Horror Stories

I'm like a decade late, but I decided to watch American Horror Story, so I downloaded the first two seasons (Murder House and Asylum) and I'm TRYING to download the third (Coven) but no one is seeding it right now so the torrent is just sitting there at 5% staring at me. Anyway I'm on episode 9 of Murder House and so far I'm enjoying it. I mean, it's FUCKED UP, but that's right up my alley so as far as I'm concerned we're good to go. :D

...I don't have any American Horror Story icons. Boo. (I should probably hold off on getting any until I've at least finished a couple of seasons. Have a Derek instead.)

Speaking of icons, I went on a (brief) icon hunt yesterday and found I think three Teen Wolf, four SPN and three good Marvel ones, but I DID manage to find a TREASURE TROVE of The Witcher ones which I nabbed seven from and plan to go back and look through more thoroughly later. I want more TW, SPN and Marvel (particularly Marvel, I need me some Bucky/Winter Soldier icons) but I can keep looking for those later. I don't want to fill up my whole new icon space in the span of two days.

Also, completely unrelated, but I have four birds. Budgies. Two males (Winter (blue) and Shield (green)) in one cage and two females (Emmett (aquamarine) and Rosie (pastel blue/yellow)) in another cage. And I love them to bits they are my flappy babies, but they are ALL moulting right now and there are feathers EVERYWHERE. I am vacuuming CONSTANTLY and can't keep up and my allergies are like "WHO TOLD YOU IT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA TO GET BIRDS??"

I can't wait til moulting/shedding season is over. :|

EDIT: Found a new torrent for Coven that has more seeders and will hopefully not take a million years to download, and also found a torrent for Freak Show. (I get the feeling this is a series I'm going to feel the need to pick up on DVD at some point in the future myep.)

Some Thoughts

I think I’m coming to realize that I put too much of myself into my friendships, especially with people I click with right off the bat like Poe. I think it’s part of being bi-polar, an all-or-nothing, dive in head-first kind of mentality. So when I get close to someone, I pour an excess of myself into them and maybe that’s the problem. I’m too much. I’m off-putting. Overwhelming. Maybe it feels like I’m demanding more from the other person than they’re willing or able to give, but that’s never the case. I would never knowingly ask that of anyone. But that exuberance isn’t a part of myself that I can change or turn off, it’s hard-wired in there, part of my neurodivergence, so I just keep hurting the people I love, driving them away, and in turn hurting myself. It’s a vicious cycle.