Sena's DW :: Watermelon Life

I had a friend named Poe. A BEST friend named Poe. For the last couple years. And Poe was-- IS-- amazing and inspiring. I'm in awe of them. They struggle through life but accomplish SO MUCH, unlike me. They're a best-selling author with another book coming out in June. They lifted me up and made me feel like I was a WORTHWHILE PERSON for the first time in years. We even had our own holiday, Birthmas, because we both had birthdays close to Christmas, so we would send each other Birthmas parcels and do unboxing videos and everything (I won't get into Birthmas In July aka BIJ, it's pretty much self-explanatory.)

And then, three months ago, they ghosted me completely out of the blue. Just vanished off the face of the planet and left me totally floundering because I had NO IDEA what was going on. We had just come off what I thought was a really good Birthmas and they dropped me like a hot rock. I tried messaging, I tried emailing, on my Mom's advice I sent a physical letter in the post just in case something had happened to them so their Mum could let me know. No replies.

I was SO AFRAID that something had happened, that they were sick or injured in some way and COULDN'T reply, and I began to panic.

(pause here to cry for a bit; this is still really hard to talk about)