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So, I said I was going to take a step back from Horror High and Storm Season to work on other stuff too... and then immediately invented like eight more post-HH fics and reinstated all the post-SS ones that I had originally scrapped, as well as inventing a couple of new ones (Coulrophobia & Baobhan Sith) so now I'm well and truly fucked BUT.

At the same time, in the last week I've finished four of the post-SS ones (most of which were LONG) and gotten a good start on a couple more, so I guess my brain just can't let it go yet. Dr. K warned me this might happen when I went on the ADHD meds, they like hyperfocus you but not always on what you WANT or NEED to hyperfocus on. I should be working on TKA. :| Oh well.

Anyway, so I've finished Hunting Souls, finally, and it came in at 34 pages and 15,094 words, but I hate the ending which is why I created the Baobhan Sith (I have to watch SPN 6.04 again before I can write that one) fic so help explain it, and when I edit it I'm going to re-work it a little bit, too. The problem is that with this being an AU universe, I have to explain what parts of it are still true to canon and what parts of it DEVIATE from canon and why, and the ending of Hunting Souls DEFINITELY deviates. It's fine, though, I'll work it out.

Then I also finished Echoes, which came in at 38 pages and 18,327 words, but again, needs to be edited, so the word count will change slightly as I do that. I'm pretty happy with how Echoes came out, even if it IS rather needlessly smutty, but it harkens back to the post-HH fics and THEY'RE all needlessly smutty, so I guess it makes sense haha.

I also finished Endling, which came in at a WHOPPING 50 PAGES AND 23,766 WORDS LIKE WTF ENDLING, and I'm generally happy with how it came out but I still have to edit it (so much editing in my immediate future UGH) and when I edit it I'm sure a few small things will change here-and-there. *shrug*

And finally, just yesterday I finished Fetters, which clocked in at a respectable 36 pages and 17,084 words, but is generally just a HOT MESS and needs SO MUCH EDITING. I do like the fic IN GENERAL and I have kind of a soft spot for Kindle, but it needs some WORK before it'll be ready to be posted. Luckily it's like fifth down the line for being posted so I have some time...

I skipped over Supply And Demand to finish Fetters because I got a bit into it and my brain just quit on me, but I'll have to get back to Supply And Demand soon-ish. And I'm currently working on the beginnings of two new post-HH fics, Southern Hospitality and Say Something, but I'm only like three pages into each of them so they don't really count yet.

I spent a while yesterday making and re-making covers for some fics and projects because I obsess over that, and now I need to update my Horror High and Storm Season binders, but I'm an an impasse with the Horror High one in that it is already full to bursting and I have to add more stuff to it, so on Wednesday when I go out to do my monthly shop (depending on how I feel), I need to buy another 3" white binder to expand my Horror High binders into two, and a second one to expand my Storm Season binders into three, because let's face it there are already 33 post-SS one shots, and each binder can hold about 10 to 11, so the two that I'm already using just aren't going to cut it. :P

I also need (another) new Endgame Girls binder, this time in green, because my brain is weird and it's hard to explain and my first Endgame Girls binder is now a Chaser binder, and the second one is now an Invincible In The Apocalypse binder, so, yeah. BACK TO STAPLES I GO.

And all these project binders of course need a HOME, but Mom said I could put another set of shelves in Jessie's room, so I'm buying those on Wednesday as well and then I just have to wait for my ribs to heal enough to haul the CURRENT shelves around to make room for the new ones. It's going to be a Job with a capital "J", but it needs to be done, and Canadian Tires has their plastic utility shelves on sale right now (or at least they were when I checked a couple days ago) so I mean. If I can save ten bucks I'll save ten bucks. *shrug*

So. Writing-wise that's about it for now, but I figure that's enough all things considered. I'm still sick and trying to recover so the only things I have the energy to do at all, really, are work on writing and watch movies/TV, and sometimes not even that. Yesterday I did a couple of small chores around my room (moving some binders, putting laundry away, putting my backpack away) and it ABSOLUTELY wiped me out. I still need a nap every afternoon just to make it through the day. I still can't breathe; I'm still coughing; my ribs are still broken (and will be for some time, obviously.) I have a ways to go.

Oh, and also, Mom talked to Uncle Alec about me possibly paying him and Aunt Brenda a small amount in rent each month to be able to maintain use of the shed (I can only afford like $150/month but it's SOMETHING) and the answer was a CATEGORICAL "NO", so I was just fucking back to where I started, with all my stuff being literally taken to the dump when the clock ran down next spring and them having the gall to CHARGE me $100 for each load.

But I talked to Dad and asked him if Lois would be amenable to me maybe putting up a shed somewhere on HER property and storing my stuff THERE until I finally make it to the top of the FUCKING SUBSIDIZED HOUSING LIST, and then when I move my things out again she can have use of the shed, obviously. Anyway, Dad called me back the next night and said it was fine with Lois, so he's going to figure out the best placement for a shed of the size we need and try to source a prefab one because I certainly can't build a fucking shed and while HE has the technical know how, his health pretty much prevents it at this point in time. I mean he's 65 with a heart condition and a back that is FUCKED, so.

He's going to get back to me. The only question now is how I'm going to PAY for the shed, or the moving truck to get my things from Baysville all the way down to freaking GEORGETOWN. So, it's going to come down to money (again), as it always does, of which I have... none. :|

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Today was Georgetown Day and my alarm was set for 6am but I woke up at 5am because God forbid I should actually sleep until my alarm jfc. *facepalm* It made a day that was ALREADY going to be long even LONGER.

Between 5am and 8:45am I took my pills, dealt with the inevitable nausea that goes along with them, drank ginger ale, and worked on TKA since I wasn't going to get a chance to later. I got almost 4,000 words written, so yay on that front! I'm up to 61 pages and 28,877 words, now. I'm definitely on track to reach 50,000 words before the end of the month. The word goal for TKA is around 80,000 though, so I can just keep working once I reach the 50,000 mark and see how far I get by the 30th.

Still concerned about the amount of dialogue vs descriptive text though.

Anyway, we got on the road around 9:30am (or so) and got to Geoorgetown around 11:30am, and Mom, Lee, Dad and I got started right away on unloading both vehicles. It only took about half an hour, there wasn't THAT much stuff, but it rained on us the entire time so that sucked. Then we went inside to visit with Lois (and the dogs) for a little bit, and she FINALLY gave me her oatmeal-coconut-chocolate-chip-cookie recipe!! I HAVE BEEN BEGGING for it for like TWO DECADES. We need mini chocolate chips, so I'm adding them to the grocery list for next Friday, but we have everything else and I AM MAKING THESE FREAKING COOKIES SO HELP ME GOD.

After our quick visit with Lois, we hit the road again, stopped at THE WORST MCDONALD'S for lunch, like if I put out product as sloppily made and packaged as they did when I was still working at McD's I would have been FIRED, and then it was back to the highway for another two hour drive home. Mom and I were both losing the good fight at this point and the only reason we BOTH didn't fall asleep and crash and burn was because we kept talking at each other basically the whole way.

When we got home, I had to feed the cats (we were a LITTLE late but not too bad), take my afternoon pills, and fill a bucket with water to do another deep clean of Kaida's tank tomorrow, and then I just... died. A little. For two-and-a-half hours. I only woke up because Pluto decided it would be a good idea to start walking all over me in my sleep.

When I woke up, I wandered downstairs long enough to make some tuna melts for dinner, then I took them up to my room to eat and like... I was thinking "I should be writing" the entire time, but my brain is SO TIRED right now, today was EXHAUSTING, and so instead I found a movie to zone out to, preferably one with gratuitous violence. So right now I'm watching The Purge: Election Year. Pfft.

I might tinker with some wiggly foxes tonight, but that's about all I'm up to.

OH ALSO. On the 31st of October when I did my shopping, I bought turmeric supplements because they're apparently good for NAFLD, and also for joints, so I figured it couldn't hurt, right? TURNS OUT IT COULD HURT. Ever since I started taking them I've been having increasingly bad symptoms (tremors in my hands, hot/cold flashes, dizzy spells) and I've been craving sugar like WHOA. WELL. When I looked it up, it turns out turmeric can cause low blood sugar in some people, and with me it was doing it A LOT.

So, I paid like $40 for three months of this stuff and ten days in I can't even take it. BAH.

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Today I've got a busy day ahead of me. We have to pack up Mom's car with the last of my stuff for storage at Dad's tomorrow. Thank God Lee is driving in a separate car, or I think I would go insane from the UTTER SILENCE on the way down like would it kill you to have a CONVERSATION? jfc. I didn't want him to come at all, but sadly we have two carloads of stuff and I don't drive so we don't really have a choice.

The thing with my Stepdad is that I LOVE him tons, but I don't LIKE him very much, you know? LOVE and LIKE are two very different things, and if I had to be trapped in a car with him for five hours (round trip) I think I would go insane. He's a good guy, but he's LAZY and he's ABSOLUTELY USELESS and I have no use for him, really. If he died tomorrow, I would be SAD but I wouldn't be HEARTBROKEN. But don't tell anyone I told you that. =/

Anyway, today I also have to wrap Dad and Lois' Christmas gifts for tomorrow and bake a batch of shortbread cookies for them. Luckily, their gifts/cookie tin are all small, so they won't take up TOO much room in the car. I just figure since I already have everything and it's (mostly) ready to go, I might as well drop it off while we're down there and save the fufurah come December. Then Dad just has to worry about mailing my stuff and he doesn't have to drive all the way up here this yeah like he has the last few years. I know that's hard on him, at his age.

Then AT SOME POINT TODAY I have to do a deep clean on Kaida's tank in preparation for the other two axolotls on Tuesday. If I don't do it today it'll have to wait until MONDAY and I've already put it off a couple days, so the tank is getting a little gunky. Then again maybe I SHOULD just wait until Monday, so the tank is as clean as possible for the new arrivals, and just give it a cursory clean today to get it looking a little better? idk idk idk.

