senashenta | First In A Long While (Reply)

Holy fuck, I'm in pain. What the hell, I get cramps every time, but they haven't been this bad in years. I'm in so much pain I'm dizzy and lightheaded, and can't sit up straight. I feel like I have a fever, even though I know I don't. Painkillers and muscle relaxants aren't working either; I've taken a fuckton of them and nothing. By the time I take enough to help at all, I'll be ODing and making myself sick (I've done it before by accident. NOT FUN.)

FUCK. FUCKFUCKFUCK. SOMEONE KILL ME NOW, PLEASE.

On a non-TMI topic, I'm moving in a month or two. Possibly the end of November, possibly closer to the end of December, depending on how things go with the sewer lines being fixed. Basically, if they don't have them fixed by the end of this month, Sarah is moving come the end of November, so I have to leave then as well. If they do get them fixed by the end of this month, she won't be moving for a couple extra months, so my original December timeline still works.

Unfortunately, I have nowhere to go but back to Mom and Lee's place. Mom keeps assuring me it's fine, and that's what parents are for, but fuck do I feel guilty about it. I would still be paying rent (they said $240/month but I'm insisting on at least what I pay here, which is $355) and helping out with hydro/etc. and paying for my own Internet and everything, but still. They're just now finally getting my brother out of the house, and I know it'd be nice for them to have some time to themselves.

I know, I know... Mom doesn't want me on the street or anything, and she'd rather I was there because she's worried about me. But still. I feel like such an inconvenience and a burden. Though I suppose between paying for myself and helping out with cooking/cleaning/etc. I can at least try to make up for it...

All of this is only possible because it turns out that if I move back in with them, ODSP won't cut me off, as long as they're charging me rent/utilities/etc. I suppose I would have felt even worse if I'd just moved back in and had to bum off them, so that's something. I need to discuss everything with Mom some more and work out how it's all going to happen, and try to figure out where I'm going to store the furniture and etc. that won't fit when I go back. I guess I'm having a yard sale soon. Which would be less of a pain if it wasn't getting really cold here already.

So... I get to start packing ASAP, and moving things over there a few boxes at a time to cut down on what has to go all at once when I do move. I hate packing. I hate moving. I hate having to go back and burden Mom again. But I hate this place more. Not to mention the lack of affordable housing around here. It's the only thing I can do.

UGH.

In somewhat related news, I need money. Desperately. To help with the move and everything. I guess a garage sale might help a bit, but no guarantees. I'll probably post a list of stuff I'm willing to part with as I pack things up and go through them. Please consider buying something when I do! Or, if you're interested, I'm still taking pony commissions. Just email me or drop a comment and we can talk about it.

[Pronnie: Asch!pony is... not done. I failed at your birthday deadline. :D; Sorry! Still working on him though! I'll bug you for your address when I get him finished. For now he's sitting on my coffee table giving me "wtf woman, why am I still bald?!" looks. ♥ ~~Screw you Asch!pony, your hair is hard to sculpt! >|~~]

Oh, and on a not even remotely related topic, been downloading more stuff. An episode of Bones that I missed (I still need this week's Criminal Minds too), as well as a bunch of Jurassic Fight Club episodes (ilu

firebird_88 for turning me on to that ♥♥), a couple of shark documentaries like Sharkwater, and a ton of movies; Wild Hogs, Day of the Dead, Enchanted, Deep Rising, Shark Swarm, Superhero Movie, Journey to the Center of the Earth, Batman: Gotham Knight, Mama-Mia (yes, Pronnie, I will watch it I swear), My Super Ex-Girlfriend, Anaconda III, The Mummy Tomb: Curse of the Dragon Emperor, The Strangers, Epic Movie and Alone In The Dark II. >3

I've watched a few of them, and I'll probably talk about them tomorrow or the next day when I'm feeling better. FOR NOW RECCOMMEND SOME GOOD MOVIES (OR TV SHOWS) TO ME. I HAVE TONS OF DOWNLOAD MB LEFT.

Note to self: FINISH MOULIN NOIR APPLICATION, DAMMIT. >__O;;

Basically, everything at RY is running alright. Steph, Maddie and I actually had a nice long mod meeting the other day to discuss various things and got pretty much everything worked out, with the exception of one topic that needed more thinking on. We plan to actually attempt mod meetings once every couple weeks from now on, to keep on top of any issues, rather than letting them build up like they had. ♥ That is, if Maddie and Chloe's PC starts working again. BAD MOMO. BAD. *rolled up newspaper flailing HERE*

I need to do something with Hikaru and Mahiru. I always say that. But with Michelle away for college so much (and now with a busted laptop also), Kaoru isn't around as much and Hikaru doesn't like to do things without him. He's a pain as always. And Mahiru... she's hard to write when I'm stressed. But I need to push through it. I've owed Agon-mun a tag for ages. ;3; I'm sorry! Maybe once Michi's back from hiatus I can put together a band log for Mahiru with Axel and Asch. They need to find someone to replace Riku anyway. (OMG Leah come back! Riku was the sane one! Take pity on Mahiru! @@;;)

As for Kyo, I haven't been doing as much with him lately, though he's going to be getting into some things with Rufus/Seph/Basch/etc. in a bit. We can't start that until Maddie gets back either. Maybe in the mean time I can give him a couple days off and send him off to have fun. Maybe he can go out with Zelos or something.

Then there's Kadaj, who is somewhat broken up with Mar and NOT taking it well. Until yesterday, he hadn't slept in like four days and isn't eating. Besides which, Kuja was mocking him and saying nasty things about him and Mar, and so Kadaj punched him, and Kuja retaliated by choking him, scratching the shit out of his throat (a bi-product of the choking) and then biting him hard enough to leave a huge-ass bite mark/hickey. Kadaj is... unhappy right now. 8D;;

And of course, Roxas. ^_^ He's got a job at the Host Club that Lavi works for (he's the youngest one there, the only blonde, probably the only one with blue eyes, and will be in his school uniform half the time; he's a fetish waiting to happen. XD) and is starting on Monday. Not the kind of job most people would think of for him, but... it's fun to make Roxy squirm. Kekeke. And right now Fletcher is dancing around singing about him being a gigalo, which made me LOL so hard you have no idea. XD;; He also met Axel the other day (wow, was it weird actually having to introduce the two of them o_o;) and is not entirely sure what he thinks. He's spoken to Lavi a bit too, and will probably end up liking him quite a bit. Oh, and Haruhi kidnapped him for her as-of-unnamed band, though it has yet to be established if he's going to be stuck in SOS Dan too.

~~...holy shit, Kadaj wasn't the biggest paragraph this time. @__@;~~

Random note: lol RY makes me ship the strangest pairings. *coughKuja/Yazoocough* I love it. <3

...and now I'm off to curl up in whimpering, shaking ball on the bed and pass out from the pain.

Have a random Tetsuya icon.