Fixing The OCD Issue
May. 9th, 2025 11:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
senashentaSo, in the end my (mild) OCD won out after all and I added one more fic to Hanna and Lorenzi's storyline, so now it goes: Highwater, Brightwater, Wildwater, Clearwater, Stillwater. Five is the Good Number in my head, that and multiples of five, and I just do the best I can with what I have. :|
I've also got the post-HH fics at an even 20 now, which my brain likes, and the post-SS fics sat at 32 for the longest time and drove me INSANE but I finally figured that out this morning by reinstating Stalactites and introducing Dogman and Fairy Tales, and now we're up to 35, which, again, my brain likes. So, I have an immense feeling of satisfaction right now even though I still have to WRITE like 25 of them (I think?) and EDIT 6 that I've already finished. That's in the HH and SS fics combined.
What I REALLY need to do is freaking sit my butt down and FINISH TKA, but I got to 50,000 words in it for the NaNo back in November and then all my motivation just... abandoned me. I still have like 30k to write and I just CANNOT get up the gumption to do it. I think I'm just going to have to force the issue, now that I'm supposedly not updating Horror High et al every week anymore.
Other than that...
I said I wouldn't try to contact Poe anymore, a couple of months back, but I emailed them yesterday because I was thinking about everything they did for me over the course of our friendship and I wanted to sincerely say thank you. So, I sent a very short email stating just that, and included a picture of the cats because they always liked them, particularly Juna. I don't expect a reply, but I feel better for having sent it, and I guess that's the important thing.
Um.
I desperately need to swap out the axolotl tank for the new one, the one they're in now has been leaking for months, but just about the time I was gearing up to do it I got really sick and I'm still not completely recovered. Not to mention the broken ribs. I can't haul buckets of water or carry even the empty tanks, so I'm just dealing with the leak with towels for now. Thankfully it's a slow leak because it's going to be at LEAST a month or two before my ribs are up to the task.
Right now I feel PARTICULARLY useless, I can't even do the cat litter myself. It sucks. And every time I have to cough I'm afraid I'm going to break another rib. Four is enough, thank you. Good thing I have a high pain tolerance, I guess.
I can't remember if I mentioned this here before but I'm thinking about rehoming two of my birds. The girls make SO MUCH OF A MESS ALL THE TIME, way more than the boys do, and the bird dust is REAL. My allergies are trying to kill me and the birds are a big reason why, I think. I hate the idea of giving them up, but for my own health and sanity I think it might be for the best... I'm just waiting until my ribs are healed enough that I can use the vacuum cleaner, so I can clean their cage out properly and then vacuum up the mess that's left behind. Then I can take pics and put them on kijiji.
I picked up a couple of DVDs this month, Smile 2 and Venom: The Last Dance. I'd seen them both before but I wanted them for my collection. (I also want all the Hatchet movies for my collection but that's a whole other ball of wax.) I also bought ink off Amazon because I am going through a SHIT TON of ink lately, printing things out, especially cover art for my fics and stuff. I ran out of page protectors, too, so I need to get more when my last Carbon Rebate thing FINALLY hits my bank account.
Now I think I need to go have a nap. I've been doing that a lot, since I got sick and especially since I broke my ribs, and then after that I might finally work on my Fanfic Covers Scrapbook a little, depending on if my ribs like it or not.
I also need to completely reorganize my Storm Season binders, though. Decisions, decisions.
I've also got the post-HH fics at an even 20 now, which my brain likes, and the post-SS fics sat at 32 for the longest time and drove me INSANE but I finally figured that out this morning by reinstating Stalactites and introducing Dogman and Fairy Tales, and now we're up to 35, which, again, my brain likes. So, I have an immense feeling of satisfaction right now even though I still have to WRITE like 25 of them (I think?) and EDIT 6 that I've already finished. That's in the HH and SS fics combined.
What I REALLY need to do is freaking sit my butt down and FINISH TKA, but I got to 50,000 words in it for the NaNo back in November and then all my motivation just... abandoned me. I still have like 30k to write and I just CANNOT get up the gumption to do it. I think I'm just going to have to force the issue, now that I'm supposedly not updating Horror High et al every week anymore.
Other than that...
I said I wouldn't try to contact Poe anymore, a couple of months back, but I emailed them yesterday because I was thinking about everything they did for me over the course of our friendship and I wanted to sincerely say thank you. So, I sent a very short email stating just that, and included a picture of the cats because they always liked them, particularly Juna. I don't expect a reply, but I feel better for having sent it, and I guess that's the important thing.
Um.
I desperately need to swap out the axolotl tank for the new one, the one they're in now has been leaking for months, but just about the time I was gearing up to do it I got really sick and I'm still not completely recovered. Not to mention the broken ribs. I can't haul buckets of water or carry even the empty tanks, so I'm just dealing with the leak with towels for now. Thankfully it's a slow leak because it's going to be at LEAST a month or two before my ribs are up to the task.
Right now I feel PARTICULARLY useless, I can't even do the cat litter myself. It sucks. And every time I have to cough I'm afraid I'm going to break another rib. Four is enough, thank you. Good thing I have a high pain tolerance, I guess.
I can't remember if I mentioned this here before but I'm thinking about rehoming two of my birds. The girls make SO MUCH OF A MESS ALL THE TIME, way more than the boys do, and the bird dust is REAL. My allergies are trying to kill me and the birds are a big reason why, I think. I hate the idea of giving them up, but for my own health and sanity I think it might be for the best... I'm just waiting until my ribs are healed enough that I can use the vacuum cleaner, so I can clean their cage out properly and then vacuum up the mess that's left behind. Then I can take pics and put them on kijiji.
I picked up a couple of DVDs this month, Smile 2 and Venom: The Last Dance. I'd seen them both before but I wanted them for my collection. (I also want all the Hatchet movies for my collection but that's a whole other ball of wax.) I also bought ink off Amazon because I am going through a SHIT TON of ink lately, printing things out, especially cover art for my fics and stuff. I ran out of page protectors, too, so I need to get more when my last Carbon Rebate thing FINALLY hits my bank account.
Now I think I need to go have a nap. I've been doing that a lot, since I got sick and especially since I broke my ribs, and then after that I might finally work on my Fanfic Covers Scrapbook a little, depending on if my ribs like it or not.
I also need to completely reorganize my Storm Season binders, though. Decisions, decisions.