Oh, turns out Kaida DID eat some of his worm from the other day, just when I wasn't looking. I still think I might stick with pellets until they're big enough to eat whole worms, though, cutting up live animals just... isn't cool with me. =/

Today I really should write my 1,667 words for the NaNo, too, but I'm like four or five days ahead at this point so if I miss a couple of days, it should be okay. Tomorrow I won't be able to write anything all day because we'll be in Georgetown, but idk maybe tonight I can write at least SOMETHING to go toward my word count? I can TRY at least...

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Poe deleted their Insta, so I have no way of keeping track of them at all anymore, especially not if they aren't going to bother replying to my emails anymore. I understand that they're going through something with their Dad, but the way to deal with it isn't to shut everyone else out. But that's how they always deal with the hard things in life, they just... shut down. Delete all their social media. Stop answering messages. They probably still have their Etsy up and running, but I dunno, I could be wrong about that.

I feel like... we had such a great start to our friendship, right, but I think I caught them in an upswing, and I had no idea what it was going to be like dealing with them long-term. And I really AM no good for them, or that's how it seems, anyway, which is why I sent that email kind of... cutting down our friendship. But they seem to have taken it to mean we shouldn't be friends AT ALL, which wasn't my intent, and now they won't listen when I try to explain that.

Or message me back when I ask about their address, so I end up sending an expensive parcel with things in it that can't be replaced to the wrong fucking address. I asked SO MANY TIMES and they just ignored me, and I KNOW, their DAD, but they could at least check their freaking EMAIL I just don't understand it!

I'm fairly sure that Poe is bipolar on top of everything else, with the drastic ups and downs that they make all the time, and I've had a lot of experience with that so I can recognize it when I see it. But I can't TALK to them about it because they're ignoring my FSCKING emails like a child and honestly... it hurts so, so, so much, but I'm pretty sure I AM better off without them, despite what I said in that email. All they do is cause me heartache and make me cry, and I love them more than anything but that's not okay. I don't think they mean to be, because they can be SO giving sometimes, but Poe is also INCREDIBLY selfish at times, and I can't have that in my life, can I?

It's just hard because I love them with all of my wretched heart. I don't know what to do, anymore.

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Like seriously WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK, we're supposed to be FAMILY, why are they treating me like this?? They KNOW I won't have anywhere to go by the time they've given me, and they KNOW I can't afford a moving truck or a storage unit (the cheapest unit I could find in Orillia last night was $288/month), THIS IS NOT SOMETHING THAT IS FEASIBLE FOR ME AND THEY ARE PERFECTLY AWARE OF THAT FACT.

THIS IS HOW YOU TREAT YOUR FAMILY? NONE of this was discussed with me beforehand, they just slapped a contract down on the table and made me sign it and my Aunt was like "I know you're not happy but" and I'm like NOT HAPPY? I'M FUCKING PISSED OFF like what did you expect after throwing this at me out of the blue. All I was told was they were building a shed to house my belongings and when my stuff was gone they would use it for their own purposes. NOWHERE IN THERE WAS THERE AN EVICTION DATE.

And Mom is like "I told you this wouldn't be forever" WELL YEAH BUT I FIGURED THEY WOULD AT LEAST HAVE THE DECENCY TO STORE MY STUFF UNTIL AN APARTMENT CAME UP FOR ME ON THE SUBSIDIZED HOUSING LIST LIKE FUCK.

The only good thing is they gave me to spring 2026, which means it will theoretically be AFTER ODSP payments go up by $200/month, but like FUCK MAN I have this whole new expensive diet that I can barely afford and I CAN'T afford to be saving money for a moving truck OR paying for a storage unit ON TOP of that. I have no idea what I'm going to fucking do.

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I am still, somehow, miraculously, ahead on my TKA NaNo project (30 pages and 13,716 words) and I am ECSTATIC OVER THIS but also still somewhat waiting for the other shoe to drop like?? o__o;; Anyway, today Mom and I are going up to Baysville for our last run there for moving stuff, so I likely won't get much done today BUT YESTERDAY AND THE DAY BEFORE I wrote DOUBLE what I needed to (1,667 words is the minimum each day), PLUS I've been working on other stuff as well. SO.

Yesterday I finished Nightingale which is, I'm not gonna lie here, like 95% porn. IT'S ABOUT A SUCCUBUS "HUNT" WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? And apparently even angels are subject to their sway. Poor Dean and Cas, seriously, they get their steps in, so to speak. Sam just gets laid like... half a time and it's with a monster so it doesn't really count. XD;; Anyway, like there is smut in most of the Horror High/Storm Season series but Nightingale really takes the cake. And as usual I just wrote it totally straight-faced and unaffected honestly being ace is so weird sometimes.

ALSO. The post-SS fic count has gone up. Again. I have just stopped numbering Halcyon Days and Stalagmites because I keep having to re-number them to make room for more fics, since they're the last two. *facepalm* So basically the post-SS breakdown goes like this now:

1) When Lightning Strikes (elemental/demons)
2) Ghost In The Machine (ghost)
3) Pinfeathers (no monster)
4) Teeth (tooth fairy)
5) Nightingale (succubus)
6) Temper Tantrums (poltergeist)
7) Hunting Souls (demons/hellhounds)
8) Shrike (uh... "shrike")
9) Echoes (witchcraft?)
10) Day Drinking (ghouls)
11) Mockingbird (uh... "mockingbird")
12) Crawlspace (ghost... ish thing)
13) Kindling (nightmare)
14) What Angels Dream (djinn)
15) Run. Hide. Die. (hydra)
16) Hollow Things (RABID WEREWOLVES)
17) The Desert Tide (kelpies)
Halcyon Days (vampires at the very end)
Stalagmites (no monster)

AND PROBABLY MORE THIS SERIES IS GOING TO FOLLOW ME UNTIL I DIE. (But no seriously, if I do ONE MORE it'll take it to an even twenty and my brain likes twenty because it is a multiple of five, so maybe I can just do that?? Then again, if that was the case, what happened to FIVE and TEN and FIFTEEN??) idk just this entire series has gotten away from me and I have to rein it in somehow or I'm going to be writing it FOREVER. :|

Anyway, I skipped over Teeth to write Nightingale (which came in a little short for one of these one-shots at 26 pages and 12,226 words), so next I need to go back to writing Teeth. I'm about 22 pages and 9,945 words into it, but I still have a ways to go before it'll be done. Plus I'm working on TKA at the same time, so splitting my time means the post-SS one-shots are getting done slower than they normally would be, but I have until like halfway through February before I have to start posting them, and I'm already done the first three (though Ghost In The Machine and Pinfeathers need editing still), so I'm ahead of the game, there. *shrug*

I have a Pinterest board for the HH/SS/etc series now, but I'm not organizing it, it's just pins related to the whole expansive series in one big lump. Still, it's something. I just REALLY recently got into Pinterest and I'm finding it SUPER helpful in visualization of my projects. I have a TKA board, too, and one for Freefall, and one for Where Monsters Come From, and the beginning of one for Pelts For Pounds, the next book in the TKA series. Yeah, I've been making use of it. But it can also eat up a shocking amount of time, like you get lost in Pinterest and the next thing you know it's been two hours and you're like "what just happened" so I have to be very aware of that when I go to tinker with pins.

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Today when we get back from Baysville I need to remember to get out my glue gun and fix the wreath on the front door. One of the pumpkins fell off it about a month ago and I just haven't gotten around to fixing it, but I need to do it before it's time to put it away and get out the Christmas one, so some time soon. Hopefully I'll remember this afternoon.

Kaida is doing well, and seems to like his new hide and all the new plants that give him hidey-holes to hunker down it. But he's also taken to sleeping RIGHT out in the open in the area where I feed him (which makes sense, he's just waiting for the inevitable incoming foodz) which meant a couple days ago I dropped his pellets in and they landed ON HIM and scared the bejeezes out of him and he went ZOOMING off. I laughed so hard. I mean, I'm sorry, buddy, but if you're going to sleep IN THE DROP ZONE, expect INCOMING FOOD. XD;; Silly thing.

I have to clean his tank out this afternoon, like a really deep clean, and he's not going to like it but it needs to be done. And there's a buildup of ick on the glass that I can get off the FRONT, because I have a magnetic glass cleaner there, but I can't really get to the sides or back because I can't reach and also because Dean and Sam are in the way. =/ I'll have to problem solve this pretty quick before Kaida's tank becomes a cesspool.

The woman I got Kaida from still hasn't messaged me back about getting a second axolotl from her, and I'm kind of going... you know... if you don't have any left, that's fine, just please send me a quick email to let me know at least? Because I'm kind of left hanging, here. I'm going to message her again today and see if she replies this time, and if not then I'll just assume she hasn't got any more axolotls and put the money toward something else. *shrug* It's going to be a pain trying to find another 'lotl the same size as Kaida in the future, but I mean. It is what it is, I guess. Mom didn't want to drive to Elmvale again, anyway.

This coming Sunday Mom and I (and probably Lee) are driving down to Georgetown with the last of my storage stuff to pack it away in the barn at Dad's place. Literally, I TOLD EVERYONE that all my stuff wasn't going to fit in the 10'x12' shed my Uncle was building but no one would believe me, and now we have possibly TWO SUVfulls of stuff to take to Georgetown, and that's AFTER throwing out my couch and my love seat because of the mice. =/

It'll be nice to see Dad and (hopefully) Lois again, though, and I'm hoping to take their Christmas presents down with me when we go, too, to get that out of the way. I still need to buy a gift card for Lois, though, which might have to wait, so I might not be able to do it after all. I think it'll depend on the whole axolotl situation.

