Last night started off like usual. I fed the critters, tinkered around on Squall some more, then settled down to watch some movies online.

I had just finished watching Predators (finally finished it, I started watching it like two months ago) and was surfing for another one that I hadn't seen yet when there was a knock on my door. This was around 3:30am, and judging by the knock I was pretty sure it would be M. So I, of course, let him in. It was fucking freezing out last night, so I wasn't about to just leave him standing on the porch. =/

I made him a coffee and we sat and talked for a while, and then he was asking what all Squall could do (he's from the generation that knows pretty much zip about computers) and when I mentioned that it could play movies he was very curious and asked if I would put one on so he could see.

And so I surfed for another minute and then put on Furry Vengeance, which I thought would be right up his alley.

So we're sitting there, him on the couch and me on the floor beside it-- and out of nowhere he leans over and sticks his tongue in my fucking ear. I was like WHAT THE FUCK? And he apologized profusely and yammered about not meaning it in a sexual way and how he respected me and really just EXCUSE ME? HOW THE FUCK WAS I SUPPOSED TO TAKE IT?

FFS M, you keep telling me that Mom and I are like family to you! In what universe is it okay for you to do that to family?!

The thing is, he had been drinking, so I did finally accept his apology. Then I asked him to leave, which he did without complaint. Then I went and took a shower. With lots of soap, as I was left feeling rather icky over the whole thing. =__=;;

So yes, last night I was mildly molested by an elderly man who is a close friend of mine. Or at least he was; honestly, I'm not sure where my opinion on him stands at this point, despite accepting his apology.

I MEAN WHAT THE FUCKING HELL, M? JUST WHAT. THE. FUCK. >[

Been a month since I posted last. Mostly that's because of my stupid computer. It crashed about a week into October and took a week to have fixed. Then when I brought it home from that, I plugged it in and it immediately crashed again during bootup. -__-;; So I took it back in again. Two more days and it was fixed a second time. I plugged it back in... and this time my monitor died. >__<;;

Picked up a cheap monitor from goodwill to do until I could get a decent one. Brought that home. Plugged everything in. MOUSE DIED ASDGH;KL. Worked a little with a half-working mouse. Then, last night, COMPUTER CRASHED YET AGAIN. TT~~TT

Welcome to my nightmare the last month. -_-;; Ugh. Anyway, like $500 later and the PC was back in the shop this afternoon. Then Mom and I were at Walmart (getting business cards for me to print up and a new mouse) and happened to see that they had mini-notebooks on sale for like $340 + tax. So, already $500 of repairs and replacements later, I made the decision to scrap the old desktop and just get a new laptop.

EEEE MY FIRST LAPTOP~ AND IT'S SO TINY AND BLUE AND ADORABLE~~ <333 ...I don't know how to do hearts on this keyboard. >>;

So the guys at the repair shop are going to just copy my documents folder onto discs and I'm getting rid of the desktop all together. Teeny laptop ilu! :3

More update tomorrow or whatever once I've finished setting up everything on Zephyr (my old PC was called Tempest, I name them after grouchy winds for a reason lmao) and got some sleep because I am ever ever so exhausted today for some reason. Even my laptop glee can't make me stop yawning. :P

EDIT: Also, the only reason I could afford it was because Mom fronted me the money. I'm so broke right now I have bill collectors on my ass for the first time in my life, and it makes me a sad panda. ;-;

...I think one of my cats is gender-confused. =__=;;

You know those commercials you see where people run through fields of flowers, and ride bikes and generally look as cliché as possibly while the narrator talks about New Drug X? And they really quickly list the possible side effects so you won't really hear them but you always do anyway?

I just saw one, for a drug for treating restless leg syndrome (I don't remember the name right now), and one of the side effects was the urge to gamble. I swear. "If you experience excessive urges to gamble, or excessive sexual urges, contact your physician immediately."

GAMBLING is now a side effect! xD;;

I've had a headache for like three weeks now. I don't know why, either. But the doctor said not to worry about it. And aparently one of the new meds she put me on is good for headaches too, so... head. But still. Maybe they're just caused by stress and depression...

Probably... =__=;;

Blegh, I just filled up my pill case for this week coming up and I'm just... horrified by how many different drugs I'm on. I take 16 pills a day, not counting any allergy pills or gravol or whatever I might need over-the-counter. I'm a fucking walking pharmacy.

...I'm so rediculously tired of everything, I can't even describe it...

....

Man, I'm not just depressed lately, I'm depressing, aren't I? Sorry. Ignore me.

I spent about 3 hours today updating my devART account with ponies from the last six months or so. I fail at updating.

...also, my lungs are doing weird things today. I woke up this morning all congested, but not in an I Have A Cold way, just... I can't breathe right. I had the same thing happen about a year and a half ago, and that was when I had infections in my lungs and stuff.

....

Fuck.

I had a doctor's appointment this morning (yay); it was just for prescription repeats when I made it, but I ended up getting a flu shot and the doctor took a look at my hand while she was at it. Now my arm aches. But my hand is feeling much better now that the antibiotics have started working. :)

It's still all bruised and the joint is swollen a bit still, but it's on it's way~

And today I picked Loki back up from the vet's after his neuter/declaw. He's a little grumpy, but fine otherwise... EXCEPT.

While they were doing the pre-op exam, they found three whole fleas on him. No eggs, no flea dirt, just three adult fleas. So they treated him for them. SOUND FAMILIAR? And I had a nice long chat with the vet about it, where she insisted that the chances of him picking up fleas from their office twice were very slim.

So I went out and bought a flea comb to check the rest of my animals.

