Happy Birthday To Me
Jan. 3rd, 2025 09:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
senashentaToday is my birthday, but I don't feel much like celebrating, and even if I DID, I don't have any FRIENDS to celebrate WITH anymore, so I guess it's a moot point. But Happy Birthday To Me anyway, I guess. Here's hoping 2025 is WAY better than 2024 was. After all, it couldn't get much worse.
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Somehow, Storm Season is doing even worse than Horror High when it comes to feedback and I don't know how that's possible but apparently it IS. I just posted Chapter 5 yesterday and so far it's got 3 comments, 35 kudos, 6 bookmarks and 463 hits all together and that is PATHETIC. I don't know if I'm just really wrong and HH and SS AREN'T good, or the SPN fandom is just THAT DEAD since the show ended a couple years back. Either way it's frustrating.
On the plus side, since the summer Horror High has jumped to 59 comments, 164 kudos, 28 bookmarks and 3,136 hits, which still isn't great but makes me feel a little better, at least? The 5 in-between one-shots all did poorly as well, and all I want is some feedback so I know what I'm doing WRONG, is that so much to ask?? It's very discouraging and almost makes me want to cry sometimes.
Anyway.
Yesterday I started accidentally editing Serendipity and now I've got the entire second half edited(ish) and just have to to the first half, which, admittedly, is backward, but you know, it is what it is. I still have a bunch more post-SS one-shots to edit, but I have even more to WRITE, so I'm kind of focusing on that more than anything else. I'm trying really hard to work on Temper Tantrums even though my brain really doesn't want to focus on that one, and I'm also working on Echoes off-and-on. Also, last night I changed the title of "Shrike" to "Endling" because reasons, even though I've only got like four paragraphs written on that one so far.
But yeah. Just trying to dig my way through Temper Tantrums right now so I can move on to something my ADHD brain likes better. (Of course, I could always just re-order them and move Temper Tantrums further down the rankings, but that would just be procrastinating. On the other hand, it would give me time to get my ADHD meds worked out again and maybe that would help? I dunno, still trying to decide.)
When it comes to original writing, I have another entry I want to make about Riley from MZ later on but that's all I really have to say for now. :D;;
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I appear to have misplaced one of my axolotls. When I look in the tank I can only see two no matter how hard/where I look and I KNOW the other one has to be in there SOMEWHERE, but the little buggers are really good at hiding so at this point unless I take all the hides out again just to make sure, I just have to wait for him to make his reappearance again. So far it's been 36 hours, I'll give it another 24 and then I'll start rustling the bushes and see if I can find him. I'm just worried something's happened to him, that's all. =/
...so far, since finishing The Walking Dead, I've also finished the first seasons of Dead City and The Ones Who Live and I liked both of those, but now I'm on to the World Beyond and I'm like... I dunno, it's this thing where every episode I watch I'm like "the writing is crap and the characters are crap and this entire show is crap and why am I watching this crap?" but then I find myself clicking on the next episode anyway. It's like I'm trapped. And I still have a season and a half to go. Bah.
Looking forward to the Daryl Dixon series, though.
Way back in the summer I like mainlined eight seasons of SPN and totally burnt myself out on it, and ever since then the rest of the series has been sitting on my HD just waiting for me to get back to it, and I think once I finish up with the TWD stuff that's currently on my HD I'm going to try going back to it and see if my brain has had enough of a break because literally one day I clicked on the next episode and my mind went "NO" and that was the end of it lol. I guess 15 seasons all at once was a lofty goal. Then again I watched 11 of TWD + 1 of DC + 1 of TOWL and now I'm watching WB and it's all The Walking Dead so... yeah. I dunno. Whatever. My brain is weird.
Today Mom and I are supposed to be going out to Michael's (for shirts and paint) and the Dollarama (for trash bags, an electric power bar and chocolate), and I want to see if she'll go to Shoppers so I can mail my postcards (late this month, boo!!) and use my $10 coupon before it expires. This is all weather/roads permitting, of course. We were supposed to go yesterday but then we got three feet of snow dumped on us and the snow plow didn't get here until 5 o'clock at night, so. =/
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I'm desperately trying to resist the urge to email Poe and ask how they're doing, since they deleted their Insta and again and that's never a good sign. I'm also thinking that possibly I'm the REASON they deleted their Insta, because I messaged them there a couple of times when they didn't reply to my emails. I'm starting to wonder if they view me as a stalker, to be honest, which is of course NOT my intent. I just can't turn my heart off and worry about them a lot. So, I'm trying very hard not to message/email them as much to give them the space they apparently need.
