on Absolute Devotion, which is the next in line for the post-HH one-shots that I'm working at finishing up. I'm probably about 1/3 done and there are a couple of parts that are bugging me a little but I can tighten it up when I edit it later. *shrug*
I've started recommending a B-Movie in the beginning notes of each of my HHEA fics, it's the last thing I put in so it's at the very end. Just for a lark, really, and to spread the word about "good" B-Movies. In Southern Hospitality I recommended Cocaine Bear, in Cornfields I recommended Black Sheep and in Breathe I'm recommending Primal, and so on. I wish I'd thought of it sooner, I could have recommended like 30 more movies up 'til now if I had. :P
The last couple days I've been watching some new movies, too. The first one was The Bayou, and it was fun because giant angry (drug-fuelled) alligators. Then there was Screamboat, which was a Mickey Mouse horror flick but like... definitely horror comedy. You could have the BEST drinking game if you drank every time one of the characters mentioned a Disney song in casual conversation lol. And then last night I watched Final Destination: Bloodlines, which was pretty good but honestly I only half-watched the last forty-five minutes of it so I probably have to watch it again to form a solid opinion. I got distracted with PSP stuff. Oops.
Lately, on top of my ribs and my back, my feet and legs have been swelling so much that I'm developing stretch lines and even bruises. They're very sore to the touch. It's a circulation thing, so I've started wearing my compression socks again but they aren't doing much to help. Mom says to sit on my bed with my feet up, but then I literally can't do anything. What I need is a Revitive Circulation Booster but they cost like $350 so that's not happening.
Last Wednesday I went in to the Dentist to have a special x-ray taken because ODSP had requested it. It has to do with whether they'll approve my partial dentures or not, and I should have had it done two months ago but the last two months have been such a FUCKFEST between one thing and another I just got to it now. Hopefully ODSP will get back to the Denturist quickly and with a YES because I'm really Goddamned tired of not being able to chew anything. =/
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Dad is doing what he can to figure out how he can help me pay for a storage unit for my stuff, since it looks like the shed on Lois' property isn't going to happen after all. He asked if Mom would be willing to help out and it was like... no. No she won't. She already does a lot for me, really, and if I asked for her help with this, too, she would just get angry. I know I've worn out my welcome here in more ways than one, it just sucks to have it shoved in my face like that in times of need, you know?
Speaking of Mom, she literally just took me out today to buy tomato plants before they're all picked over so that I can plant my tomatoes next weekend (weather withstanding.) Little things. Now I just have to hope the soil in the tomato bins is still good after last year's blight near the end of the season. I dunno, I guess we'll see.
Last night I started a memoir. I titled it "Clowder" and the cover I mocked up for it has Neko on it. It's just going to be me spilling my guts about everything in my life from as early as I can remember until now. I'm really only writing it for myself, so I don't have a real deadline in mind. I'll just work on it whenever I feel like crying alone by myself over my keyboard for a while. I'm hoping it will be cathartic, you know? I'll probably just traumatize myself even more, in the end, though...
I posted Cornfields two days ago and so far it's not getting a great reception. But I'm used to that; very few of my HHEA fics get more than a passing glance from the fandom. It sucks, but it is what it is. I guess I should have started writing SPN back before the series ended and the fandom effectively died, that's all. (But I wasn't on my ADHD meds back then so I couldn't have even if I'd wanted to. :P)
Right now I'm working on Absolute Devotion, which is the next in line for the post-HH one-shots that I'm working at finishing up. I'm probably about 1/3 done and there are a couple of parts that are bugging me a little but I can tighten it up when I edit it later. *shrug*
I've started recommending a B-Movie in the beginning notes of each of my HHEA fics, it's the last thing I put in so it's at the very end. Just for a lark, really, and to spread the word about "good" B-Movies. In Southern Hospitality I recommended Cocaine Bear, in Cornfields I recommended Black Sheep and in Breathe I'm recommending Primal, and so on. I wish I'd thought of it sooner, I could have recommended like 30 more movies up 'til now if I had. :P
The last couple days I've been watching some new movies, too. The first one was The Bayou, and it was fun because giant angry (drug-fuelled) alligators. Then there was Screamboat, which was a Mickey Mouse horror flick but like... definitely horror comedy. You could have the BEST drinking game if you drank every time one of the characters mentioned a Disney song in casual conversation lol. And then last night I watched Final Destination: Bloodlines, which was pretty good but honestly I only half-watched the last forty-five minutes of it so I probably have to watch it again to form a solid opinion. I got distracted with PSP stuff. Oops.
Lately, on top of my ribs and my back, my feet and legs have been swelling so much that I'm developing stretch lines and even bruises. They're very sore to the touch. It's a circulation thing, so I've started wearing my compression socks again but they aren't doing much to help. Mom says to sit on my bed with my feet up, but then I literally can't do anything. What I need is a Revitive Circulation Booster but they cost like $350 so that's not happening.
Last Wednesday I went in to the Dentist to have a special x-ray taken because ODSP had requested it. It has to do with whether they'll approve my partial dentures or not, and I should have had it done two months ago but the last two months have been such a FUCKFEST between one thing and another I just got to it now. Hopefully ODSP will get back to the Denturist quickly and with a YES because I'm really Goddamned tired of not being able to chew anything. =/
...
Dad is doing what he can to figure out how he can help me pay for a storage unit for my stuff, since it looks like the shed on Lois' property isn't going to happen after all. He asked if Mom would be willing to help out and it was like... no. No she won't. She already does a lot for me, really, and if I asked for her help with this, too, she would just get angry. I know I've worn out my welcome here in more ways than one, it just sucks to have it shoved in my face like that in times of need, you know?
Speaking of Mom, she literally just took me out today to buy tomato plants before they're all picked over so that I can plant my tomatoes next weekend (weather withstanding.) Little things. Now I just have to hope the soil in the tomato bins is still good after last year's blight near the end of the season. I dunno, I guess we'll see.
Last night I started a memoir. I titled it "Clowder" and the cover I mocked up for it has Neko on it. It's just going to be me spilling my guts about everything in my life from as early as I can remember until now. I'm really only writing it for myself, so I don't have a real deadline in mind. I'll just work on it whenever I feel like crying alone by myself over my keyboard for a while. I'm hoping it will be cathartic, you know? I'll probably just traumatize myself even more, in the end, though...