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senashentaI keep coughing, and it's been a couple days since I broke that last rib so it doesn't hurt QUITE as much to cough (sneezing is still a BITCH though), but every time I cough I'm afraid I'm going to break another rib because a) my track record this past month and b) I can feel a spot in one of my other ribs that's really straining and trying to give. So, I'm just like... no, please. Four broken ribs is MORE than enough. :|
I have a couple more days before Mom is going to make me start doing the cat litter and everything on my own again, but I think tonight I'm going to offer to (try to) help, just as a gesture of goodwill. I'm not sure if I can do it, but if she sees me trying at least maybe she'll understand that I'm not doing this on fucking PURPOSE.
Still going to talk to Dr. K about osteoporosis and getting a bone scan when I go in to see her next.
ANYWAY.
Um. I finished Say Something the day before yesterday and it came in at 36 pages and 17,390 words which means it's BY FAR not the longest HH or SS one-shot (I'm looking at YOU, Endling) but it's still a respectable length. I'm pleased with how it came out, and it's actually more angsty than porny, so there are only three smut scenes in it unlike most of the rest of the post-HH stuff haha.
Right now I'm working on Southern Hospitality, which I think IS going to be as smutty as the other post-HH stuff but what else is new, right? The setting is quite different, though, and there are some really cute plot points in it that I'm looking forward to writing in. Cookies. Dean cooking. Taking care of backyard chickens. Making love on a legit bearskin rug by the fireplace. That sort of thing.
I also dug out (read as: opened in Word, there wasn't much actual "digging" required) a couple of my Valdemar one-shots to tinker with again, and right now the one I'm mostly focused on is called Highwater, which is relatively new. After that I might work on Graceless. But I also have Not Horses, Wander and Sweet Like Candy kind of queued up for later.
The funny thing is that my goal for my HH/SS SPN fics is always 13,500 words and I (almost) always go over that by a fair margin, but my goal for my Valdemar fics? 5,000 words. Yeah. I mean, if I go over that they YAY but that's my base goal for Valdemar one-shots and chapters of Valdemar fics (except for Marionette, it has much longer chapters than that.) I just... I've never written long Valdemar stuff, so I don't want to set the bar too high and then be disappointed when I don't reach it. So, I set the bar lower and hope to go over it instead. Make sense?
Mom thinks I'm underestimating myself, though. She says I've grown as an author and a writer a LOT over the last few years, and especially since I went onto the ADHD meds, and I should have more faith in myself. And it's not that I don't WANT to have faith in myself, I know my writing is better, longer, more in-depth, I just want to be realistic, I guess.
Speaking of writing and Word, though, my subscription has lapsed and the Word people keep sending me notices about it. It's only a matter of time before they cut off my services, but I can't do anything about fixing it until my Carbon Rebate comes in and I have no idea when that will be. Hopefully they won't cut me off before then. (Maybe I can start saving my writing in Drive so I can work on it there just in case until I get this whole situation worked out.)
It was much easier when I was working and had a paycheck coming in every two weeks on top of my ODSP money, but I'm to the point physically AND mentally that I CAN'T work anymore, especially at the places that would hire me, like fast food franchises and that kind of thing. :|
I have a couple more days before Mom is going to make me start doing the cat litter and everything on my own again, but I think tonight I'm going to offer to (try to) help, just as a gesture of goodwill. I'm not sure if I can do it, but if she sees me trying at least maybe she'll understand that I'm not doing this on fucking PURPOSE.
Still going to talk to Dr. K about osteoporosis and getting a bone scan when I go in to see her next.
ANYWAY.
Um. I finished Say Something the day before yesterday and it came in at 36 pages and 17,390 words which means it's BY FAR not the longest HH or SS one-shot (I'm looking at YOU, Endling) but it's still a respectable length. I'm pleased with how it came out, and it's actually more angsty than porny, so there are only three smut scenes in it unlike most of the rest of the post-HH stuff haha.
Right now I'm working on Southern Hospitality, which I think IS going to be as smutty as the other post-HH stuff but what else is new, right? The setting is quite different, though, and there are some really cute plot points in it that I'm looking forward to writing in. Cookies. Dean cooking. Taking care of backyard chickens. Making love on a legit bearskin rug by the fireplace. That sort of thing.
I also dug out (read as: opened in Word, there wasn't much actual "digging" required) a couple of my Valdemar one-shots to tinker with again, and right now the one I'm mostly focused on is called Highwater, which is relatively new. After that I might work on Graceless. But I also have Not Horses, Wander and Sweet Like Candy kind of queued up for later.
The funny thing is that my goal for my HH/SS SPN fics is always 13,500 words and I (almost) always go over that by a fair margin, but my goal for my Valdemar fics? 5,000 words. Yeah. I mean, if I go over that they YAY but that's my base goal for Valdemar one-shots and chapters of Valdemar fics (except for Marionette, it has much longer chapters than that.) I just... I've never written long Valdemar stuff, so I don't want to set the bar too high and then be disappointed when I don't reach it. So, I set the bar lower and hope to go over it instead. Make sense?
Mom thinks I'm underestimating myself, though. She says I've grown as an author and a writer a LOT over the last few years, and especially since I went onto the ADHD meds, and I should have more faith in myself. And it's not that I don't WANT to have faith in myself, I know my writing is better, longer, more in-depth, I just want to be realistic, I guess.
Speaking of writing and Word, though, my subscription has lapsed and the Word people keep sending me notices about it. It's only a matter of time before they cut off my services, but I can't do anything about fixing it until my Carbon Rebate comes in and I have no idea when that will be. Hopefully they won't cut me off before then. (Maybe I can start saving my writing in Drive so I can work on it there just in case until I get this whole situation worked out.)
It was much easier when I was working and had a paycheck coming in every two weeks on top of my ODSP money, but I'm to the point physically AND mentally that I CAN'T work anymore, especially at the places that would hire me, like fast food franchises and that kind of thing. :|
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