Sending that email back in September was the worst mistake of my life. Not that they were talking to me at that point anyway, because of the stupid Teen Wolf thing, but there was still the potential for future friendship. My apparently careless wording in that email has completely ruined that, and I'll regret that until the end of my days.
.....
Somehow, Storm Season is doing even worse than Horror High when it comes to feedback and I don't know how that's possible but apparently it IS. I just posted Chapter 5 yesterday and so far it's got 3 comments, 35 kudos, 6 bookmarks and 463 hits all together and that is PATHETIC. I don't know if I'm just really wrong and HH and SS AREN'T good, or the SPN fandom is just THAT DEAD since the show ended a couple years back. Either way it's frustrating.
On the plus side, since the summer Horror High has jumped to 59 comments, 164 kudos, 28 bookmarks and 3,136 hits, which still isn't great but makes me feel a little better, at least? The 5 in-between one-shots all did poorly as well, and all I want is some feedback so I know what I'm doing WRONG, is that so much to ask?? It's very discouraging and almost makes me want to cry sometimes.
Anyway.
Yesterday I started accidentally editing Serendipity and now I've got the entire second half edited(ish) and just have to to the first half, which, admittedly, is backward, but you know, it is what it is. I still have a bunch more post-SS one-shots to edit, but I have even more to WRITE, so I'm kind of focusing on that more than anything else. I'm trying really hard to work on Temper Tantrums even though my brain really doesn't want to focus on that one, and I'm also working on Echoes off-and-on. Also, last night I changed the title of "Shrike" to "Endling" because reasons, even though I've only got like four paragraphs written on that one so far.
But yeah. Just trying to dig my way through Temper Tantrums right now so I can move on to something my ADHD brain likes better. (Of course, I could always just re-order them and move Temper Tantrums further down the rankings, but that would just be procrastinating. On the other hand, it would give me time to get my ADHD meds worked out again and maybe that would help? I dunno, still trying to decide.)
When it comes to original writing, I have another entry I want to make about Riley from MZ later on but that's all I really have to say for now. :D;;
.....
I appear to have misplaced one of my axolotls. When I look in the tank I can only see two no matter how hard/where I look and I KNOW the other one has to be in there SOMEWHERE, but the little buggers are really good at hiding so at this point unless I take all the hides out again just to make sure, I just have to wait for him to make his reappearance again. So far it's been 36 hours, I'll give it another 24 and then I'll start rustling the bushes and see if I can find him. I'm just worried something's happened to him, that's all. =/
...so far, since finishing The Walking Dead, I've also finished the first seasons of Dead City and The Ones Who Live and I liked both of those, but now I'm on to the World Beyond and I'm like... I dunno, it's this thing where every episode I watch I'm like "the writing is crap and the characters are crap and this entire show is crap and why am I watching this crap?" but then I find myself clicking on the next episode anyway. It's like I'm trapped. And I still have a season and a half to go. Bah.
Looking forward to the Daryl Dixon series, though.
Way back in the summer I like mainlined eight seasons of SPN and totally burnt myself out on it, and ever since then the rest of the series has been sitting on my HD just waiting for me to get back to it, and I think once I finish up with the TWD stuff that's currently on my HD I'm going to try going back to it and see if my brain has had enough of a break because literally one day I clicked on the next episode and my mind went "NO" and that was the end of it lol. I guess 15 seasons all at once was a lofty goal. Then again I watched 11 of TWD + 1 of DC + 1 of TOWL and now I'm watching WB and it's all The Walking Dead so... yeah. I dunno. Whatever. My brain is weird.
Today Mom and I are supposed to be going out to Michael's (for shirts and paint) and the Dollarama (for trash bags, an electric power bar and chocolate), and I want to see if she'll go to Shoppers so I can mail my postcards (late this month, boo!!) and use my $10 coupon before it expires. This is all weather/roads permitting, of course. We were supposed to go yesterday but then we got three feet of snow dumped on us and the snow plow didn't get here until 5 o'clock at night, so. =/
.....
I'm desperately trying to resist the urge to email Poe and ask how they're doing, since they deleted their Insta and again and that's never a good sign. I'm also thinking that possibly I'm the REASON they deleted their Insta, because I messaged them there a couple of times when they didn't reply to my emails. I'm starting to wonder if they view me as a stalker, to be honest, which is of course NOT my intent. I just can't turn my heart off and worry about them a lot. So, I'm trying very hard not to message/email them as much to give them the space they apparently need.
Sending that email back in September was the worst mistake of my life. Not that they were talking to me at that point anyway, because of the stupid Teen Wolf thing, but there was still the potential for future friendship. My apparently careless wording in that email has completely ruined that, and I'll regret that until the end of my days.
