A Whole Lot Of Nothing
Aug. 21st, 2024 09:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
senashentaOkay, so my jaw. Is FUCKED. It's not like... broken cleanly, if you know what I mean? In all the wrenching and twisting and yanking the Dentist did to pull the tooth out (almost) a month ago, she basically SPLINTERED IT, so there are shards sticking out everywhere, including outside of my gums. They had to shave some off when I was in last week to have ANOTHER tooth pulled, which I'm sure just exacerbated the problem. tldr; it feels like my head is going to explode and I can't chew ANYTHING right now.
...which I mean. Even if my jaw WASN'T jacked all to shit, I now have ZERO molars on my upper jaw, so I'm reduced to chewing with like one premolar on my top right side. I have about half an inch of chewing surface to work with now. I really need to get back to the Denturist and get them to send ANOTHER assessment to ODSP (the last one was denied because I wasn't missing enough TEETH) but I can't do that until I get the last of my cavities filled next month. Which brings me back around to my jaw because if it's not healed enough by my next APPOINTMENT I'll have to CANCEL IT and the whole Denturist thing will get put off even MORE.
FUCK, MAN.
Anyway. When I was in to see Dr. K last she suggested that my constant hunger in recent months could be because I'm not getting enough protein in my diet, which, okay, valid. I know I don't get enough protein. So now I'm drinking a protein shake every day around noon-ish and it seems to be helping. I'm not as hungry and I'm not CONSTANTLY snacking (also a broken jaw is helping curb this as well! :D;;) and so far I've lost just under ten pounds, which is great.
The problem is the protein powder is like $68 a month and I'm going to struggle to afford it. But a couple days ago Mom and I were at Costco and they had protein powder that was comparable to what I'm currently using on sale, and I managed to get 4 months supply for just over the cost of 1 month's worth at Walmart. I would have bought even MORE because THAT IS A GOOD SALE?? but I'm officially out of money for the month. But even at regular prices, the Costco stuff is about half as expensive, so I'll be buying it from there from now on, definitely.
Mom also suggested picking up some protein BARS from Costco to have around the house for the occasional times that I DO still feel snacky (because Kirkland protein bars are like half the cost of other brands at other stores) so I'm going to look into that when I do my shopping at the end of the month.
So when I was talking to Dr. K she suggested that, and also prescribed me uhhhh.... one sec. Spironolactone! (I think.) To hopefully help with the HORRIBLE ACNE I've been dealing with lately. EXCEPT. The other day I think I figured it out! My acne problem, I think, started about when I got my hair cut off AND STARTED USING HAIRSPRAY EVERY DAY. I THINK THE HAIRSPRAY IS GETTING INTO ALL OF MY PORES AND CLOGGING THEM UP. So two days ago I switched to hair gel instead and my skin already feels less gross. Pretty sure I found the culprit! ...the only thing that sucks is that I JUST bought a brand new can of hairspray two weeks ago and now it's just going to sit there. Blegh. I hate wasting money like that.
Um. What else.
Well, I'm working on Cerulean Blue right now, I'm like 9 pages in and on the first sex scene already so it's going about as expected. You should see me, an asexual, trying to write a MILLION smut scenes and keep them from getting boring when I, personally, couldn't care less. It's actually funny because I guarantee people who read my fics would never peg me as asexual. But I'm in this weird grey area of asexuality where I actually write sex scenes and enjoy writing them, I just get no sexual gratification out of them myself? It's weird. But also only m/m sex scenes, I don't want anything to do with female genitalia. :|
Which reminds me, I watched Alien: Romulus! (And then I watched it two more times, and will probably watch it several more in the near future, it's been too long since we've had a good Alien movie!) I really enjoyed it for the most part (obviously), the actor playing Andy was AMAZING, he had to play like four different versions of Andy over the course of the film and he nailed them all. Rain was a solid heroine in line with Ripley, just obviously younger and less experienced in the world. She was smart, though, and by the end of the movie I was definitely on Team Rain. I also really liked Tyler and was sad to see him bite it, but it IS an Alien movie, heavy casualties are to be expected.
