![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Venting A Little
Dec. 15th, 2010 10:51 pmI've been sick since Sunday night. Blegh. Lots of TMI, but sufficed to say I haven't been able to go far from the bathroom for various reasons. Then last night around 7pm I decided I needed to get my clothes on to check the mail... and fell down the whole flight of steps outside. =__=;;
Basically? I don't own a shovel (and can't afford to buy one right this minute), and thusly can't shovel off the steps, and NO ONE ELSE WILL FUCKING BOTHER. So Mom came over today and brought a shovel and did the stairs for me. The woman who lives next door happened by while she was doing it and goes "these steps are terrible" and then just WALKED UP THE STAIRS PAST MOM without bothering to even offer to help. Bitch.
One of the guys from downstairs did offer. Not K, obviously, because God forbid he should get off his druggy ass and, idk, DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE FOR ONCE, but his little brother was over and poked his head out to see if Mom needed a hand. I don't know the kid's name, but he seems to be a relatively decent human being, unlike his brother. He's the only one who's ever around down there who shows concern for the cats being outside (and literally covered in ice in their fur) in this weather, too.
Anyway, last night I didn't hurt too badly from the fall, but you know how it is, so today I'm really sore. Falling down a whole flight of stairs will do that to you. =/
I just really needed Mom to come over and keep me company for a while. Between being sick and falling yesterday, and bullshit with the apartment, I've been crying pretty much the last three days straight.
This place has baseboard heaters; which would be fine, except that only one out of the three of them WORK. The back room is relatively warm, which is where the rabbits and rats live, but the entire rest of the apartment is so cold that at night you can actually see your breath. This is because the heater in the main room and the one in the kitchen are broken. I do have one small electric space heater, but I have to keep it aimed on Aya's terrarium so he won't, you know, DIE (being a snake and all.) ALL the windows in this place literally have an inch of ice on the inside of them right now.
So it's freezing, and I'm already sick, and now I'm getting a cold from having to sleep in these temperatures. On top of that, it's cold enough out now that my pipes have frozen so I don't have hot water in the kitchen. At least it still works in the bathroom, though?
The frustrating part is that I talked to the landlord about all this LAST WINTER, when THE SAME FUCKING THINGS HAPPENED. Granted, last winter the heater in the living room did work. Somewhat. Not really great, but at least a little, and about 100x better than it is now. He KNOWS about this stuff, and he told me that he would get it all fixed. Yeah? When? Because it's been almost a year now, and he's nowhere in fucking sight. >[
I don't know...
Between the bullshit with the neighbours, and all the problems in the apartment itself, it's not even worth it. But I'm Goddamned STUCK here because I can't afford anywhere else. Fuck it, I can't even really afford the rent HERE, but it's the closest I can get.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do! I'm at my wits end here, I'm freezing and without hot water, and I honestly am afraid for my life half the time because of the fuckwits downstairs. I HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE. But what am I supposed to do?!
...and now I'm crying again.
I'm going to go watch Disney movies until I stop sobbing like a sissy.
EDIT: Oh, and on top of that my paid account here is about to expire and I can't afford to renew it and my userpics. Dammit.
EDIT #2: And I have a massive headache from crying so much.
Basically? I don't own a shovel (and can't afford to buy one right this minute), and thusly can't shovel off the steps, and NO ONE ELSE WILL FUCKING BOTHER. So Mom came over today and brought a shovel and did the stairs for me. The woman who lives next door happened by while she was doing it and goes "these steps are terrible" and then just WALKED UP THE STAIRS PAST MOM without bothering to even offer to help. Bitch.
One of the guys from downstairs did offer. Not K, obviously, because God forbid he should get off his druggy ass and, idk, DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE FOR ONCE, but his little brother was over and poked his head out to see if Mom needed a hand. I don't know the kid's name, but he seems to be a relatively decent human being, unlike his brother. He's the only one who's ever around down there who shows concern for the cats being outside (and literally covered in ice in their fur) in this weather, too.
Anyway, last night I didn't hurt too badly from the fall, but you know how it is, so today I'm really sore. Falling down a whole flight of stairs will do that to you. =/
I just really needed Mom to come over and keep me company for a while. Between being sick and falling yesterday, and bullshit with the apartment, I've been crying pretty much the last three days straight.
This place has baseboard heaters; which would be fine, except that only one out of the three of them WORK. The back room is relatively warm, which is where the rabbits and rats live, but the entire rest of the apartment is so cold that at night you can actually see your breath. This is because the heater in the main room and the one in the kitchen are broken. I do have one small electric space heater, but I have to keep it aimed on Aya's terrarium so he won't, you know, DIE (being a snake and all.) ALL the windows in this place literally have an inch of ice on the inside of them right now.
So it's freezing, and I'm already sick, and now I'm getting a cold from having to sleep in these temperatures. On top of that, it's cold enough out now that my pipes have frozen so I don't have hot water in the kitchen. At least it still works in the bathroom, though?
The frustrating part is that I talked to the landlord about all this LAST WINTER, when THE SAME FUCKING THINGS HAPPENED. Granted, last winter the heater in the living room did work. Somewhat. Not really great, but at least a little, and about 100x better than it is now. He KNOWS about this stuff, and he told me that he would get it all fixed. Yeah? When? Because it's been almost a year now, and he's nowhere in fucking sight. >[
I don't know...
Between the bullshit with the neighbours, and all the problems in the apartment itself, it's not even worth it. But I'm Goddamned STUCK here because I can't afford anywhere else. Fuck it, I can't even really afford the rent HERE, but it's the closest I can get.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do! I'm at my wits end here, I'm freezing and without hot water, and I honestly am afraid for my life half the time because of the fuckwits downstairs. I HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE. But what am I supposed to do?!
...and now I'm crying again.
I'm going to go watch Disney movies until I stop sobbing like a sissy.
EDIT: Oh, and on top of that my paid account here is about to expire and I can't afford to renew it and my userpics. Dammit.
EDIT #2: And I have a massive headache from crying so much.