Neko is FLEA FREE. Tri is FLEA FREE. Pauper is FLEA FREE. Phoenix is FLEA FREE. Phantom is FLEA FREE. The rats are FLEA FREE.

Loki is also flea free now, as are Sarah's cats.

The vet is trying to tell me that the fleas must have come from here, and must have come into the house back in May when I first got Loki. And he's the only one with them, after that many months? PLEASE.

THOSE FLEAS CAME FROM YOUR OFFICE. AND I DON'T APPRECIATE BEING CHARGED FOR A FLEA TREATMENT WHEN THAT'S THE CASE.

Yeah, two days later, but watch me ramble about visiting my Grandma. X3;;

Wow, she's doing so much better! It was like visiting Grandma again. Last time it had only been three weeks since Grandpa died, and she was really still out of it, but this time she was almost back to normal. She talked about decorating and baking for Christmas, and buying new clothes. She showed off her plants, which she always used to do. And of course, she practically threw food at me from every direction, but she's always been the kind to feed people.

I was so happy to see her like that again. ^__^

So let's see. The first day when Mom dropped me off, Grandma made us have lunch like as soon as we got there. She'd made minestrone soup (she makes awesome minestrone soup!) and rice pudding, and while we were eating she was complaining that the rice pudding hadn't turned out quite right, it was really sticky for some reason.

She'd bought rice specifically for it, since it calls for white rice and all she had was brown (like it really matters all that much), and as it turned out, she'd bought sticky rice. And Mom just started LAUGHING. WTF, I was like "SHUTTUP." >>;;

I searched all over the damn place a few months back for sticky rice, and couldn't find it anywhere. Finally I had to go to a health food place and buy it at a really high price just to get some, and Grandma goes out and buys the cheapest rice she can find, and accidentally ends up with sticky rice. ARGH. WHY DO THE COSMOS MOCK ME SO??

Grandma laughed, too. >__>

But then she gave me the rest of the bag of rice, because she didn't like it and I was wibbling over the unfairness of it all, lol.

The next day, we went into Huntsville to get more rice (she needed "normal" white rice, and I ended up buying three more bags of the sticky rice for about $1.25 each), and we picked up odds and ends while we were at the grocery store. Then we went to the salvation army to poke about for ponies, and managed to find two. Both of them had horrible hair that was a pain to hack off, but other than that they were in really good condition. <3

Oh, and we went to the dollar store where I bought ribbon and some misc. things to send in the next round of P.O.S. boxes~

That night Grandma went out to play yuchre (or however you spell it) at the seniors center, and I watched Standoff and House while she was gone. I was glad to sit and watch tv by myself. She had a really hard time in the beginning, because she'd just always spent her time at home with Grandpa, and without him around she had no one to pass the time with, and was really lonely. I'm glad she's getting out more, to play cards and to bazaars and things like that.

And she's taking a computer course! She's all excited about learning how to create folders and cut-and-paste text, and it seems weird to me because those type of things are practically second nature... but she's never had a computer before, and Uncle Alec just gave her one of his (he has several >>;) a couple of months ago. So she's set about learning how to use it. :)

Ahhhh, anyway...

The day after that, Grandma made date squares, because they are my favorite. =3 And also because we were discussing it, and I was saying that I'd tried to make them last year at Christmas time and failed miserably, and I didn't know why. It turns out I was using a pan that was hugely the wrong size. ^_^;;

So when we figured that out, she started digging through her cupboards for a pan to give me, and we ended up going through all of her immense collection of baking utensils/pans/whatever for about three hours. By the time we were done, the cupboards were empty and everything was spread out over the floor. She was having so much fun showing everything off, I couldn't bring myself to stop her. XD;;

Then she have me a cake pan and a muffin pan, and some cookie sheets, and a bamboo steamer and a slow cooker and other odds and ends. >^-^;; I always leave Grandma's with way more stuff than I go there with...

That night was Bones (which I cried like a baby over, by the way), Criminal Minds and CSI: New York. Yep.

Then the day she took me home, we stopped on the way in Gravenhurst to visit Giant Tiger and the salvation army there. At GT I ended up with a bunch more odds and ends... and Map-O-Spread to send to smoulderedtears and cat_mcdougall, yey! Then at the salvation army I got TONS of ponies for about $5! 14 or 15 of them, I think. ^____^ Plus the lion with the wings and the crown from the movie back in the 80's, whose name I don't remember. We lucked out there!

And while I was at her place, I poked through her recipes and picked out a bunch that I wanted, mostly to send to cat_mcdougall, since she asked so nicely in her Christmas wishlist post. I already have a gift for her, but I feel the need to share some of my childhood favorites!

Ah, and Grandma send me home with some Pumpkin Chip Muffins to try. Pumpkin with chocolate chips. |_|; They were alright. Pretty different, but good. ♥

All in all, it was a good visit, and made me feel really good. I'm not nearly so worried about her anymore, and after I talked to Mom about everything neither is she.

OH.

But I noticed something creepy on Wednesday night. Grandma was ticking away at the computer in the back bedroom, and I was watching tv... and there's this clock that Grandpa got for Christmas last year sitting on the shelves. It was SUCH a pain in the ass to set up, but with a tremendous group effort we did manage to get it working.

And I noticed it wasn't running.

The hands had stopped at 4:45, which is the time in the morning that Grandpa died, three months ago.

I just got up and went downstairs for a minute, and on my way I was like "ow, my ankles kind of hurt". When I got back up here, I sat down to have a look-- and both of them are swollen all to hell! O__o

W.T.F.

OMFGCSI. AGAIN.

Was I hearing wrong, or did Grissom just call Sarah "dear"??

XD;;