I DO plan on buying them tea at the Tim Horton's around the corner from their place, though, because this is a BIG ASK and the least I can do is buy some freaking tea for them, right? Also coffee for Mom and a pop for Lee (if he comes; Mom has high hopes that we can fit everything into one vehicle which like PFFT NOT GONNA HAPPEN but whatever.) But yes, just generally drinks for everyone involved. :|

EDIT: Ang, the lady I got Kaida from, got back to me finally! (She was out of town/cell phone range.) So next week Mom and I are going back to Elmvale to hopefully pick up a friend for Kaida! "Hopefully" because if the 'lotls she has left are all girls I'm BONED. BUT she also offered me a second FREE 'LOTL because she's having so much trouble finding good homes for them, so if they are both boys I will have THREE of them come this time next week! So exciting!!

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Alright, so yesterday Mom and I went to Baysville and got as much of the rest of my stuff moved to the garage as possible. My Uncle has built a shed to house it all, and he's going to be transferring everything over to the shed over the next little while, so like thank you Uncle Alec for not making us come back up and move it all AGAIN. :|

There is some stuff that didn't fit, which will be going down to Georgetown to be stored at my DAD'S place because literally we have nowhere to put anything here. All the boxes out of the basement here will be going to Dad's place, too, theoretically, assuming we can fit it all into the two vehicles because Mom doesn't want to make two trips to Georgetown and I don't blame her it's a LONG drive.

That aside, I'm looking forward to seeing Dad and Lois, at least, I only see Dad once a year at Christmas time and I basically NEVER see Lois, so hopefully we can take an hour in there somewhere to visit for a bit, maybe between unpacking carloads? We're going to need a break at some point anyway, right?

Also I'm thinking about just bringing their Christmas gifts with me when we go since I have everything here already (except Lois' gift card), and that would save Dad a trip in December. But that means I need to make a batch of shortbread like THIS WEEK. I'm pretty sure I have everything I need in the house, though, like it just takes flour, sugar and margarine. XD;;

Other than that, Mom has agreed to go to Elmvale for another 'lotl for me so I'm STOKED. It'll be the week of the 11th-15th, assuming the woman even has any left by then. I messaged her last night but she hasn't replied yet, so I'm just waiting. Also, hoping that the ones she has left are males. She doesn't know how to sex them (hence Kaida being a "she" until he wasn't) and if I get there are all of the ones she has left are female I'm going to have to leave empty-handed. I don't want 10,000,000 babies thanks. :D;;

Kaida has been out and about a lot more lately, I think he's finally feeling comfortable in his tank now that there are more plants and stuff (and he's getting bigger), and the other day I got him an adult-sized hide and at first he was like o__o over but now he seems to have adopted, so that's good. I need to clean his tank today and he's not going to like that (he never does), but it's sadly EXTREMELY necessary.

I'm going to buy something to try to clear up Kaida's water, since it's kind of consistently a little bit cloudy and has been right off the hop. I did a bunch of research and apparently API ACCU-CLEAR is safe for axolotls, so I'm going to try that. But it has to wait until I have more money because that seems to be the way things always go for me.

I need a real pot for Alpine, the cutting I took off of Bucky a couple months back, as he's outgrown his little plastic starter container and now needs a real home. So next time I'm in the dollar store I'll see what I can find. Haha, I started all these clippings, like a TON of them, all at the same time, assuming that half of them could die off, and then like... ONE died. And now I have all these plants and nowhere to put them (but I love them anyway!)

I got a rooted monstera clipping on etsy that should arrive next week (it's just shipping from inside Ontario) that I want to get going and then add to the aquarium. He's going to be the new Castiel. Right now Dean has a leaf that is trying to die and I'm like DON'T YOU DO IT, DEAN. DON'T YOU DARE DO IT.

When I did my shopping a couple of days ago I got a bunch more binders, including a bigger one for Storm Season et al, but now that I'm looking at it and at the number of one-shots there are, I will probably need to use the old SS binder as well. The SS one-shot situation has really gotten out of control lmao. But I'm having fun, and that's what counts!

Right now I'm randomly working on Nightingale, which takes place after Teeth, so like. I SHOULD be finishing Teeth up first, but I was inspired for Nightingale so here we are. It's an accidental succubus Hunt so basically the whole thing is smut but like that's what MOST of the Horror High one-shots were like, so I guess we're just going back to our roots with this one. They pretty much all have at least one sex scene in them, though. XD;;

Considering I'm ace myself I do write a lot of porn. :|

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Hauling boxes today was made more difficult by the fact that when I PACKED the boxes I packed for PROFESSIONAL MOVERS, not just me and Mom, so half of them were super heavy. He had to use the dolly to move most of them, but I still had to haul them up the stairs from the basement TO the dolly because Mom basically tagged out and then never tagged back in.

It was unpleasant, but we got a lot done, and we got the remaining stuff mostly organized. Mom got annoyed with me because I pointed out that it wasn't all going to FIT in the space my Aunt and Uncle allocated, she was like "we know that!" and I'm like okaaaaay then why the fuck were you both telling me it would all fit, and I mean REPEATEDLY?

Dad is still willing to take some stuff, but idk how much space he'll be able to make in the loft. I'd been hoping that all the boxes from the basement HERE could go there, but at this point I don't know. It's going to take at least two trips down to Georgetown anyway, so I'll be able to judge better after the first trip. Hopefully soon.

The guy with the axolotls on kijiji that I messaged this morning still hasn't messaged me back, and I'm getting really tired of people on that site just ignoring me. If you've already sold the axolotls then at least reply with a quick note letting me know. The ad was still live when I messaged you, I deserve the courtesy of a reply at the very least, don't I?

Either way, on the way home from Baysville I got Mom to swing by the sporting goods store across town from us so I could ask about what worms they carry and if they carry them all year around or not, and they carry the ones I need all year, so I have somewhere to go for wormies for my future 'lotl, which is good. And I think the pet store sells frozen brine shrimp for treats and stuff.

Assuming I can ever actually find an axolotl to buy that I can afford.

Anyway. After we got back home I got changed immediately because I was GROSS and started up some laundry which I need to go take out of the dryer when I'm done writing this entry. Then I took some muscle relaxants and turned on a movie (Abigail) with the intention of writing while I watched it but I just... didn't. I DID get started on a new Wiggly Fox, though, repainting the grey on one of the orange foxes to pink. So far it looks good.

My motivation to write has been declining lately and I think it's because my ADHD meds aren't working as well as they had been, like I was saying before. I need to talk to Dr. K about that but I'm not in again until November. Also, the depression isn't helping at all. Depression is always murder to my creative pursuits.

What I really WANT to write are the post-Storm Season one-shots, but there's a lot of stuff I can't write yet because I haven't finished Storm Season ITSELF. So, I'm just tinkering with them in little bits and pieces that hopefully won't go against anything that ends up happening in the main fic. I'll have to edit them all a couple or ten times anyway, the same as I did with the post-Horror High one-shots, so I guess I can just edit out or adjust any errors. idk.

I'm also considering writing a Witcher SPN AU fic, just to give myself a break from the Destiel for a minute. Write some Lambden or Geraskier for a bit instead...

And now it's time for dinner and laundry, and then I'm going to watch Alien: Romulus and (hopefully) work on writing. Or something.

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Current Music: N/A: "Alien: Romulus" on Riptide

In other, less depressing news, the other day I went to the dollar store looking for the Thanksgiving mugs that they were out of stock on before and... they were still out of stock. I think I need to check a different Dollarama. There are three in town, like, it's not like I'm lacking in choice, the one at the corner is just the most convenient. :P

BUT they have a bunch of HALLOWEEN stuff in now, so I bought six Halloween mugs for making into candles (okay, five for making into candles, one is just to be a mug) and I want to go back for more at the end of the month, assuming they still have them in.

I also found a cute pumpkin for my collection, and a little autumn gnome who is HOLDING a pumpkin. They are both sitting outside on the window ledge because I am attempting to edge our decorations into the fall theme, since it's almost October. But like. In stages because Mom will flip her shit if I break out ALL MY PUMPKINS before October even officially hits. XD

I did get my fall wreath out and hung up on the front door, though, the one Chelsea made me years ago, and no one said anything! Autummn and spring, man, autumn and spring. I could care less about winter (in fact it could gtfo seriously), and summer is okaaaaaay, but autumn and spring are definitely where it's at! <3

...today Mom and I are going back up to Baysville to haul boxes and stuff again, but on Tuesday we managed to get the last of the actual FURNITURE done so now it should be relatively simple, with the exception of a few boxes of books that I packed for MOVERS that might be troublesome for Mom and I to move.

Also on Tuesday we inspected my comfy green chair and, miraculously, the mice HADN'T GOTTEN TO IT, so like! I get to keep it! Unlike my couch and love seat. :|

EDIT: Completely unrelated, but this morning I posted Cheap Motel to AO3 and Tumblr (I'll post it to Vanimadin when we get back from Baysville this afternoon, no one reads it there anyway); I know I said I was going to wait two weeks to post the first post-HH one-shot but I got impatient and also MY THURSDAY SCHEDULE, MAN. lol. We'll see how it goes!

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Current Music: N/A

A couple of days ago I somehow ROYALLY buggered up my knee, and basically my whole left leg from the knee down hurt like FUCK, but especially the top of my foot for some reason? And only when I walked, when I STEPPED DOWN and put pressure on my leg. It wasn't sensitive to the touch or anything, it just hurt like fuck to WALK. And I was like, cool, you know, sounds like a plan, body, what else have you got for me? Luckily it only lasted a couple days, and this morning it's (mostly) back to normal with just some minor pain when I walk, which I hope will be completely gone in another day or two.