Alien: Romulus was a solid movie, but for me it just suffered from being filled with too many TEENAGERS. (Realistically I'm pretty sure they were all supposed to be in the 19-->22ish age range? I should look that up.) A lot of them made stupid kid decisions that made me facepalm and the one guy was the epitome of an obnoxious teenage boy. HE HAD A COOL DEATH THOUGH SO THERE'S THAT.
The weird... vagina. Thing. That the one xenomorph births from was gross and left me feeling vaguely uncomfortable. Female genitalia really don't do it for me. (Says the person with pendants shaped like vulvas waiting to be made into necklaces.) So I could have done without that. Actually seeing someone die of alien acid blood was AWESOME. But again, they went with the human/alien hybrid at the end of the movie and I feel like we've been there, we've learned our lessons, why can't we just have a good, clean Alien film? I dunno.
Andy's "stay away from her you... bitch." was the best ever.
Apparently there's a new Predator movie coming out soon, too? But I haven't seen any trailers or anything so I'm not sure. The last one, Prey, was FUCKING FANTASTIC and if they keep it up I'm definitely in. I should watch Prey again some time soon...
Ummm. Oh. I have one book in my shopping cart at thriftbooks right now (I KNOW SHUT UP), The Raven Boys by Maggie Stiefvater, and only because I have a free book so all I have to pay for is the shipping. The shipping is going to be about $10CAD, though, and I literally have $2.10 in my bank account right now SO I GUESS IT'S WAITING UNTIL THE END OF THE MONTH LOL. The Raven Boys is the first in a series (The Raven Boys, The Dream Thieves, Lily Blue Lily Blue and The Raven King) and sounds really good so I'll probably end up picking the rest of them up eventually. Just not right now, lol.
It's been five days and my order with The Wilder Girls and Camp Damascus hasn't shipped yet and I'm starting to get annoyed. I'll give it another day or so and then maybe email them and just be like "...??"
Poe has offered to give me the photoshop files for any buttons from their shop that I like so I can have them printed for Esprit Studios, and then we can split the profits. I think this is a good plan for both of us, they get a bit more off the top of my sales and I get, you know, SALES, ideally. But I can't be ordering a shit ton of buttons until I have money again, so this is a long-term project. In the meantime, after this I have to go on Etsy and upload some more of my own buttons. I just procrastinate because I hate the listing process SO MUCH. SO, SO MUCH. UGH.
I also need to re-photograph (most of) my jewelry and update the pics for that stuff because the pics I have up right now just aren't cutting it. I've been using paint sticks that I got at Home Depot as a background, recently, and I really like the results, but I don't have enough sticks to make a big enough background for some of the jewelry so I need to go back and get more. Maybe at the end of the month. Last time I took like ten and the lady gave me a dirty look. :|
Oh, and padded envelopes. I need to order a shit ton of padded envelopes off ebay and little teeny fox boxes off uline. Also tissue paper, which I can get at the dollar store, thank God, and more Thank You stickers and maybe Recycle Me stickers off AliExpress? I just want to be prepared so I don't run out of stuff like a week into this endeavour. I have a FEW envelopes (like 100??) and a FEW Thank You stickers (also about 100, I think??) but not much else. It hasn't been a huge priority the last few months, considering how things had been going and the static nature of my Etsy site. :|
Been working on foxes the last few days. My Concrete Peaches set, now that I have the right color of grey for them, and the Rainbow Dash one that Poe specifically asked for. The CP ones are about half done, but I've got a ways to go on RD fox. I'd forgotten how tedious it is to paint the entire tail on these things. Getting there, though! I'm also planning to finish off my Nonbinary Cabbage Dog so I can send it to Poe in the parcel I'm sending them at the end of the month. I pretty much just have to finish the purple bits, paint and eyes and nose black and do some minor touch ups and it'll be done. I can probably do it in an evening if my brain would let me put aside the writing and work on something else for a while. :P
That is only partially a complaint, by the way, I have written around 110 pages in the last five days and that is INCREDIBLE. Granted, it's all fanfiction for a series that's got basically ZERO TRACTION so far, but still. I'm having fun.
