Sena's DW :: Watermelon Life

Flash is going to die... he's a very sick little gerbil. He was fine yesterday morning, then last night when I went to clean his cage, he was looking really bad. Now he's gone so far downhill that he can't do much else other than lay on his side and struggle to breathe.

When I picked him up, he was so cold... I held him for a while, and that seemed to help a bit. Then I warmed up one of my old socks in the microwave and put it into the terrarium with him to keep him warm for a while... the least I can do is try to make him comfortable, right?

I'm going to miss my Flashdance...

.....

Anyway. I know it seems out of place given the Flash-talk, but I downloaded some clips of that new Powerpuff Girls anime this morning and thought I'd share, for anyone that's curious; The promo and a short clip from the first episode.

WIERD. @_@;;

I'm looking into fostering an animal for the local branch of the S.P.C.A., so today Mom took me out there to get an application. Basically, the whole thing gives the terms and conditions of becoming a foster "parent", then asks if you understand what you're getting into. After that it asks for a list of any cats and dogs that you already have, along with their age/gender, whether their shots are up to date, and the phone number of their vet.

After I take that back in, they have to come and do an inspection to make sure I'm a decent person to entrust the animal(s) to. So they know I won't be skinning them and making them into stew as soon as they're out of their crates and whatnot. ^_~

Once we got the papers and headed out, Mom took me to the pet store (jeez, I spend as much time there as I do at home...), where I grabbed a couple of mineral blocks. What I was actually there for, though, was a 10-gallon terrarium for Dazzle. ^^; Flash was fine in his cage, but Dazzle would really obviously be more happy in a terrarium... so I got one for him, along with a mesh lid and a hook-attachment for the water bottle.

When I came back home and set it all up, I ended up putting Flash in with him as well. I figured if I'm going to try introducing them again, the best idea is to do it on neutral ground--like a new terrarium. And they're doing fine, so I think all it pretty much well with them. They both seem to like their new home, too, which is good. ^^

While we were still out, I got Mom to head to the mall to look through Zellers and the book store. While we were at Zellers, I got a couple of posters (because the bare walls around here were starting to make me twitch), then at the book store I grabbed a bargain book on Unsolved Mysteries of the world. It looks like an interesting read.

When we were leaving the book store, I asked if I could take a quick look through San Diego, since it's right across the hall... and in there I found some pretty star-themed bead curtains. I'd asked for them for Christmas, but no one could find them at the time. Anyway, Mom bought me a couple boxes to go where my "closet" is; I put them up when I got home (after I dealt with Dazzle and Flash), and boy do they look snazzy!

I also nicked a poster for Sarah while I was out (it's of Guitar Chords), and she was so thrilled with it that it was kind of funny. ^^; It actually turned out that she had bought something for me a while ago, too, but kept forgetting to give it to me. The poster reminded her, so she went and got it, and it ended up being an adorable fluffy blue stuffed bunny. >^-^< She got it around Easter time.

I named him Momiji, because I have no imagination sometimes. XD

ARGH. I need a new computer screen. >_<;;

That aside, I'm really tired. Insomnia sucks. So does muggy heat. =_=;; Thank God for air conditioners. I would have gone to bed already, except the premier of The Inside is on right now and I've been looking forward to it for about two weeks now; since I first saw the ad for it. I'm a sucker for crime/forensics dramas. :P

Have you ever had a dream where you were crying or screaming for some reason, and then when you wake up, it feels like you actually have been?

I had one of those last night. Mom and I were arguing about my writing, and she was telling me that if I was going to write books, I needed to sit my ass down and bloody well get writing, dammit! She was yelling at me, telling me I was a huge disappointment, and one of my friends (Suisei-chan) was standing there with me. We were supposed to be going to school, but I couldn't go because Mom wouldn't stop screaming at me long enough for me to get a word in edgewise.

I remember being so angry at first that I could barely defend myself, and Suisei-chan was trying to get Mom to calm down, but she wouldn't. After the anger I found myself crying hysterically--and when I woke up my throat, eyes and lungs hurt, as if I'd been sobbing for hours like in my dream. I had a headache, so I think I was gritting my teeth.

I've had a couple of dreams like that before, where I'm sobbing uncontrolably for whatever reason, but the one last night was the worst one... just because it was Mom who was screaming at me and telling me how worthless I was. Not that I have to guess why I'm dreaming like that, since that's how I feel about myself nowadays, but still...

Dreams like that are more terrible than any nightmare I've ever had.

Moving on!

Flash and Dazzle are doing fine, despite their minor injuries (which neither of them seem to notice, still). I'm sure they'll be alright, but I checked them a couple of times today just to make sure. Gerbils have so much energy... ^_^;;

It's strange, but Neko's taken to Flash really quickly. Flash's cage is on the floor opposite the rat's cage, and Neko spends a lot of time laying in front of it; he rolls over onto his back and wriggles around, and then stretches one paw out to the bars. Then Flash ambles over and sniffs at his paw, and Neko purrs. It's actually really cute. ^^

I'm not really surprised about it, though... when he was younger he used to be bestest friends with Granite and Bedrock.

And Triton absolutely adores Yuki and 'Nashi. >^-^;; He sleeps next to their cage so much that I ended up just moving his pillow there. It's fun to watch him play with them... 'Nashi plays with him the most. They poke at each other through the bars, Tri purrs, and 'Nashi makes happy chirping-squeaking noises. When I open the door to the cage, Tri moves around there and noses at him, and 'Nashi noses right back; then he moves back a bit and bounces before poking his nose out at Tri again. ^^

They're very sweet... =3

In case anyone was wondering why I have so many animals, here's the explanation: I find them very theraputic. They help me to relax a bit when I'm freaking out. To be perfectly honest, a lot of the time now my pets are the only reason I drag myself out of bed in the morning. Knowing that they need me, love me no matter what's going on in my life, and depend on me gives my pathetic life at least a flicker of meaning.

Sometimes the incentive is barely there... but it's still there nonetheless.