Next week Mom and I have to go back to the house in Baysville to haul furniture and boxes some more, and I think Mom plans to go twice in the week so that's going to suck but I guess it needs done so LET'S DO IT. It's just hard because of my back/hips/knees/wrists/hands/lungs BASICALLY MY WHOLE BODY, hauling heavy stuff up flights of stairs is like torture. But we have to get as much of it out to the garage as possible so that I know what's left to go to Dad's for storage there, since storage units are like $500/month now and I CANNOT afford that. :|

Last week when we were there we discovered that the mice that Grandma allowed to run rampant in the house for years had gotten into my couch and love seat so I had to throw those away. I have a chair down there still that I have to inspect but my hopes are not high for it, which SUCKS because it's the best chair EVER.

I have a lot of regrets in my life, but moving out of my last apartment and in with Grandma is one of the biggest ones. I was having mental health crises in that apartment, but if I had just stuck it out and gotten on the right meds it would have worked out and I could have stayed there. Then my stuff wouldn't be destroyed and I would have my own apartment, still. But I guess there's nothing I can do about it now, except wait for the subsidized housing people to get to me on the list, preferably some time this DECADE.

It's been twenty days since Poe last emailed me, other than to tell me that they couldn't email me for a while because of the whole mentioning TW thing. Sometimes I feel like our crazies match up, and other times I feel like they just look for excuses not to talk to me. I'm starting to wonder if we just weren't meant to be friends after all, considering all that's happened, even though we're basically the same person. I want to send them some Juna pics to cheer them up, but I don't know if that's allowed. I just don't know anymore. I just want them to be happy.

I still haven't gotten the wiggly foxes up on Etsy even though I said I was going to. I looked at the pictures I had taken and decided that I needed more of them, but then I've been procrastinating over actually DOING to pics, because I always do that, so they're just sitting here, staring at me.

I think I'm depressed right now and my motivation is just... not there for most things. I should be making candles, too, but I just... meh. I dunno, maybe I'll get out my candle stuff so I can make a couple later in the day when Jessie's room is closed up (that's where all my candle supplies are stored.) I really want to check the Dollarama for more of the super pretty Thanksgiving mugs to make into candles but I had to buy printer ink with my Trillium Benefit so I'm broke now until the end of the month unless I take money out of my jar again, which I shouldn't. Sucks.

I started writing three more Hijack one-shots last night, Switch, Paris and Violets Are Blue, all of which are Chemistry side-stories. I'm really enjoying writing Hijack in-and-around my SPN stuff lately, it's nice to get my head out of the Destiel for a while on occasion. I mean, I'm still working on Storm Season and When Lightning Strikes at the same time, and I also write a couple of blurbs for The House this morning, but, you know, variety is the spice of life and all that.

I really do want to write something for Valdemar soon, too. Maybe I'll finish Not Horses or Wander, or possibly Knowing? I don't know, I always have SO MANY Valdemar one-shot ideas it's hard to narrow it down to just one to work on. I'll figure it out, though.

Writing seems to be one thing I can still focus on despite the depression creeping back in, and I'm sure that's because of the ADHD meds. I think without them everything would just be me laying around thinking about the sweet embrace of death (again) and just generally being horrible. At least with the writing it gives me something to focus on and keep my mind of the CRUSHING DESPAIR, for part of the day, at least.

My Amazon cart currently has $145.09 worth of stuff in it, but to be fair there are 4 DVDs (Abigail, The Mitchell's VS The Machines, Sting & Kung Fu Panda 4) and two things of Halloween candy for next month, so it makes sense that it's that expensive. I can't pay for it until the 30th, and even then I might have to defer some of the stuff until my other government payments come in around the 15th of October. I also need to mail Poe's parcel when those come in, and the TINY PACKAGE is going to cost me like $118CAD WHAT THE EVER-LOVING FUCK.

Literally I remember mailing SUBSTANTIAL parcels to the UK back in the day and it costing me like $38CAD to do it, I have no freaking idea why everything is so much more expensive nowadays. INFLATION, MAN.

P.S. I did manage to get about 3 hours of sleep last night after all. I am freaking exhausted, obviously. Going to go get candle stuff and then have a nap, I think. Hopefully I can sleep for real this time. *fingers crossed*

EDIT: Also, Mercedes Lackey is running another kickstarter type thing for a deluxe leather-bound book of like 30 of her short stories and I want it SO BAD but it's $100USD and it ends in like 15 days so WAY before I'll have the money to pay for it. I hate when people run kickstarters (etc.) for really short periods of time, it means people like me who have to scrape together the money get left in the lurch. :(

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Today Mom and I went up to Baysville to pack/move more of my stuff. I think there's going to be more that won't fit in the stupid fucking shed than I originally thought and when I said that to Mom she was like "well your Dad will just have to make room for it!" but like... that's not how this works?? He is making as much room as he can but he is not expecting an entire uhaul full of boxes and tubs?? WHY CAN'T UNCLE ALEC "just make room for it"??

Frustrating.

On the way up to Baysville we stopped at the Muskoka Meats store and I bought a rabbit for like $40. Rabbit should not be that expensive, it's just RABBIT dammit. But whatever. So I'm making a roast rabbit next week and we'll see how that goes because when we got home and told Lee about it he was like "meh" he's not sure he'll even eat my rabbit. FINE. MORE FOR ME. I FUCKING LOVE RABBIT.

This morning I got a little parcel from Poe with the new version of The Language Of Dead Flowers inside. They got the rights back to it recently and are going to self publish it, so they sent me a copy. It's called "Tao, Undead" now and has a GORGEOUS cover and lovely font inside. It's a beautiful book, it's how it should have been printed to begin with. They say they sent it to me as an apology for "stuff", but I keep telling them they don't have to apologize. We keep going 'round and 'round about it.

Tonight I started working on Wayward Sons, which is in the Witcher SPN AU, but the only one that actually does a crossover thing and has Sam, Dean and Castiel cameo in it. I SHOULD be working on Rewarding Heroism, which is the next one in the series (since I posted Don't You Forget About Me this morning) but I just wasn't feeling it tonight. I think I was more feeling SPN characters, hence Wayward Sons. idk what's going on in my brain right now.

Oh, and tomorrow is Miracle Treat Day at DQ so I guess we're all going for blizzards after we go to the rec centre. Yay?

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: N/A: "Godzilla x Kong: The New Empire" on Riptide

Today Mom and I went up to Grandma's place. Except it's not Grandma's place anymore, it's my Uncle and Aunt's place now. They're still living in Innisfil for the time being, but they've been going up to Baysville on weekends to work on the house, and being there today I just...

I hate it so, so much. I've never been one to deal well with change, but seeing the changes they're making to what is, really, a cornerstone of my entire life up til now... it's not their fault, I know it's their house now and of course they're going to fix it up and decorate it for themselves, but it almost makes me ANGRY. That's the best word I can come up with to describe what I'm feeling. Just. ANGER.

But I keep my trap shut because I have no say in this, really. Except there were things I wanted from Grandma's belongings that they said they would keep for me, and ended up selling in a yard sale. And they keep putting random stuff in with MY things that are still stored in the basement, stuff that ISN'T MINE, so I keep moving it back to the other side of the basement like ??? They ask what I want to keep, or what belongs to me and what doesn't, but they aren't actually listening to me AT ALL. It's frustrating.

Today Mom and I were there to start moving some of my stuff into the garage. We got (most of) my shelving units moved, and my bed, and a half dozen small boxes. But Mom is 65 and I'm practically a cripple, so we eventually had to call it, even though it doesn't look like we did all that much.

I have 10x15 feet of storage space outside the basement (a shed that my Uncle is going to build) and all of my stuff will NOT fit in it. I've been saying it all along, but now seeing the 10x15 space my Uncle laid out in the garage for us and how much just the SHELVES took up, I think Mom finally believes me. Especially since my Uncle and Aunt forgot to save Grandma's small dresser for me so I have to go with my 6-foot-long one after all. I hope Dad has a lot of room in the barn because I am going to have a LOT of boxes to pack away in there.

I don't know, this whole experience right from the start has been just awful. Today I pulled out both my wrists and screwed up my knees and shoulders carrying shelving units up from the basement. And there are some things that Mom and I simply CANNOT do my ourselves. The dresser or the couch. Or like, the freezer? We definitely can't carry it just the two of us, and if I put that in the 10x15 foot area it'll take up a quarter of it.

I don't think my Uncle and Aunt understand my situation AT ALL, frankly, either that or they don't care, and I don't know what's worse.

I just want things to go back to the way they were before.

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When they moved my Grandma into the retirement home, my Aunt and Uncle bought her house/property from her (for a song) and are in the process of renovating it so they can move into it in the fall.

The PROBLEM is that ALL OF MY BELONGINGS ARE STILL STORED IN THE BASEMENT THERE. And the basement needs work. And they are not willing to postpone that work, even though it's not absolutely required to live in the house. So they offered to build a shed on the property so I could store my stuff in it (and they could use it later on for other things when I eventually moved on.) Sounds great, right?

Yeah. Except the biggest shed that they can build according to town bylaws is 10'x12' and MY STUFF WON'T ALL FIT IN THAT AMOUNT OF SPACE. I HAVE AN ENTIRE APARTMENT'S WORTH OF FURNITURE AND BELONGINGS JESUS CHRIST. And they won't let me store some of it in either of the garages, either. SO LIKE.

I'm looking at having to rent a storage unit and pay for a moving van to get my stuff there. A storage unit is going to cost me like $400/month and a moving truck from there to here is $1200 easy. WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO GET THIS MONEY?? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PAY $400/MONTH I DO NOT HAVE THOSE FUNDS.

WHY AM I CONSTANTLY BEING PUT IN THESE POSITIONS??

WHY CAN'T I JUST FIND AN AFFORDABLE FREAKING APARTMENT??

WHY CAN'T THE HOUSING PEOPLE COME THROUGH?? IT'S BEEN YEARS!

