I Saw The Light

I can't sleep. Again. And so I'm puttering around online, to alleviate the boredom.

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Bweh. Dazzle and Flash got into a spat earlier tonight, and they both ended up a little scuffed up. They're both also acting light they don't even know they're hurt, and the injuries are pretty minor (a bit of fur pulled out on each of them, mostly), so I'm not worrying too much. After their little arguement, they just immediately went back to acting like nothing had happened, too. ^^;; Despite that, I did, however, end up sepparating them and moving Flash to another cage. I may or may not put them back together once they're both all healed up.

Ah. Guess I should explain about Dazzle and Flash in the first place, ne? ^^;; They're gerbils, and they are absolutely adorable and very friendly. =3 Dazzle is white, and Flash is "white cinnamon", which basically means he's a light reddish brown color, with faint patches of white around his chin and neck area. Flash also has a short tail for some reason... the people at the pet store said they're not really sure why, but he could have been injured when he was very young; the short tail was putting people off, so they were having a lot of trouble finding someone to buy him. I think that's rediculous, since I find him so damn cute. ^^

So! If everything goes well with the two of them, I'm considering buying a female gerbil, naming her "Shimmer" and then breeding her once or twice. The idea is mostly just to give me something to do, but also because I've never had an animal of mine have babies, and I'm kind of curious. I don't want to do it all the time, but I figure I can do one or two litters and that would satiate my curiosity.

Dazzle and Flash aside, Mom and my Step-Dad got their dog on Sunday. ^^ He's as adorable as ever. They named him "Foxy Possum", but they're calling him "Possum" for short. The name was my Step-Dad's idea. ^_^;; He's still settling in, and is a little nervous at times... he's lived for two years in a place with lots of dogs and few people, and one year of that was in the kennel, so living in a house is really strange for him; things like carpet/stairs/couches/chairs are very new to him.

He's coming along very well, though, considering how upset he was the first day. ^^; He was afraid of everything. Now he knows Mom, Trunks and my Step-Dad, and he actually seems to remember me from Dad and Lois'. >^-^< He cuddles with me a lot when I'm over.

So basically, he wasn't sure at first, but he's seeming to realize now that the Human/Dog ratio is more in his favor here than it was back at the kennel. ^_~ Here, there's almost always someone willing to pet him, cuddle him, and generally dote on him. He's not used to being the center of attention so much, but he definitely likes it!

I should take some photos and post them just to show you how cute he is! X3

The Inside

ARGH. I need a new computer screen. >_<;;

That aside, I'm really tired. Insomnia sucks. So does muggy heat. =_=;; Thank God for air conditioners. I would have gone to bed already, except the premier of The Inside is on right now and I've been looking forward to it for about two weeks now; since I first saw the ad for it. I'm a sucker for crime/forensics dramas. :P

Have you ever had a dream where you were crying or screaming for some reason, and then when you wake up, it feels like you actually have been?

I had one of those last night. Mom and I were arguing about my writing, and she was telling me that if I was going to write books, I needed to sit my ass down and bloody well get writing, dammit! She was yelling at me, telling me I was a huge disappointment, and one of my friends (Suisei-chan) was standing there with me. We were supposed to be going to school, but I couldn't go because Mom wouldn't stop screaming at me long enough for me to get a word in edgewise.

I remember being so angry at first that I could barely defend myself, and Suisei-chan was trying to get Mom to calm down, but she wouldn't. After the anger I found myself crying hysterically--and when I woke up my throat, eyes and lungs hurt, as if I'd been sobbing for hours like in my dream. I had a headache, so I think I was gritting my teeth.

I've had a couple of dreams like that before, where I'm sobbing uncontrolably for whatever reason, but the one last night was the worst one... just because it was Mom who was screaming at me and telling me how worthless I was. Not that I have to guess why I'm dreaming like that, since that's how I feel about myself nowadays, but still...

Dreams like that are more terrible than any nightmare I've ever had.

Moving on!

Flash and Dazzle are doing fine, despite their minor injuries (which neither of them seem to notice, still). I'm sure they'll be alright, but I checked them a couple of times today just to make sure. Gerbils have so much energy... ^_^;;

It's strange, but Neko's taken to Flash really quickly. Flash's cage is on the floor opposite the rat's cage, and Neko spends a lot of time laying in front of it; he rolls over onto his back and wriggles around, and then stretches one paw out to the bars. Then Flash ambles over and sniffs at his paw, and Neko purrs. It's actually really cute. ^^

I'm not really surprised about it, though... when he was younger he used to be bestest friends with Granite and Bedrock.

And Triton absolutely adores Yuki and 'Nashi. >^-^;; He sleeps next to their cage so much that I ended up just moving his pillow there. It's fun to watch him play with them... 'Nashi plays with him the most. They poke at each other through the bars, Tri purrs, and 'Nashi makes happy chirping-squeaking noises. When I open the door to the cage, Tri moves around there and noses at him, and 'Nashi noses right back; then he moves back a bit and bounces before poking his nose out at Tri again. ^^

They're very sweet... =3

In case anyone was wondering why I have so many animals, here's the explanation: I find them very theraputic. They help me to relax a bit when I'm freaking out. To be perfectly honest, a lot of the time now my pets are the only reason I drag myself out of bed in the morning. Knowing that they need me, love me no matter what's going on in my life, and depend on me gives my pathetic life at least a flicker of meaning.

Sometimes the incentive is barely there... but it's still there nonetheless.