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The Nomadic Life
For most of my adult life I've been a functional nomad. With the exception of my current situation (living with my parents from 2017-->present), I've never lived in a place for more than three years. Some places were more like four MONTHS, because not even most of my own family can put up with my eccentricities for longer than that. It's an exhausting way to live, both physically and emotionally. I hate moving. I hate packing and unpacking, and how physically hard it is, and how expensive it is.
But that's why I place so much emotional importance on my pets and my possessions, because even though I move house pretty much constantly, I always have my animals and my things and those don't change. (Also, theoretically, my friends, but I've learned the hard way that those will drop away at the drop of a hat, so...)
Right now, the reason I'm living with Mom and my Stepdad, is because I moved in with my Grandma back in 2017 to help us both out and it was a DISASTER. I had a nervous breakdown from living with her and had to get out so I came here "temporarily" and now it's 2024 and it's like... yeaaaah. Basically, I'm on the list for subsidized housing and waiting for my name to come up for an apartment, but who knows how long that's going to take? It's already been three (four?) years.
Meanwhile almost all my belongings are in storage at Grandma's house in the basement, which is overrun with mice, and I'm trying to save up enough money for movers for when my name DOES come up on the subsidized housing list, but other things keep happening that eat up my savings like my cats having to go to the vet, my computer dying and having to be repaired/replaced, etc.
I'm tired of living here and imposing on Mom and my Stepdad's life. I'm tired of living in just one tiny bedroom. And I'm tired of being a nomad. I just want a home that I can make my own and stay in indefinitely idk is that too much to ask?
But that's why I place so much emotional importance on my pets and my possessions, because even though I move house pretty much constantly, I always have my animals and my things and those don't change. (Also, theoretically, my friends, but I've learned the hard way that those will drop away at the drop of a hat, so...)
Right now, the reason I'm living with Mom and my Stepdad, is because I moved in with my Grandma back in 2017 to help us both out and it was a DISASTER. I had a nervous breakdown from living with her and had to get out so I came here "temporarily" and now it's 2024 and it's like... yeaaaah. Basically, I'm on the list for subsidized housing and waiting for my name to come up for an apartment, but who knows how long that's going to take? It's already been three (four?) years.
Meanwhile almost all my belongings are in storage at Grandma's house in the basement, which is overrun with mice, and I'm trying to save up enough money for movers for when my name DOES come up on the subsidized housing list, but other things keep happening that eat up my savings like my cats having to go to the vet, my computer dying and having to be repaired/replaced, etc.
I'm tired of living here and imposing on Mom and my Stepdad's life. I'm tired of living in just one tiny bedroom. And I'm tired of being a nomad. I just want a home that I can make my own and stay in indefinitely idk is that too much to ask?