JUST.

FUCK.

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: N/A: "Late Night With The Devil" on Riptide

Well, this is my first entry in a long time. Again. Man, idk why but when my creative writing muses fled to Timbuktu (or wherever), I suddenly found it impossible to keep up with my personal LJ as well. =/

BUT. My muses! They have returned! In fact, I've been VERY active with my writing the last month-and-a-bit. :3 Mostly within the realm of Valdemar fanfiction, but a little with my original writing as well. The only disappointment I've found with returning to the field of Velgarth fics is the lack of activity in the community. It's gone downhill a lot in the last few years, unfortunately.

Valdemar fic aside, I've also started writing a few things for the My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic fandom. I guess I'm just drawn to magical talking horses lol. XD;

Besides writing, the last month has been crazy since I moved a week ago. Again. I just can't seem to find a place I can stay in for very long, for one reason or another. Anyway, this new place is in an actual apartment building, and is the nicest place I've lived aside from when I was still at Mom's place. I'm sharing with my brother, so the rent is affordable for me too, which is good because my financial situation, as always, SUCKS. :P

In any case, now I'm up to my neck in boxes and haven't written much in the last week because of the move and then unpacking and everything. *shrug*

And that's about it for now. More tomorrow, I swear. I WILL KEEP UP WITH THIS JOURNAL DAMMIT. *epic fistshake at the sky*

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Current Location: Orillia, Ontario
Current Music: Epic Rap Battles Of History ~ "Mr T. vs Mr Rogers"

HOKAY. I haven't updated in forever but I swear I have a good reason for it. ~A~;;

1) Basically, a little less than a month ago, I got a call from one of Mom's friends that she works with; she and her husband own a bunch of buildings around town that have been converted into apartments, and they had one come up available for the 1st of June.

I went O__O;; because it's totally last minute and I couldn't afford it really, between having to pay first and last and for the movers. Anyway, Mom convinced me to go look at the place anyway... and it's PERFECT. ;A; I was all *GRABBY HANDS* at it, but came home knowing I just wasn't going to be able to deal with the cost.

But when I told Mom all about the place, she kind of made the decision for me and made some calls to Grandma so that she and Mom could help me cover the moving costs. It's a lot of money, but she assured me that this is NOT a loan, it's a gift. Because she wants me out of her house. XD; lol. Not really, but the joking at least made me feel better. I hate having to take money from other people. =_=;;

Anyway, the apartment!

It's basically half of a house. It has a tiny postage-stamp front yard and a picket fence along the side that I'm going to hang flower baskets from. It also has a little strip of grass at the bottom of the fence that I'm going to line with planters as well. I WANT A GARDEN AGAIN, EVEN IF IT'S JUST A TINY ONE. I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO HAVE ONE IN YEARS.

Then the screen door leads into a tiny little sunroom/mudroom where I can keep my recycle bins, trash can, and shovel/salt in the winter. Then the next door is the main one, and it leads into the downstairs part of the apartment. This is supposed to just be an entryway, but it's big enough that I can use it for that purpose AND as another actual room, as well as possibly for some minor storage. I'm considering putting my craft workspace for beading and the like down there once I find another desk.

Then to get to the main apartment, you go up a nice wide staircase. At the top is a bit of wall (a bookshelf will go there), and then the bathroom, which is of course small, but totally nice and clean and modern. ♥

Next is the kitchen, WHICH IS BIG ENOUGH TO FIT MY HUGE 4-FOOT FREEZER AND A TABLE. It's not gigantic, but it's easily at least 4x the size of my last two kitchens, and probably twice the size of the kitchen here at Mom's. She's going to be jealous. XD!

After the kitchen is the bedroom, which is maybe 1/4 again the size of the kitchen. Again, not huge, but still bigger than my room here. In there is going my bed, my reading books, my dresser, Aya's terrarium, the other snake terrarium (I'm getting another sand boa in a few months) and either the piranha tank or the turtle tank (I'm leaning toward the piranha.)

The next room is the living room, which is a little bigger than the bedroom. There goes the sofa, rocking chair, movie shelves, TV stand & etc, reference books and probably the turtle tank. Also the end tables and the goldfish aquarium once I get it set up. FISHIES! X3

Next to the living room and at the end of the hall is a SECOND little sunroom, which is where the bunnies are going to live, where the kitty litter box is going, and where my little indoor-herb-garden will go, as well as my upside-down strawberry planters and tomato planter. The plants will looooove it in there!

And on the wall just outside the second sunroom will be the pet shelves/cabinets where the food and etc. will be kept, and one shelf of those is where the tarantula terrarium will go. And that's it! :D

I'm so excited! I'll take pics and post them once I've gotten all moved in. ♥

2) Mom and Lee... are in Hawaii right now. *EPIC FISTSHAKE* DAMN YOU, PARENTS! Haha, no, I'm kidding. It's their 20th anniversary this year and they NEVER take vacations. They deserve it. And Hawaii is somewhere they both have wanted to go forever, so good for them! They're seeing the cultural center and touring Pearl Harbour, and they're going to go through the international market.

I told them they had to do the following:

1) Go to Pearl Harbour.
2) See a luau.
3) Buy me an awesome souvenir.
and 4) Not get eaten by a shark. O__O;;

3) My new turtle, Genbu! The one that I rescued a few weeks back. Until now, he's been living in a TINY terrarium that is WAY too small for him, the poor guy. But I didn't have anywhere else to keep him. At least he had a little pond and lots of food, right? I still felt guilty though.

Anyway, the pet store downtown that I got Aya from have an indoor pond that has some turtles in it about Genbu's size. Today I was downtown and I asked the owner if he might be willing to take Genbu and add him to the pond so that he would be living in the proper conditions. I explained the situation and everything.

He apologized but had to say no. Turns out like a week ago he went to a turtle rescue out of town and adopted three more turtles for the pond, so now he has six; and this maxes out the pond. He can't put any more turtles in there or it will be too crowded. He said that if he had the room he definitely would have taken him, though.

I told him it was okay, but kind of sighed because it's not that I don't want to KEEP Genbu, it's just not fair to him to have to live in such a tiny unsuitable terrarium. =/

So the owner kind of looked at me for a minute, and then told me that he admires what I'm trying to do, so he's going to DONATE a 170 GALLON TANK for FREE so that I can give Genbu the kind of home he needs. ;A; That is the kind of thing the people from that store do. They genuinely CARE about animals. It's not just a business to them.

I thanked him a million times, obviously. I still have to buy the filter for it, but that's a tiny amount of money in comparison. He even said he would deliver it to the new apartment once I've moved! It was so incredible...

I WILL CONTINUE TO SHOP FOR MY ANIMALS FROM THAT STORE FOR AS LONG AS THEY ARE IN BUSINESS.

4) Today I went downtown intending to go to Blockbuster to look at previously viewed movies, but when the bus arrived at the main street... there was a sidewalk sale going on. O_o;

Twice every summer we have a massive sidewalk sale where the main street is closed off and all kinds of vendors set up shop for the weekend. It's always fun and nice to wander around and look at everything. I usually spend $20 or so and bring apples for the ponies at the pony rides they set up for the kids. ♥

Anyway, so rather than just go to Blockbuster and then home, I ended up meandering around. I talked to the pet shop owner (see above lol) and got to pet their store mascot, Calvin the alligator.

I got a candy and chocolate cookbook, a set of meditation balls, and a couple cheap used DVDs from a bin (The Rats and Darkness Falls.) I also got a couple of leather bracelets for cosplay later this summer, as well as some phone straps for peeps I have packages for. And one of the booths gave me some free popcorn, which was deliciously yummy and buttery. :3

Haha, I did end up going to Blockbuster afterward, though, and I picked up copies of Skyline, Planet Terror, Paranormal Activity 2, Arachnia and Resident Evil: Afterlife for really cheap. Yay movies~!

5) AND! So, to raise some more money for Otakon and the 'States this summer, I've decided to have a huge bake sale. ^_^ I can break in my kitchen and have fun and hopefully make some spare cash at the same time. And then anything I don't manage to sell I can freeze or give away to family/friends or to the various charities around town. ♥

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: N/A: "The Rats" on DVD.

My sleeping schedule is all messed up. ~_~;; As usual. /whatever.

So I guess the big news the last couple of days is that Tia is in heat.

Yes, IN HEAT.

Even though I GOT HER SPAYED all the way back in NOVEMBER. >__O;;

IDK, I looked it up online and I guess if the vet missed a bit of one of her ovaries during the surgery that would explain it.

But still, it's frustrating and annoying and she is LOUD right now. Plus 'Dion is humping her every time we turn around (he's due to be neutered next month, but I guess he's old enough to have figured it out. :P) I'm going to call the vet on Monday and go "ummm... I paid you to spay her to avoid this very thing. FIX IT PLZ." and hopefully they'll do it without complaining too much.

Other than that, I'm pretty much done unpacking now. Just four more boxes to go. Between one thing and another it's taken longer than I intended, but at least now Lee won't be on my case about boxes being all over the house anymore. XD;;

I can't find the box with my framed photos though, and that's kind of upsetting. I guess I'll have to print new copies of the ones I really want and buy new frames. HEY MADDIE/CHLOE/PRONNIE! SCAN OUR GROUP PIC FROM THE AQUARIUM LAST SUMMER AND MAIL IT TO ME? It's one of the ones that I really want in a frame... the rest of them I think I have on either Z or Squall, I just have to locate them.

Oh, and I'm setting up a musebox for listing all my rp journals and stuff finally.

vilyaore, which used to be my NaNo journal so right now it's still filled with Wednesday's Child stuff, which I need to copy + paste to my HD before I delete it from the journal itself...