Oh, and I got a SUPER enthusiastic review on Don't You Forget About Me this morning where the person was like "I JUST READ EVERY FIC IN THIS SERIES AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH I AM EAGERLY AWAITING MORE" and yeah. That made me smile. I like reviews like that.
EDIT: Tomorrow is Update Day for Horror High, chapter 7 this time, which means I can expect a few clicks but absolutely no feedback as per usual.
...which I mean. Even if my jaw WASN'T jacked all to shit, I now have ZERO molars on my upper jaw, so I'm reduced to chewing with like one premolar on my top right side. I have about half an inch of chewing surface to work with now. I really need to get back to the Denturist and get them to send ANOTHER assessment to ODSP (the last one was denied because I wasn't missing enough TEETH) but I can't do that until I get the last of my cavities filled next month. Which brings me back around to my jaw because if it's not healed enough by my next APPOINTMENT I'll have to CANCEL IT and the whole Denturist thing will get put off even MORE.
FUCK, MAN.
Anyway. When I was in to see Dr. K last she suggested that my constant hunger in recent months could be because I'm not getting enough protein in my diet, which, okay, valid. I know I don't get enough protein. So now I'm drinking a protein shake every day around noon-ish and it seems to be helping. I'm not as hungry and I'm not CONSTANTLY snacking (also a broken jaw is helping curb this as well! :D;;) and so far I've lost just under ten pounds, which is great.
The problem is the protein powder is like $68 a month and I'm going to struggle to afford it. But a couple days ago Mom and I were at Costco and they had protein powder that was comparable to what I'm currently using on sale, and I managed to get 4 months supply for just over the cost of 1 month's worth at Walmart. I would have bought even MORE because THAT IS A GOOD SALE?? but I'm officially out of money for the month. But even at regular prices, the Costco stuff is about half as expensive, so I'll be buying it from there from now on, definitely.
Mom also suggested picking up some protein BARS from Costco to have around the house for the occasional times that I DO still feel snacky (because Kirkland protein bars are like half the cost of other brands at other stores) so I'm going to look into that when I do my shopping at the end of the month.
So when I was talking to Dr. K she suggested that, and also prescribed me uhhhh.... one sec. Spironolactone! (I think.) To hopefully help with the HORRIBLE ACNE I've been dealing with lately. EXCEPT. The other day I think I figured it out! My acne problem, I think, started about when I got my hair cut off AND STARTED USING HAIRSPRAY EVERY DAY. I THINK THE HAIRSPRAY IS GETTING INTO ALL OF MY PORES AND CLOGGING THEM UP. So two days ago I switched to hair gel instead and my skin already feels less gross. Pretty sure I found the culprit! ...the only thing that sucks is that I JUST bought a brand new can of hairspray two weeks ago and now it's just going to sit there. Blegh. I hate wasting money like that.
Um. What else.
Well, I'm working on Cerulean Blue right now, I'm like 9 pages in and on the first sex scene already so it's going about as expected. You should see me, an asexual, trying to write a MILLION smut scenes and keep them from getting boring when I, personally, couldn't care less. It's actually funny because I guarantee people who read my fics would never peg me as asexual. But I'm in this weird grey area of asexuality where I actually write sex scenes and enjoy writing them, I just get no sexual gratification out of them myself? It's weird. But also only m/m sex scenes, I don't want anything to do with female genitalia. :|
Which reminds me, I watched Alien: Romulus! (And then I watched it two more times, and will probably watch it several more in the near future, it's been too long since we've had a good Alien movie!) I really enjoyed it for the most part (obviously), the actor playing Andy was AMAZING, he had to play like four different versions of Andy over the course of the film and he nailed them all. Rain was a solid heroine in line with Ripley, just obviously younger and less experienced in the world. She was smart, though, and by the end of the movie I was definitely on Team Rain. I also really liked Tyler and was sad to see him bite it, but it IS an Alien movie, heavy casualties are to be expected.
Alien: Romulus was a solid movie, but for me it just suffered from being filled with too many TEENAGERS. (Realistically I'm pretty sure they were all supposed to be in the 19-->22ish age range? I should look that up.) A lot of them made stupid kid decisions that made me facepalm and the one guy was the epitome of an obnoxious teenage boy. HE HAD A COOL DEATH THOUGH SO THERE'S THAT.