EDIT: OH ALSO. RAINBOW BOA!! This is the next snake I am aiming for. They're not gigantic, are mid-range difficulty to take care of (they need very specific heat/humidity) but they are GORGEOUS. Their scales have an iridescent sheen to them, which makes them kind of glow in various colours depending on the light. LOOK AT HOW PRETTY THEY ARE!! ♥♥♥

And I've decided I also want an Iriyan Jaya Carpet Python. On doing more research, the Blood Python is much too large. The Hog Island Boa is still a contender though...

Current Mood: tired

First update in a while. Life just... well, let's put it this way: FUCK LIFE. ~_~;;

( I guess let's start with last Tuesday evening. )

Typing all of that out was really hard. It hurts to think about it, and even more so to talk about it. I kept having to take breaks to cry. ;__;

.....

Everything with Tri aside... the move was a nightmare. I moved the day after Tri died, and I don't know... I didn't handle it very well. I hadn't slept in days, and I just kept bursting into tears randomly, over stupid little things.

So moving sucked. A lot.

Other than that, I've been working on getting my aquarium up and running. I set it up here a couple weeks ago to run so that it would be ready for fish when I moved. So a few days ago I got some tetras, a pleco and some ghost shrimp to test the tank out and make sure it was running okay.

Since then a few tetras have died, but things have stabilized so today I picked up a second pleco (the first one was too small to do the job on his own) and three red bellied piranha. Haha, I've wanted them forever so I finally decided to give them a shot.

They're tiny right now because they're juveniles, but they're actually getting along well with the tetras and plecos (not bothering them at all) and ignoring the ghost shrimp all together. They're eating the tropical flake fish food, which I'll supplement with some fish (from the grocery store, not live ones) and fruits/veggies every few days.

Right now they're snacking on an orange slice.

Oh. And right now I have a massive chest cold and my sinuses are infected. Fucking awesome.

Current Mood: crushed

Still busy with packing and emoing over the whole last couple of weeks. Bah.

At least today I got my last month's rent back from my current landlord. This means I can afford groceries for the rest of the month, and can pick Nyoka up from the pet store finally. Also means I'll have a little money to spend on Friday when Mom takes me on my belated-birthday-day-out to Barrie.

That aside, even with the baseboard heaters and the two space heaters, it is FREEZING in here tonight. Winter's finally settling in, I guess. Took it long enough. Cream of wheat is helping to warm me up, though.

Current Mood: cold
Current Music: N/A: "Resident Evil: Apocalypse" on Squall.

TL;DR version of the last week:

The apartment I was so excited over? Turned out to be a scam. Now I'm down $1200 (most of which Mom fronted me, so I owe her a fuckton of money again), and because I already gave notice at my current apartment the landlord has rented it to someone else starting Feb 1st. So as of Jan 31st I'm out on my ass.

Mom and Lee are letting me move back in with them for the time being until I can find another place, but even knowing I'm not going to be homeless... I hate it. This is the closest I've come to feeling suicidal in about three years. (Before anyone panics, I have thoughts/feelings like that relatively regularly because of the bi-polar, but I would never actually do anything about them.)

So basically, FML. FML SO HARD. =____=;;

.....

On a more upbeat topic, Sarah invited me, Mom and Lee over for dinner tomorrow, so I decided to bake a cake tonight to bring with; lemon cake with strawberries, raspberries, blueberries and blackberries and a lemon-raspberry glaze. Will be nom-worthy. *nod*

Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: N/A: "Resident Evil: Afterlife" on Squall.

While things with the new apartment are still somewhat up in the air and I'm flailing about that, today was actually a pretty good day...

First of all, when I gave notice to my current landlord, he asked me to clean the apartment up and make it spic-n-span for while he's showing it to prospective tenants. Makes sense. He also asked that I find somewhere else for the rabbits and rats to live for the time being, as that many caged animals could put people off.

So this morning Mom came over and we loaded up the buns and ratties and took them all over to her house, where they will have a little vacation for the next couple weeks. No problem, though carrying the huge cages up and down the stairs was a pain. :P

Then, I went out! 8D

Lee and his band had a gig at Players in Barrie (it's a bar/grill) from 3pm to 8pm, and Mom was going so I went along too. Lee's been playing with them for a year now and I still hadn't actually seen them preform, so~

The bar was crowded (and got more crowded as the day progressed), but Mom and I found a booth in the corner where I was relatively comfortable despite the crowd, and we chatted and listened to music and drank coffee and pepsi because neither of us are all that into drinking-drinking.

lol, then it turned out that tonight was Players' customer appreciation night, so they had free burgers and hotdogs, and free appetizers (and also cheap alcohol). Basically, they fired up the grill outside despite it being the middle of the winter, and when you wanted a burger or hotdog you just wandered out and got one (until supplies ran out.)

THEIR BURGERS ARE FREAKING AMAZING. I have never had a burger that good before. It blew everything else completely out of the water. I am totally going back there again just for that, if nothing else.

Then they put out trays of various appetizers; shredded steak, jalepeno poppers, mozarella sticks, hot wings, onion rings, salami, cheese and a bunch of vegetables. I tried one or two of everything except the salami and cheese... AND OMGWTF IT TURNS OUT ALL OF THEIR FOOD IS AMAZING! I EVEN LIKED THEIR WINGS, AND I HATE WINGS. =O

AND THEIR JALEPENO POPPERS AND ONION RINGS ASDGH *DROOL* *A*!!

So basically, Mom and I ate tons of delicious food, and only paid for our drinks and a plate stuffed potato skins that she ordered. FUCK YEAH THAT'S A WIN IN MY BOOK.

Maddie and Chloe: We're gonna go there at least once when you come visit. Their food is awesome, their service is awesome, the atmosphere is awesome... basically? They're awesome. Plus I had a look at the menu and their prices are really good too. ♥

So we were there for about three and a half hours, and I totally enjoyed myself. With all the stress lately, just going out like that was something I really needed. I didn't even realize how much I needed it until we were on our way home.

Even if it was kinna strange to be in a bar with my mother. XD

Current Mood: content

Having a TMI day. Bah. ~_~;

Also, there's a chance the new apartment will fall through. Fucking hell. Cross your fingers for me that it all works out, but I might be stuck here anyway. Assuming the landlord for this place will even let me stay considering I already gave him notice that I was moving. =/

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: N/A: "The Tatooist" on DVD.

Yesterday was my birthday, and the highlight of it was when I went for a walk. To the bank. Only to get there and find it closed, at which point I remembered it was a bank holiday. =/

I did get some birthday wishes from friends on FB, and Grandma called me (and spent half the conversation lecturing me, as per normal.) And Mom wished me a happy birthday as well, but only after I called her to discuss a completely different subject. The worst part is that I'm not even disappointed that things went that way, because that's pretty much how my birthday always is anymore. It kinda sucks, all things considered.

Anyway, today I went back downtown and wired last month's rent and the security deposit to the landlord for the new apartment. $740 poorer, I then pulled my last $40 from the bank for groceries tomorrow. I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to pay for groceries from then until the end of the month, but I guess I'll manage somehow.

I then spent the afternoon trying to get in contact with my disability case worker (because they're supposed to be paying for last month's rent/security deposit, but I can't fucking get ahold of Susan so I had to pay for it myself and get the money back from them later on) and my current landlord (because I need to get January's rent back from him, since I paid 1st/last rent when I moved here and since January will be my last month it's already covered, but ODSP has already sent him rent for January...)

Still no word from my worker, but at least my landlord called back. He says he can get the rent back to me later this month, and wants me to clean the apartment up so he can have people start to come over and view it to rent it out when I'm gone. Of course the place is already clean, but I'll give it another once-over just to be sure.

The only problem is that he wants me to move the rabbits/rats somewhere else while he's actively showing the place. =/ So I've asked Mom if they could go to her place until the end of the month. If she says no then I've got nowhere else to take them, so they have to stay here. idk, I guess we'll see.

Current Mood: stressed

I've started packing. Mostly knicknacks from my shelves, since they need to go into smaller boxes (which is all I've got right now) and I can't pack up the books/movies/etc. that are on the same shelves until all the odds-and-ends are out of the way.

I have a few that I can't pack up yet, though, because I need newspaper to wrap them. Mom's going to bring some over tomorrow, along with a few boxes and all the plastic tubs that they were storing for me since I didn't have room for them here. Part way through January Mom and I are going to drive down to Dad's place to pick up a whole ton more boxes, since he can get them in the hundreds easily from his work. I've gotten the majority of my boxes from him the last two times I've moved as well.

...and I'm suddenly feeling very sick to my stomach and I have no idea why. Also have a headache starting. Guess it's about time I go to bed, or at least settle down and finish watching the movie I have on. After I go throw up, of course. =/

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: N/A: "Legion" on DVD.

I've been watching Kuragehime the last couple of days. I'd heard it was good, so I thought I'd try it out. IT IS SUCH A GOOD SHOW. So amusing. I'm having a lot of fun with it. I think I might look into the manga, too, probably after I move (because Barrie has a huge awesome Chapters that carries a TON of manga. X3) ♥

Anyway.

Yesterday was supposed to be grocery day, but we put it off until today instead. It wasn't a big deal today, I only needed a handful of things, like canned cat food, catmilk, rabbit food and milk for me. I also got Oreos because they were on sale and I luff them. :3 That was all. Between Christmas and everything I haven't actually used anything up around here other than milk lol. xD;

While I was at the grocery store I pilfered some empty boxes. They aren't huge but I can use them for packing my figures and knicknacks. The bigger boxes that I'm getting from Dad and etc. are better for bigger things, and packing books and DVDs.

Mmmmm... I need some bits of furniture for the new place, too. More shelves, two beds, a coffee table, a kitchen/dining table and at some point a new couch. (I couldn't fit any of those things in this current apartment, so I don't have them. :P)

And I'm going to buy some paint to paint some of my current furniture so that at least all the pieces in the living room will match. I don't care so much if all the stuff in the bedrooms is the same, but I'd like the main room to look decent. Pfft, I guess I'm maturing a little, since I never used to care if my living room furniture matched or anything. xD;; This revelation makes me a little sad lmao.

Also, I just realized last night that I have NEVER posted pics of my current apartment for you guys. *facepalm* I'll have to take pics quickly before I start packing. >>;

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: N/A: "Shark Week: Prehistoric Sharks" on DVD.

I hope everyone out there had a great Christmas! ^_^

My Christmas was good, I'm happy to say. All of December had been really stressful and depressing and I've been having a lot of trouble, so I wasn't really looking forward to Christmas because the 24/25/26th are always the most busy days for our family. But I was actually able to relax and enjoy things, which was nice.

On the 24th I did very little, just hung out around the house and cleaned, played with the cats and finished last-minute gift stuff.

That day a package from Maddie and Chloe came in the mail, which made me really happy. ♥ It had Cheesy Enchilada Hamburger Helper (♥!!), some lotion that I wanted for Lois and my Christmas gift in it; some pretty beads, and a bracelet with matching earrings that Maddie made-- they are gorgeous, and I LOVE them, and they even matched my Christmas outfit perfectly, so I wore them to the family get together on the 26th, where I got lots of compliments on them. :3

The next morning Mom picked me up around 11 and took me and all my gifts for everyone over to her place, and we finished up the last bits of cooking/baking for the family gathering. Then Grandma got there around 1pm, and we all exchanged gifts.

I gave Grandma her souvenirs from my trip to the US in the summer (finally lol) and her Christmas present was a glass vase with decorative butterflies and a candle. I got Lee a wall clock shaped like a guitar (a Gibson, which is the one he uses most out of his actual guitars), and some blank VHS tapes because the ones he's using right now are old and wearing out. Then I got Mom a decorative 3D wolf plate, two scented oil infusers, and copies of The DaVinci Code and Angels and Demons on DVD. I also got two gifts that were for both of them; a wall sign ("Pomeranian Crossing" haha) and a bag of goodies (chocolates, cookies, etc.). And I got my brother three couch pillows (I got them at Matsuricon from the wonderful and insanely talented NeonDragon) and a copy of Gwenhwyfar by Mercedes Lackey. ♥

As for me, I got a whole set of new bakeware (two cookie sheets, two round cake tins, a loaf pan, a rectangular cake pan, a muffin pan and a pizza pan!!), an electric mixer (eee!! ♥♥), a DVD copy of Independence Day (to replace my worn-out VHS one), a zombie movie DVD set (Last of the Living; Grave Mistakes; Awaken The Dead and I Am Omega; my brother tells me I'm supposed to tell you all "HEAD NOMMING GOODNESS!"), money from Grandma, and a notebook that is my favourite thing I got this year. It's completely handmade including the paper, and free-trade. It's cover is etched leather with intricate designs and a pentagram on the front. X3!! It's going to be my recipe book, but Imma call it my spell/potion book lol.

And my brother got me the first season of Xena: Warrior Princess, but I already had it, so it's got to be exchanged for something else. Ah well~

Then we had dinner and everyone else played cards for a while. I, meanwhile, dyed my hair back to my natural colour so it would look nice for the family gathering, and also because I was sick of having the huge dark stripe down the middle of my head lol. XD

I went to bed pretty early that night because I had to get up early-ish the next morning to make the dip for the get-together (it took an hour in the slow cooker.) Then we all got dressed and ready and packed everything up, and headed out around 11am.

Now, a couple days earlier I had been surfing Kijiji, looking for a new terrarium for Aya because he's starting to outgrow his current one. I found one for $45 (as compared to $250 for a brand-new one), but it was in Barrie. But we were driving right through Barrie to get to my Uncle and Aunt's place for Christmas, so I asked if we could just stop to pick it up on the way past.

So I got it and brought it home last night after everything... and then kind of thought about it and it's kind of tall and thin, which is much better for an aquarium for fish than a snake terrarium. So I decided to set it up as an aquarium (I miss having fishies anyway) and found another terrarium that's more suitable for Aya's needs. It's being delivered tonight. :)

Anyway!

We got to the get-together around 1-ish and set up all the snacks and appetizers and everything, and then sat around and visited and just generally caught up with everyone until it was dinner time.

THEN THERE WAS TURKEY. ASDGH YUMMY!! X3 ♥♥♥

lol and after dinner we set out the desserts (there was a TON of delicious stuff!) and started the gift exchange (we all bring an anonymous gift, then we draw numbers and each of us can either open a new gift or steal someone else's.) There was a lot of good stuff this year; a couple nice blankets, a box of chocolates, a tea set, a set of glass bakeware and etc. I ended up with the glass bakeware (which I do kind of need for doing casseroles and that kind of thing, but Lee had ended up with a set of china popcorn bowls that he would never use (and neither would Mom or my bro) so I traded them. The bowls are actually good sizes; the big one can be used as a mixing bowl, and the smaller ones for a variety of things. Plus I can always borrow the glassware if I need to. XD;;

It was fun and very enjoyable. The only semi-bad part was that I had a run-in with a peanut butter cookie. =/

Aunt Clare had brought a tray of desserts, and most of them she had made but she included a few that a friend of hers had made too, and some of them turned out to have peanut butter in them. It was my fault too, because I'm so used to not having to worry about peanuts at family functions (because they all know about my allergy), I wasn't as careful as I normally am. But as soon as I bit into it I knew there was peanut butter in it, and spat it out without actually swallowing. Then I rinsed my mouth out. A LOT.

Poor Clare felt so bad about it, but it wasn't her fault. And I was fine (with the exception of a headache from it later; my peanut allergy actually gives me migraines) so it wasn't a big deal. I just took some aspirin and that was that. :)

Soooo... we all visited some more, and then around 8pm we decided it was time to start heading home. We packed up (I took some desserts home with me because I'm baaaad lol), and on the way out the door Uncle Alec and Aunt Brenda gave me a couple of Cat Cubes for my kitties to play in. THE CATS ARE IN LOVE WITH THEM LMAO.

Once we got back to Orillia, we went to Mom and Lee's place and unpacked what we had to, then packed up the rest of my things and Lee drove me home, where my cats were waiting to AMBUSH me because it was after their dinner time and they were STARVING TO DEATH.

So I fed them and put some things away... then decided screw it and just shoved everything into a corner so it was all out of the way and went to bed. I was exhausted, and besides that my head still hurt from the Peanut Encounter (tm). I slept really well, though 'Dion spent all night insisting on being cuddled up under my chin. He has separation issues. >>;

Then today I went downtown to pick up some more reptile bark (for Aya's new terrarium) and a bunch of river rocks for the aquarium. I also got a fish net and a larger hide for Aya since he's outgrown his old one.

After that I spent a couple hours cleaning the apartment and setting the aquarium up. I also called and talked to my brother for a few minutes, and we ended up deciding he was going to come over and hang out for the day. So he showed up a while later and we watched the remake of The Day The Earth Stood Still and now we're watching 2012. And I made lasagna and garlic toast for dinner. Yay! :D

And that's about it.

Oh, except that the landlord for the apartment I'm moving to sent me the address today, so I looked it up on Google Earth. It's in a really nice neighbourhood, only two blocks from a grocery store, and only a couple blocks from the park/lake. X3 It's so awesome!!

I still need to go and actually look at the place, but what the hell, it can't be worse than where I am now, right? I'm 99% sure I'm going to take it. ♥

I do need to call Mom and coordinate with her a day we can go and look at it, though... hopefully in a couple days. Hmm.

EDIT: New Terrarium has been delivered, and Aya is all set up! ♥ His new home is much bigger and perfect for him, and will be for the rest of his hopefully long life. :)

And the pet store I got him from has already ordered my new Kenyan Sand Boa, which I will be picking up in February. Her name will be Nyoka (an African name meaning "snake"), and she will be moving into Aya's old terrarium. Since she won't get as big as Aya will, it'll be fine for her and I won't have to worry about upgrading~

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: N/A: "2012" on DVD.

DGDNULGKBDAYHUGLJBFJHKADLHJASKLHGUIL!!1!!

I FOUND A NEW APARTMENT!! A NICER NEW APARTMENT!! WHICH IS ACTUALLY A WHOLE FUCKING HOUSE, AND INCLUDES THE FOLLOWING AMENITIES:

AIR CONDITIONING
BALCONY/PATIO/DECK
CEILING FANS
DISHWASHER
DOUBLE OVEN
GARBAGE DISPOSAL
STORAGE
WASHER/DRYER

AND THEY ALLOW PETS!! AND THE RENT? IS ONLY $450 A MONTH, AND THAT INCLUDES UTILITIES ASDGH;KL!!

I SENT AN EMAIL APPLICATION AND I GOT THE PLACE! SO I WILL BE MOVING AWAY FROM THIS DUMP IN A MONTH, AND LIVING IN MY OWN HOME, BY MYSELF, WITH MY OWN LAUNDRY FACILITIES, MY OWN DISHWASHER, AN AWESOME KITCHEN AND SDGHFUDAILNBG YESSSSS!!

...and now Imma stop with the capslock flailing. XD;

But I'm so excited and happy! The only downside is that it's in Barrie and not Orillia, so I won't be close to Mom and Lee and my brother anymore. But still. How could I possibly turn it down?

Plus then I'll be a half-hour closer to my friends in the US of A. XD

Though I hate to move again. :P Packing and unpacking sucks. Bah.

Current Mood: excited

A semi-decent update for those of you on my flist that are wondering how I'm doing aside from ZOMG eel creatures and OMG lampwork heart pendants.