The weird... vagina. Thing. That the one xenomorph births from was gross and left me feeling vaguely uncomfortable. Female genitalia really don't do it for me. (Says the person with pendants shaped like vulvas waiting to be made into necklaces.) So I could have done without that. Actually seeing someone die of alien acid blood was AWESOME. But again, they went with the human/alien hybrid at the end of the movie and I feel like we've been there, we've learned our lessons, why can't we just have a good, clean Alien film? I dunno.
Andy's "stay away from her you... bitch." was the best ever.
Apparently there's a new Predator movie coming out soon, too? But I haven't seen any trailers or anything so I'm not sure. The last one, Prey, was FUCKING FANTASTIC and if they keep it up I'm definitely in. I should watch Prey again some time soon...
Ummm. Oh. I have one book in my shopping cart at thriftbooks right now (I KNOW SHUT UP), The Raven Boys by Maggie Stiefvater, and only because I have a free book so all I have to pay for is the shipping. The shipping is going to be about $10CAD, though, and I literally have $2.10 in my bank account right now SO I GUESS IT'S WAITING UNTIL THE END OF THE MONTH LOL. The Raven Boys is the first in a series (The Raven Boys, The Dream Thieves, Lily Blue Lily Blue and The Raven King) and sounds really good so I'll probably end up picking the rest of them up eventually. Just not right now, lol.
It's been five days and my order with The Wilder Girls and Camp Damascus hasn't shipped yet and I'm starting to get annoyed. I'll give it another day or so and then maybe email them and just be like "...??"
Poe has offered to give me the photoshop files for any buttons from their shop that I like so I can have them printed for Esprit Studios, and then we can split the profits. I think this is a good plan for both of us, they get a bit more off the top of my sales and I get, you know, SALES, ideally. But I can't be ordering a shit ton of buttons until I have money again, so this is a long-term project. In the meantime, after this I have to go on Etsy and upload some more of my own buttons. I just procrastinate because I hate the listing process SO MUCH. SO, SO MUCH. UGH.
I also need to re-photograph (most of) my jewelry and update the pics for that stuff because the pics I have up right now just aren't cutting it. I've been using paint sticks that I got at Home Depot as a background, recently, and I really like the results, but I don't have enough sticks to make a big enough background for some of the jewelry so I need to go back and get more. Maybe at the end of the month. Last time I took like ten and the lady gave me a dirty look. :|
Oh, and padded envelopes. I need to order a shit ton of padded envelopes off ebay and little teeny fox boxes off uline. Also tissue paper, which I can get at the dollar store, thank God, and more Thank You stickers and maybe Recycle Me stickers off AliExpress? I just want to be prepared so I don't run out of stuff like a week into this endeavour. I have a FEW envelopes (like 100??) and a FEW Thank You stickers (also about 100, I think??) but not much else. It hasn't been a huge priority the last few months, considering how things had been going and the static nature of my Etsy site. :|
Been working on foxes the last few days. My Concrete Peaches set, now that I have the right color of grey for them, and the Rainbow Dash one that Poe specifically asked for. The CP ones are about half done, but I've got a ways to go on RD fox. I'd forgotten how tedious it is to paint the entire tail on these things. Getting there, though! I'm also planning to finish off my Nonbinary Cabbage Dog so I can send it to Poe in the parcel I'm sending them at the end of the month. I pretty much just have to finish the purple bits, paint and eyes and nose black and do some minor touch ups and it'll be done. I can probably do it in an evening if my brain would let me put aside the writing and work on something else for a while. :P
That is only partially a complaint, by the way, I have written around 110 pages in the last five days and that is INCREDIBLE. Granted, it's all fanfiction for a series that's got basically ZERO TRACTION so far, but still. I'm having fun.
Oh, and I got a SUPER enthusiastic review on Don't You Forget About Me this morning where the person was like "I JUST READ EVERY FIC IN THIS SERIES AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH I AM EAGERLY AWAITING MORE" and yeah. That made me smile. I like reviews like that.
EDIT: Tomorrow is Update Day for Horror High, chapter 7 this time, which means I can expect a few clicks but absolutely no feedback as per usual.
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