Mom's surgery is coming up on the 25th, and it really kind of snuck up on me. The whole family is really stressed and worried right now, and Mom is making herself sick with being afraid that when they go in to do the hysterectomy they'll find something more than the tests have shown so far. I know we should all be trying to keep an optimistic outlook, but it's proving to be hard, especially since Grandpa just died of cancer three years ago. The whole thing is keeping me up at night a lot, and I won't feel any better about it until after the operation when the surgeon comes and tells us everything is fine.

I moved a couple weeks ago as well; to a little apartment downtown. It's not much (I'll post pictures once it's more organized), and pretty small, but it's mine, and I love that about it. Besides which, for one person (and cats/rabbits), it's a fine size. The only problem is that I have too much stuff. >>; It's been a nightmare trying to figure out how to fit everything in, and that's even after two vanloads of stuff having been taken to the goodwill.

When I first was moving in, the place was a mess. The kitchen still needs to have a really good cleaning with bleach, but other than that it's tidy enough I can put up with it until everything's unpacked and settled. The bathroom was DISGUSTING. I should have taken some photos to show you the before and after. Grandma actually came down on the day I moved, and rather than helping with the move itself, just locked herself up in the bathroom and scrubbed the shit out of it for HOURS. It's still terribly stained, but not actually dirty anymore. I don't think the previous tenants cleaned the bathroom once in the entire time they lived here. -__-;; Ugh.

Right as I'm typing this, the girly bunnies are in the kitchen having playtime. Unfortunately, until I got the kitchen organized enough that they couldn't get into things they shouldn't, they couldn't have time out to exercise-- it's been about three weeks since they were last out of their cage. I feel guilty, but there wasn't much I could do, since the kitchen is the only place here I can let them out at all. Now I can though, so we can get back into the regular routine of daily romps.

In November, I've got a table to sell things at the Christmas bazaar in Bracebridge. So I'm selling some jewelry there, as well as some jams and jellies. Grandma brought me six freaking baskets of crab apples when she came down, so I'll have TONS of crab apple jelly. (If anyone wants some, let me know and I'll set aside a jar of it for you.) It'll be the first time I've actually sold something I've cooked/baked so I'm really kind of nervous about it. Hopefully it'll go well.

Also, some time in the next couple days I'll be posting a massive sales post; due to space issues and the fact that I'm in desperate need of money, I've decided to sell off most of my extensive Sailormoon collection. I have a few really rare items, so fingers crossed. Also, if you know anyone who might like to commission a pony or something from me, please point them in my direction.

...because of everything that's been going on, I haven't been online much. Most of my time has been designated to doctor's visits and the move/unpacking. Honestly, I'm starting to get really weary of it, and I'm feeling... downtrodden. Just sad and gloomy. I miss being on AIM and talking to people, and blogging about nothing. But until the end of the month I just won't have the time.

EDIT: Maddie needs monies too, so go check out her etsy shop:

EDIT #2: I'm watching The Evil Dead II right now while I'm organizing things, and the girl's head just bit the guy on the hand, and he's flailing and screaming and smashing said severed head against walls and books and desks and whatnot, and I am LAUGHING MY ASS OFF. XDD;;;

It starts here, at about nine minutes in:

...and continues on here. xD;;

Current Mood: tired

Moving is {mostly} finished! THIS PLACE IS A DISASTER. I HAVE TOO MUCH STUFF.

The landlord just stopped by and brought me samosas. :3

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Utada Hikaru ~ "Simple And Clean" (KH)

Was at my apartment today long enough to have the Internet guy come and install everything. Then tomorrow is the bulk of the move and all my furniture and everything is being moved, as well as my computer and the last of the boxes.

The cats are staying at Mom and Lee's place for one more night after that to give me time to organize a bit without them getting into everything. Plus, I'm hoping that if the new kitten is there for a day before them it'll help with Neko's territoriality issues. >>;

Speaking of, looks like I'm naming her Chasca. (SH-AH-S-KAH.) Amana came in a close second though. ♥

...

OMG so tired already. 8D;;

Current Mood: busy

Ahh~ two more days until I can pick up the keys for my apartment! That's not a lot of time! D8

Gah, I'm completely out of boxes and still have more to pack. But on Monday like I said, I'm picking up my keys, and then on Tuesday morning Mom is dropping me off before she goes to work. I am taking cleaning supplies just in case, and will spend at least until noon there because the Rogers guy is coming to install the Internet between 8am and 11am.

When I moved out to room with Sarah, I didn't get the 'Net installed for a few days after I moved because I didn't schedule it until after I'd moved in. I went NUTS without Internet access for that amount of time, so this time I made sure to schedule ahead of time. XD; IDK I WIN?

...whoa, the sleeping pills just hit me WHAM right this second. @_@;;

Moving is expensive. -_-; I'm more than broke; Sarah even gave me $100 (tldr; she got a bunch of money from ODSP because they were underpaying her, and wanted to share the wealth, so she gave $100 to everyone in the family) and I still have no cash. She gave it to me today when we picked her up for groceries, and I spent it all, and all but $10 on things related to moving/stocking up the kitchen/cleaning supplies/etc. I did buy myself a plant (twisty bamboo!) and one pack of beads.

But once I'm settled and have all the basics in the house it should settle down. *fingers crossed*

LMAO had a massive The X-Files marathon yesterday and last night. XD; Almost all of the fourth season. I skipped a couple eps that I found boring originally, but I watched most of them. ♥♥♥

EDIT: OH, and I got some stuff for packages for Steph and Mari today. Kraft Dinner comes in different flavours now. ._.;

Current Mood: exhausted

Hokay... entry after a freaking month. Life ate me up and spat me out and I'm still completely stressed out and messed up about a lot of things. Suddenly everything just exploded. I guess when it rains it pours, right? Anyway.

1) Otakon: I'm hoping to still do a more in-depth entry about Otakon, but for now here's the brief version; Air Canada sucks, the hotel we were in has the most gorgeous lobby ever (me and Pronnie did an epic photo shoot there~ ♥), meeting everyone I hadn't met before was AWESOME, and seeing Maddie, Chloe and Michelle again was as well because I MISSED THEM TERRIBLY. IN FACT, I MISS EVERYONE TERRIBLY AGAIN. ;A;

The first day we went to the aquarium, and I gave myself heatstroke. That night we did pre-reg. The next day was the first day of the con itself and I was so sick from the day before that I pretty much didn't do anything but lie around and feel miserable all day, until around 1am when Maddie finally forced me up and dragged me out for foodz. (A good thing, really. Thank you Maddie. ♥) Saturday I did BOYS!Riku cosplay and totally forgot to take pics in it. *facepalm* Sunday was Dealer's Room day and I spent way too fucking much money. YAY ANYWAY.

There was some drama/wank over the course of the weekend, but that's all I have to say on the topic.

Like I said, more detailed post to come, probably tomorrow or the next day. Also I'll post some of my fav photos from the trip then, but for now there are a few in my DevART if anyone is just dying to see them.

2) Dayton: After Otakon was a 12 hour bus ride to Dayton. -.-; At least the bus wasn't crowded, so we all got to stretch out and be (semi) comfy. I stabbed my own foot on the ice pick on my cane though. *facepalm* Slept on the couch at Maddie and Chloe's place every night except one (thank you guys! ILU!) and me and Steph stole their kitchen a couple times to bake and cook. :3 Chloe made us yummy salmon sammiches and okanomiyaki (um, I think that's how it's spelled? XD;;) that was FABULOUS too.

Went to the Dayton Celtic Festival while Steph and Mari were visiting Rei in Detroit, and also to the Dinosaurs Alive! exhibit in Cincinnati with Chloe's Mom, which was so much fun YOU HAVE NO IDEA. I GEEKED OUT SO HARD CORE OVER THE ANIMATRONICS. >w< When Steph and Mari came back we went to Jungle Jim's too, which was awesome. And one day we all went out and did cosplay at the mall (Chloe had to work though D:) where I cosplayed Elena from FFVII, and BOYS!Riku so I could take some pics.

More in-depth on all that in the next post too, I swear.

3) Mom: Okay, after finding out that Mom had cancer I obviously freaked out a lot. Not to mention stressed myself out to the point of having painful stomach cramps and acid reflux so bad I couldn't lay down every night the last three weeks. But Mom went for her MRI a couple weeks ago and when the results came back, it turned out the specialist was right and it's just beginning stage cervical cancer.

So basically, she's having surgery (a radical hysterectomy) and that should cover it. She shouldn't need chemo or radiation therapy or anything afterward. The operation is scheduled for the 15th of next month, and then she needs 6 weeks off to recuperate afterward.

Obviously, I'm still worried and stressed about it. It's a massive operation; they're removing all of her womb, her fallopian tubes and ovaries, some lymph nodes, all of her cervix and a portion of her vagina. I know it's done routinely and it's nothing to really be worrying too much over, but I can't help it. I won't feel any better until the 15th once the operation is over and she's awake and everything's okay.

4) My Surgery: Went for the mandatory class last week. It was three hours long, and seriously, I didn't learn anything I didn't already know. Oh well. I have two more appointments before I can have the operation at the beginning of the new year, one the first week of September, and then one in October at some point. The one in October was originally supposed to be on the 17th of September, but got pushed back because of Mom's surgery on the 15th; hers is WAY more important than mine.

5) Moving: ASDGH I HAVE AN APARTMENT!! X3!! SO EXCITED! It's downtown, and one bedroom (though I'm not using it the typical way) and it has a kitchen and a bathroom and dsnhaguidfh I don't have to share with anyone but my cats and rabbits! X3 GAH, but I only found out less than a week ago and I'm moving in the first week of September so I'm kind of scrambling to send in the paperwork to ODSP and get everything squared away and all my stuff packed. Still. ♥♥♥

Steph and Mari: Still working on packages for you guys, but they've had to be put off a little bit because of the move. Expect them in October some time, probably. ♥

Current Mood: calm

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